I cut my eyes away to hide the pain he’d just uncovered, but my hesitation gave him the answer he needed.
“I’ll take that as a no,” he said, cruelly clinical about my estrangement from my family. “I’ll monitor their responses and let you know when you need to send another email.”
I lifted my chin, hurt making me defiant. “And how do you plan to access my email account?”
He fixed me with a level look. “You’re going to give me your username and password.”
I scoffed. “Not happening.” The fact that I was missing was all that gave me hope. Someone would wonder where I was soon. They’d look for me. The police would get involved. They’d find me and keep me safe from my captors and their enemies.
Marco cocked his head at me, considering. After a moment, he gave a short nod in Joseph’s direction. “You deal with her. I’m over this bratty bullshit. Let me know when it’s handled.”
I gaped at his back as he walked out of the room and shut the door behind him.
Deal with me? Bratty bullshit?
The man was as infuriating as he was intimidating.
I rounded on Joseph, emboldened now that Marco was gone. “How can you let him talk to me like that?” I demanded. “Actually, he’s not even doing me the courtesy of talking to me. He’s talking to you about me while I’m right freaking here. You’re just going to let him treat me this way? You’re just going to let him kidnap me and talk down to me like I’m nothing?”
Joseph’s brows drew together. “He’s not treating you like you’re nothing. That’s just how Marco is. And he only took you to keep you safe. We’ve explained this.”
I rolled my eyes. “Yes, how magnanimous of you. Instead of warning me and allowing me to go to the police for protection, you’ve chosen to abduct me and hold me against my will.”
“I don’t trust the police to keep you safe,” he said, suddenly fierce. “I don’t trust anyone else to keep you safe. I left you because I thought it was the only way to protect you. If I’d known you were at risk, I never would have let you leave my sight.”
I glowered at him. “Marco was right about one thing. You need to stop pretending to be noble. You’re not my white knight. You’re a criminal, Joseph. You lied to me.” The last came out on a strained whisper as my heart twisted at the words.
Shame colored his cheeks. “I didn’t lie. I just didn’t tell you everything.”
“You didn’t tell me anything,” I accused. “Every time I asked about your family or where you were from, you shut me out or changed the subject. I trusted you. I told you everything you ever asked about my life. But I don’t know you at all.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t want you to know. I was trying to get away from my life. That’s why I was in Cambridge. I wanted to hide out and start over. I wanted to start over with you, Ashlyn. Even though I knew I didn’t deserve that kind of second chance.”
“What did you do in your life that was so terrible?” I flung at him, even though I feared the answer.
His jaw firmed, and he cut his gaze away. “Plenty. And now I’ve ruined your life. That’s the worst crime I could ever commit. All I wanted was for you to be safe and happy.” His eyes snapped back up to mine, hard with determination. “I know I’ve made it impossible for you to be happy, but I’ll keep you safe, no matter what. Now, you’re going to write these emails and give me your login information.”
I pursed my lips. “You’re starting to sound like Marco.”
“Marco is being hard on you because he wants to keep you safe, too. We just want to protect you.”
“He doesn’t even know me. Why would he care about me at all?”
His pale eyes glittered, and I became mesmerized by their crystalline shine. “He cares about you because I care about you.”
My heart ached. Were the words as heavy with meaning as I imagined?
I love you. The unspoken sentiment was still locked in my chest. Did he feel the same way?
Even after everything I’d learned about him in the last hour, I still felt that soul-deep pull toward him.
“I know you can’t forgive me, but at least let me keep you safe. Write the messages. Marco will make sure they get to the right people. It’ll buy us time to figure out what to do next.”
“I…” I swallowed back my refusal. His earnest expression tugged at my heartstrings. He really did want to protect me, like he’d done from the very beginning. Marco had made it clear that he wasn’t going to let me go. If I didn’t really have the option to go to the police for protection, then I had to rely on Joseph.
Marco’s description of what their enemies would do to me had shaken me to my core.
“Hey,” Joseph said gently, calling my attention away from the horrific images that were filling my mind.
His hand covered mine, his thumb stroking my palm. His sincere aqua gaze pierced my soul. “I’d die before I’d let anyone hurt you,” he swore.
I found myself nodding. He spoke the absolute truth, and I couldn’t hate him when he made such a stark declaration.
“Okay,” I whispered. “I’ll write the emails.”
He lifted my hand to his lips and brushed a kiss over my knuckles. “Thank you.”
His touch was electric, and even the chaste gesture made my body light up with awareness. Our eyes caught, and he didn’t let go of my hand. He kept his gentle grip on me as he leaned in, closing the distance I’d put between us. My pulse ticked up, and my lips tingled in anticipation of his fierce kiss. Just like it had always been with him, I was completely in his thrall. He didn’t have to pin me down to keep me under his power. I was helpless to fight this irresistible connection between us.
He was close enough that his warm breath teased over my lips. They parted, ready for his tongue to sweep into my mouth, claiming me with deep, domineering strokes. His eyes roved over my face, studying me as though he was trying to memorize my every feature. His obsession was intoxicating, his reverence enthralling.
“Ashlyn.” He almost groaned my name, his husky tone heavy with longing and a hint of wonder. “I thought I’d never see you again,” he murmured.
He reached up and traced the line of my lower lip with his thumb, the touch feather-light and worshipful.
I love you. I bit the words back just before they could roll off my tongue. As much as I ached for his kiss, a new darkness tainted our connection.
Joseph had deceived me. I couldn’t trust him.
I remembered how he’d pinned me down and kissed the tears on my cheeks. Mere minutes had passed since then, and the memory of his arousal at my subjugation was still clear in my mind.
Just as he leaned in to capture my lips, I managed to turn my face away.
“Don’t,” I begged softly. I couldn’t bear it if he kissed me. My heart was already in pieces, and I couldn’t take any more. The man I loved had ripped my life away from me. He’d put me in danger, and he’d taken away my choices. I’d been convinced that he was good, but now, I didn’t know him at all.
I heard him take a shuddering breath. He didn’t withdraw immediately. I wondered if he was struggling to hold back the darker part of himself that wanted to pin me down and devour me, to draw out my lust for him until I forgot why I should push him away.