“Were undercover agents. Detective Rayman was in on it, too.”
“The man at the funeral home?”
“It’s amazing what people will do for you when you threaten to sic the IRS on their financial records.”
“They asked me if I wanted to see the body.”
“Paul said that you wouldn’t.”
Claire clenched her fists. She hated that he knew her so well. “What if he was wrong and I asked to see it?”
“It’s not like on TV. We show you the image on a screen. The body’s usually in another room with a camera pointed on it.”
Claire shook her head. She couldn’t fathom the level of deceit at play. All to help Paul. All to give him a new life without Claire.
“I’m sorry.” Nolan reached into his jacket. He handed Claire a handkerchief. She stared at the neatly folded white cloth. His initials were embroidered in the corner.
She said the things she had wanted to say to Paul. “I watched him die. He was in my arms. I felt his skin go cold.”
“A lot can happen in your head when you’re in a bad situation like that.”
“You think I imagined those things? I saw blood pouring out of him.”
“Yeah, we put two squibs on him. Probably could’ve gotten away with just one.”
“But the knife—”
“The knife was fake, too. Retractable. The plastic on the squibs only takes a little bit of pressure.”
“The killer.” Claire thought of the snake tattoo on the man’s neck. “He looked real.”
“Yeah, well, he’s a real bad guy. One of my confidential informants, a low-level drug dealer who’ll do anything to stay out of jail.”
Claire put her hand to her head where the Snake Man had nearly ripped open her scalp.
“Yeah, sorry. He got a little carried away. But Paul went off script, and my guy got pissed. That thing at the end where Paul turned into a Ninja Turtle, that was not in the program.”
She patted the edge of the handkerchief underneath her eyes. She was still crying. This was crazy. She wasn’t in mourning. Why was she crying?
Nolan said, “The ambulance brought Paul to the parking garage downstairs. He was supposed to have some information on him, but surprise, he didn’t have it.” Nolan was obviously still angry about this part. “He told me it was in his car. We waited until nightfall. Just me and him. Very low key. We were walking down the street talking about next steps—your husband’s all about the big picture—then we get to his car and he’s rummaging around inside the glove box and I’m thinking, What the fuck? Do I look like a fiddle that needs playing? and he says, ‘Here it is,’ and I’m thinking he’s just being an asshole, because the guy’s a real asshole, and he comes outta the car and I’ve got my hand palm up like some kinda stupid kid thinking he’s gonna get some candy and boom, the asshole cold-cocks me.”
Claire looked at the yellow-purple swirl around Nolan’s eye.
“I know, right?” Nolan pointed to his eye. “Dropped me like a sack of hammers. I was seeing tweety birds and then I was seeing that asshole skipping up the street like a fuckin’ schoolgirl. He turns around at the corner and gives me one’a these.” Nolan gave two thumbs-ups as he flashed a fake grin. “By the time I manage to peel my sorry ass off the sidewalk, turn the corner myself, he’s in the wind.” Nolan looked both annoyed and impressed. “I gotta say, it’s not the only reason, but it’s part of the reason I really, really want to find your husband.”
Claire shook her head. This still didn’t make sense. Paul asking to be placed in witness protection? He would never hand someone else control over his life. They wouldn’t let him be an architect in witness protection. They wouldn’t let him draw attention to himself or his career accomplishments. There had to be something else he was trying to get out of the FBI. She was missing a detail or a stray word that would put together the puzzle.
Nolan said, “Look, I know I’ve been a dick, but I wasn’t sure whether or not you knew about your husband’s extracurricular activities.”
“The embezzling?”
“No, not that. Like I said, the money case is closed as far as we’re concerned. I mean the other stuff.”
Claire stared in disbelief. How could anyone think she would know about the movies and sit idly by? But Nolan hadn’t talked about the movies. He had only talked about Paul knowing some bad people who were mixed up in some bad things.
She asked, “What else was he involved in?”
“Maybe it’s good you don’t know,” Nolan said. “I can tell he kept you in the dark. Think of it as a blessing. I see your hands shaking, the confusion in your eyes. But you need to understand that the man you loved, the guy you thought you were married to, is dead. He doesn’t exist anymore. Hell, maybe he never existed.”
He wasn’t telling Claire anything she did not know. “Why do you think that?”
“We had a shrink take a look at him. Witsec—that’s Witness Security with the Marshall’s service—they always want a profile of anybody they put into the system. Kind of like a cheat sheet so they can predict behavior.”
Claire doubted a stadium full of shrinks could predict her husband’s behavior. “And?”
“He’s a non-violent, borderline psychopath.”
They were wrong about the non-violent part. “Borderline?” she asked. Why did she want to hold on to that word, to think that Paul wasn’t a total psychopath because he was still capable of loving her?
Nolan said, “He’s been living a parallel life. There’s the guy who’s married to this beautiful woman and has this successful career and lives in a million-dollar mansion and then there’s the real guy who’s not very nice.”
“Not very nice,” Claire echoed. What a massive fucking understatement. “You said they found him non-violent.”
“They did, but I’m the dumbass who took a hit in the eye, so I’m bound to think otherwise.”
“Why were you helping him if he’s such a bad person?”
“Because the real Paul Scott knows the identity of a very bad man who needs to be in prison for a very long time.” Nolan glanced back at the mirror. “That’s all I can tell you. Straight up, no bullshit. That’s how the system works. You do something bad, we let you go if you can point us toward somebody doing worse. And believe me, this is a hell of a lot worse.”
Claire looked down at her hands. Clever Paul. He hadn’t just fooled Claire with his movie-editing skills. He had fooled the Federal Bureau of Investigation. They had found the disgusting movies on his work computer and he had dangled the identity of the masked man in front of their faces in return for his freedom.
She asked Fred Nolan a question she knew she would eventually ask herself. “You said he wanted to go into witness protection. He was just going to leave me? Just like that?”
“I’m sorry, but trust me, you’re better off.”
“Did Adam Quinn know about the other stuff Paul was mixed up in? The name of the bad man?”
“No. We grilled the shit out of him. He had no idea.” Nolan picked up on her distress. “I can see why you stepped out on your husband. He really didn’t deserve you.”