“Do you want me to answer that now? Or would you like me to fuck you?” I ask as I slide a little deeper. Her breathing turns uneven, and her hands come to rest on my ass.
“No more talking,” she says. She pushes my ass with her hands, causing me to take her deeper. We quickly pick up a frantic pace as I pound into her, and she claws at my back.
“Don’t come,” I say to her. I was reading that withholding orgasm will only intensify it later. Instead, I flip her on her stomach and take her from behind.
I massage one of her butt cheeks as I watch my cock disappear inside her. I slow my pace, wanting this to last.
She reaches down to roll her nub and I shoo her hand away. “Your orgasms are mine.” I wrap my arm around her and reach down to roll her nub. It doesn’t take long for her to grind harder and faster into me, and when she gets close, I stop. She lets out a disappointed grunt.
“Logan,” she chides.
“Lili,” I return. She turns and gives me a daring look. I love the fire in her eyes.
I go to lie on my back. “Straddle me.” I don’t mention this is me wanting to try all kinds of new positions. She straddled me in Hawaii but this time I want to be sitting up.
She does as I say and when she straddles me, I sit up and claim her lips. She rocks on my cock as we kiss, and it feels so intimate. I also love the feeling of her breasts rubbing against my chest. It feels so much deeper like this. I reach down and begin to roll her nub and Lili picks up the pace. With whatever leverage I have I rock my hips and press my pelvis into her. It doesn’t take much until we are fucking each other’s brains out again. We come together, and then her head falls on my shoulder as we both catch our breaths.
I hold on to her and kiss her shoulder, spreading soft kisses along her damp skin. She holds me tight too. A part of me feels like I don’t want to let her go. I felt something special between us from the moment we met, but I knew the feelings weren’t mutual. I had hoped she would give us a chance in Hawaii, and she did. I want to believe things were so good it wore her down when we got back to Westfall. I know we’ve become friends, but I don’t want her as just my friend.
She lifts off me and heads to the bathroom. She returns with a towel, and I use it to wipe my cock.
She gets into bed with me and snuggles. I kiss her forehead. We lie quiet for a while.
“Everything okay?” I ask to break the silence.
“I’m just thinking,” she replies.
“Of that crazy getup you wore to sneak in here?” I joke.
She smiles. “No, my dad. I don’t know why but I thought things would be different between us when I came to Westfall.”
“Different how?” I ask.
“He’s always been a workaholic. The team always came first. My whole family knows how driven he is, but I thought if I was here, we would finally have time to spend together, and I feel like we spoke more when I was in Boston.”
She falls quiet again. “I didn’t grow up with my father. I don’t even remember him, so I’m probably not the right person to come to for fatherly advice. I remember you telling me in Hawaii your family was typical. That your parents have been married forever,” I offer.
“I may have embellished a little. My parents have been married forever, but I don’t know if they are truly happy. My mama is lonely. My papa is never there for her. All she has is Alessa and me, and it bothers me now. After everything I’ve been through with Tristan, I want more for Mama and more for me,” she declares.
“Isn’t it good to have high expectations?” I ask.
“Not when you set yourself up to get hurt,” she replies quickly. Her words feel razor sharp like they are aimed at me, and even if they aren’t aimed at me, they tell me her guard is up.
“I don’t know, Lili. I may not have had much of a family life growing up. I had to fend for myself. I had my brother, but he started college when I was fifteen. I was on my own a lot, but then my brother made these good friends in college. They became like his family. He brought me into the mix too. You met them all in Hawaii. Every one of those people have had a hard time at some point in their lives. None of them come from what you would consider a stable family life, but they found partners they can depend on. People they trust and love. They made new families and are living their best life. It’s what I want too.”
Lili’s lips press together, and I can’t tell if she’s smiling or frowning. “I met them in Hawaii. They were all very nice. I can’t believe they’re all professional athletes.”
“Don’t go stigmatizing them,” I scold, feeling protective.
She shakes her head. “Sorry. Papa raised me to believe athletes were douchebags who would hurt us.” She winces. “But your friends are all good people. I saw that. They were all loving and respectful to their wives and children.”
“That’s what I want one day.”
She squirms. “That is a dream.”
“I know you were hurt. I can’t imagine how hard that must have been, but you said therapy was helping you. Do you feel a difference? I honestly see a different person than I met in Hawaii. You were so guarded there. So careful about your rules and exchanging information and now here you are trying new things at school, making friends. Sleeping with me after we’ve gotten to know each other better, and you can’t deny the chemistry between us,” I add, cocking my brow and daring her to challenge me on that one.
She moves her head on to my chest and runs her fingernails along my pecs. “Everything you’ve said is true. I’m feeling better. I’m happy and trying new things. I’ve even realized I. . .” She pauses and pulls away from me. She sits up and bows her head. The sheet falls away from her chest.
“What is it? You know you can tell me anything without judgment.”
She looks at me with dark doe eyes. “I’ve never had that before,” she admits, and her words pierce my chest. “I think I wanted to become a lawyer because my father made me believe it was the right course for me.”
“What do you mean? When I asked you in Hawaii, you said it made sense to you because you were always outspoken,” I recall.
She nods. “When Papa was home, he spent his time ensuring Alessa and I be strong women. He would tell us what he thought a respectable job should look like. What kind of men we should date. As I got older, he focused on my opinionated personality and told me I would make the best lawyer, but I don’t think I would have chosen that course for myself. Also my mama pushed it too because it meant I could be an independent woman, and she taught me and Alessa we don’t want to get stuck depending on a man like she did,” she explains, and then she looks at me like she is lost or maybe falling off a cliff.
“Baby.” I rub her shoulder with my thumb. “You need to do what makes you happy. If that means figuring out what you like, then take your time now. You’re young, better to figure things out now, right? Like I know hockey is it for me. I love the game and the sportsmanship. It’s given me opportunities I thought I would never have.”
She nods. “I found what I love and it’s PR. I really think I can make a career out of it,” she confesses, and she turns to the side to catch my reaction.