Jai’s arms went around me, hauling me back against him and away from a silver eyed Caleb. He held onto my hips as I pushed my arse back into him, feeling him hard and ready, and I groaned as one hand slid down my front, pressing into my groin to increase the contact.
But it wasn’t enough. I looked through the slits of my eyelids and saw the other wolf lying there, watching my display with rapt eyes, his fists clenched to stop himself from reaching for me. Why? was all I could come up with in response. He stood stock still when I reached for him, letting my fingers trail across his chest, his muscles going to iron when I scraped a nail across his nipple. I smiled at him, anything to draw him closer, to feel those big hands on my—
I felt Jai’s growl through my body, undulating against him as the tremor vibrated through me deliciously. His hands roamed now, while I panted yes over and over as one covered my breast, pinching down on the nipple, the other rucking up my gown.
“It’s OK, baby,” he rumbled. “I’ll take care of you.”
But it didn’t feel right, moving towards one and leaving the other. I pulled Caleb closer.
“Shan.”
My name was a reprimand, a warning, a snap, but I just quivered as I leaned back against Jai. I smiled when I felt him wriggle out of his pants, I smiled again when the other wolf—Caleb, my mind supplied helpfully—did the same. That was it, what I needed. I reached for him like a child as Jai settled back against me with gratifying haste. A sharp stab in my groin had me gasping in pain, and one hand, then another, covered my stomach. The warmth radiating from them helped somewhat, but it wasn’t enough.
“You let her go too long,” came the accusation.
“Me? I don’t want her doing anything but lie in this bed and let me tend to her. That’s what we’d be doing if it wasn’t for this fucking place, and you know it. She’s the one wanting to try these things, getting turned on playing silly games with the cats and then… I’m getting her off. You shouldn’t be here.”
I heard the growls, felt the tension build like knives in my side. I flexed and convulsed as the aching grew more intense, so sharp, I couldn’t even squeak out a cry.
One of the hands went to pull away, but mine slapped down over it as I whimpered. I needed it. I could feel it deep inside, as every time it tried to move away, it felt like something was tearing me apart.
“If you try shit. Try to force something—”
“I can’t mate her through rape. She has to want me. I could fuck the hell out of her right now,” I squirmed, crying out at those words and the subsequent answer inside me, “and it wouldn’t formalise shit. She loves you. She wants you.”
“And right now, she wants you too. Fuck! Baby, sweetheart…”
The voice was soft and cajoling, but my eyes prised open anyway, flinching at the bright lights above.
“Hey…stay with me for a second. I’m gonna get you off real fast, try and take the edge off.” I nodded violently at that idea, intense clenches making me writhe on the bed. “Caleb will be here, keep his hand on your belly, and make you feel better. Is that gonna be OK?”
My head swivelled around to meet the other man’s eyes. He stared at me like I was a meal after a week-long fast, like I was the most precious thing on earth. Slick seeped continually, readying me, opening me, preparing me to take them, both of them. I nodded, unable to say anything more.
I panted as I was bared to the two of them, the cotton wadded up around my waist with gratifying speed. My thighs fell open, glistening with the evidence of my need. The two of them growled, drawing more from me along with a low whine.
“Help her!” Caleb ground out.
Jai tried to start slow, just teasing my clit a little, but my cries got louder and more desperate. I grabbed his wrist, yanking it away and settling those fingers where I needed them, inside me.
Caleb’s hand rode my body as I lifted from the bed. It was too much and not enough, and I ached so much for something I couldn’t describe. Jai shoved his fingers in, taking the shift in my wails as a sign he was doing the right thing and he was.
“More…” I whimpered, and was rewarded with an even greater stretch as another finger was worked in. I nodded, that was it, that was what I needed, amongst everything else. “More,” I kept begging. “More, more, more…”
“Fuck, look at her stretch,” Caleb said in awe.
“She’s gonna take me. Shan, it's time.”
I reached out blindly, caressing Jai’s face but unable to do much more in my current state. Something was happening, changing inside me. Every firm, hard thing I’d ever carried with me was dissolving. Ideas, feelings, thoughts, barriers, boundaries. They all fell away in this moment, entirely dominated by the fire raging in my body. I was need, pure and simple, and my body was rearranging itself to aid that. My tendons were lax, my thighs able to widen further than they ever had, and Caleb grabbed my knees and pulled them up against my chest, Jai’s fingers pushing deeper and deeper.
But not deep enough. I was aching, right up inside me, in a place his fingers couldn’t touch. The rough thrust of them helped and made it worse, his knuckles smacking against my bare flesh until they too began to sink further in.
“I’m gonna make you come, baby. Get you all soft and sweet and ready for me.” Jai’s voice was warm, loving, but not for long. “She’s chosen me. You need to go. We’ll talk later, but this—”
I frowned, cried out, thrashed on the bed when that heavy weight on my stomach was removed.
“No!” I shouted, flailing blindly trying to restore it. “It hurts! It hurts!”
“Not for long, love. Almost there.”
I felt a pop as Jai wedged something deeper inside me, but despite getting the penetration I craved, this wasn’t right. My eyes flicked open, and I stared into Jai’s silver ones, my own not feeling right.
“I need more, Jai.”
“And I’m gonna give it to you, baby.” He was trying for reassuring, but I could hear the fear, the anger in his voice.
“No, Jai, more.”
I looked over to my right where a distraught Caleb lay, the two of them so close, their animals in their eyes. They edged in at my look, invited closer by my plea, and that felt right. Jai yanked my attention back to him when he pulled his fingers free and hunched over me, replacing them quickly with his cock.
Oh yeah…
Maybe I had a life, a purpose, a name before this, but it didn’t matter for shit right now, only this.
“More,” I nodded.
There was no working him in this time, my slick, my body accepting him like he was home, like he was always supposed to be there. And that’s what rushed up, pricking at my eyes, burning in my chest. Jai, Jai, Jai. He was my heartbeat, my compass, my true north. My body craved him like a drug, swallowing up every inch until we reached that bloody knot. His eyes jerked up, focussed entirely on me as he pushed.
When I look back now, this didn’t go the way I’d hoped. Right then, there were no thoughts, no plans, just instinct. Jai had made changes in my body, but it had its own ideas, as did my power.
It surged inside me as Jai pushed in. Working with an animal felt like sinking into a cloud of them, dealing with what was there, sorting things out. For the first time, this was about me.