“Thank you, Sir.” I put my head in his lap, and he played with my hair. “I miss calling you that. It doesn’t feel right.” But I couldn’t imagine what my aunt would say if I walked around calling Aidan my Sir.
“You’re happy?” he asked.
“Yes. I never thought I would have this—have family. They’re great, and they really care about me. And I have you, so everything is perfect.”
“Come,” he said and pulled me until I straddled him. He kissed me, then laid me down and pushed his cock deep into my ass, owning me, possessing me. Loving me.
“Mine,” he said as he fucked into me.
“Yours,” I replied, and nothing would ever change that.
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
Aidan
“What’s your problem?”
“Nothing,” I snapped at David as we shared a meal. “Fuck. I’m sorry.” I’d been a miserable bastard all day. Hell, I’d been one for a while now, and I knew it. I couldn’t seem to stop myself, though.
David sighed. “When does your boy come home?”
I rubbed a hand over my face. It had been two weeks since I got on a plane in Houston, without him. A few days turned into more, and the truth was, I didn’t know when he was coming back. We talked every day. He shared what they’d been up to and told me he missed me. He asked permission each time he postponed his trip home, and he asked if I could give him a modified schedule for when he was gone. I hadn’t left him with one at all, but he’d missed it, he said, and so he wanted me to decide simple things like when he would wake up, when he would go to bed, and when we spoke each night.
Still, it wasn’t enough. I missed him, but I also knew I had no right to ask him to come home. Even as his Dom, I wouldn’t do that. Finley needed this. He was getting to know his family, and I would never take that away from him.
“I’m not sure,” I replied without looking at David.
“He is coming home, though, right?”
“Yes, of course. I just… He deserves this. I won’t be the one to take it away from him. And if he decides that’s where he wants to be, I’ll have to let him go.” I would hate it. Even the thought set my teeth on edge, but I would do it if it was what was best for him. From the beginning, that had always been what I’d wanted. I’d sworn I would never trap him, never hold him back, that all I wanted was to see him grow.
I wouldn’t be the one to chop off his wings when he tried to fly.
I wouldn’t be my father, no matter how much I wanted nothing more than to demand he come home, and keep him there forever.
“Aidan…”
“I don’t want to talk about it,” I told David. He must have been able to tell I was serious, because he gave me a sad smile and dropped the subject.
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
Finley
I was really starting to get homesick.
I loved being with Jenn and the girls. It was… Hell, it was more than I ever thought I would have, but I was starting to feel antsy, edgy, and I missed Aidan. I couldn’t wear his collar all the time because I wasn’t sure how my family would react. When I could, I kept it on, covered it with a shirt, but I felt off without it, without him.
But I was also scared that if I left, I would lose them. They would realize they didn’t care about me or end up forgetting me. That something would happen and I would lose them like I’d lost Mom, or how Aidan had lost his family, and I’d just found them. How could I risk that?
It was a Saturday, and Jenn and I were out together. Jeff had stayed home with the girls, giving us some time to just hang out. We got pedicures and went to lunch, and now we were at a park, walking around.
“I wanted to run something by you,” she said as we sat down at a picnic table under the shade of a weeping tree.
“Yeah, sure. What’s up?”
“I know this is going to sound crazy, and it’s a lot really fast, but I’ve put quite a bit of thought into this and discussed it with Jeff. We both love you so much, and so do the girls. It’s like having a piece of my sister with me again, but even more than that, you’re a great kid, and I love spending time with you.”
Okay…only I wasn’t a kid.
“You’re a part of this family, and I hate that you were taken away from us for so long. It’s not fair. It wasn’t fair to Mandy, and it’s not fair to you, and I’d like to make up for that. We wanted to ask if you’d be interested in staying here, in moving to Houston to be with us. You could work with Jeff at his construction company, or if you didn’t want to do that, you could go to school. You can stay with us, or you could stay in the small duplex Jeff and I own and have your own place. You’ve never had your own place, have you? I still have some of the inheritance my parents left us, and Jeff and I both agree that should go to you. You have a right to it as Amanda’s son. There will be paperwork and things like that we have to do, but that’s not important. I just…yeah, that’s it.”
I sat there dumbfounded. I had no idea what to say. I was ecstatic they loved me that much, that my mom’s sister was there and really wanted me to be in the family, but… “My life is in California. What about Aidan?”
“Oh, sweetie.” She reached over and put her hand on my thigh. “I know you care about him a lot, but you’re so young. There will be other guys, boys closer to your age, who you’ll have more in common with.”
“I have plenty in common with Aidan.” Maybe not the kind of things she would understand, but we had them. And he made me feel good. Made me laugh and made me want more for myself. I loved him, and that wouldn’t change.
“Is it okay to admit I worry about you? He’s basically twenty years older than you, and there’s something…I don’t know, a little controlling about him?”
“Aidan doesn’t do anything to me I don’t want,” I snapped.
“I’m sorry. I really don’t mean to attack him. He’s a very nice man, and I’ll support you whatever you decide. If you love him, you love him. I’ll always be here for you. I just… We’re your family, and we were robbed of so many years together. Will you promise me you’ll at least think about it?”
She was my family, and we had lost so much time. I didn’t want to lose her again, so I nodded. “Okay. I’ll think about it.”
It was all I could do for the rest of the day. My mother’s sister wanted me move to Houston with them, with my family, but in going, I would lose Aidan. He gave me everything I never thought I could have, everything I’d ever wanted, but he couldn’t give me this…my family, and I wanted them too.
Back at the house, I said I wasn’t feeling well and excused myself to my room. The girls were disappointed. I’d promised I would play with them, and I loved spending time with them. Kids of my own definitely wasn’t something I wanted, but I enjoyed other people’s.
When dinner was done, I skipped that too. Jenn gave me a sad smile as she closed my door, and that small thing made me think about Aidan. Oh God, if I’d tried to skip a meal with him, he’d have my ass…and I liked it. He was so particular about being healthy, and regular meals, and blah, blah, blah. Sometimes it drove me crazy, but most of the time it made me feel special, loved.