“My name’s—”
“I don’t care what your name is.”
She ignored my response, stating, “Let’s go back to my sorority house.”
“Fuck me,” I breathed out, but she misinterpreted my reply.
“I’d love to.”
“No.” I shook my head. “I need to go—”
“Yessss! Let’s dance!”
I blinked through my haze, and we were suddenly on the dance floor, her ass grinding on my dick while she backed me into a wall. Everyone’s faces were blending, and I could barely see a foot in front of me. Before I knew it, I was back in the bathroom, except this time I was standing in one of the stalls.
The sound of my zipper tore me out of whatever alcohol-infused blackout I was in. Looking down at the ground, I jerked back and zipped up my slacks.
“What the fuck?”
“What the fuck is right!” the woman seethed. “Why won’t you hook up with me? I’ve been trying all night, and all you keep doing is blowing me off! What’s the matter with you? Your cock wasn’t even hard when I was dancing on you!”
I didn’t have time for this bullshit, yearning for my wife. I left her there, on her knees, yelling obscenities, and tuned her out.
By the time I realized where I was, I was somewhat sober and walking into what used to be my house. Through my drunken state, I walked inside, and my feet moved on autopilot until I was opening the door to our bedroom, catching Kinley by surprise.
She gasped, spinning around to face me with her arms over her bare breasts. “Jesus, Christian! You just scared the shit out of me!”
For the first time in I didn’t know how long, I fucking smiled, gripping the door handle. Cocking my head to the side, I took in her gorgeous wet body from the shower. She looked better than I remembered.
And trust me, I fucked my fist to the sight of those tits so many goddamn times.
“Christian, what are you doing here?”
I nodded to her breasts. “I’ve seen them, baby. I’ve sucked on them, have come on them, and I’ve fucked them. You remember, don’t you? Because I have no problem reminding you again, sweetness.”
Her eyes widened, taking in my dominant stance. “You’re drunk.”
“And you’re fucking beautiful.”
She shook off my compliment. “Did you drive here?” Grabbing her silk robe off the bed, she threw it on, and I groaned, wanting to keep her naked and wet.
Kinley looked out at the driveway through the balcony slider I’d made love to her against time after time.
“Oh my God! You did drive here! What were you thinking?”
“I wasn’t.”
She jumped when she realized I was standing behind her, and I turned her to face me.
Except, she swept my hands away. “I’m going to make you some coffee. I can’t believe you drove here like this. If you get pulled over, you could lose everything.”
“I already lost everything. Thanks to you.”
“That’s not fair.”
“How do you turn it off, Kinley? How do you just stop loving me? I need you to tell me. You owe me that much.”
She sidestepped me, but right when she took a step, I grabbed her arm and tugged her into my chest.
Instantly, her face paled as she placed her hands on my shoulders. “You smell like whiskey and women’s perfume.” The expression on her face turned lethal when she wiped something off my neck, showing me red lipstick on her fingers. “Oh. My. God. Were you fucking someone before you came here, Christian?”
“Kins.” I snidely grinned. “You lost the right to ask me about who I’m fucking when you decided you didn’t want me fucking you anymore.”
She gasped, jerking back. “I can’t believe you came here after being with another woman! You fucking asshole! How dare you?!” She went to slap me across the face, but I caught her wrist in the air.
Using her momentum, I spun her around and pressed the front of her body against the balcony slider door. Her back was now against my chest.
“You remember the first time I fucked you against this window?”
Her breathing hitched.
“You were wet from the shower, just like you are right now, and I couldn’t help myself. I never could with you. You know that, right? The effect you’ve always had on me?”
Her breathing became erratic, and it started to fog up the glass on the side of her face. “Did you say that to the whore you were with tonight? I know what you were like before me, so I can only imagine how slutty she was.”
“If you must know,” I snidely chuckled. “She was a sorority girl.”
“You shameless bastard!”
Thrusting my hard cock into her ass, she loudly gasped again.
“Are you jealous, sweetness?”
“You fucking asshole! Is that why you came here, Christian? To throw your whore in my face?”
“Hmmm…” I groaned into the side of her neck, breathing her in. “Naked and wet was always my favorite Kinley.”
“Fuck you, Christian.”
I connivingly smiled. “I’d much rather fuck you, baby. I wasn’t with another woman tonight. I couldn’t stop thinking about your perfect tits, your luscious ass, and that tight fucking pussy I love so much.”
“How noble of you,” she gritted through a clenched jaw. “I’m not stupid. You have her lipstick all over your neck and smell like cheap perfume.”
“Nothing happened.”
“I don’t believe you.”
“I don’t lie to you, Kinley. You know that like you know my name.”
“It doesn’t matter. After tomorrow you can fuck anything that walks.”
“You mean like your best friend does?” I scoffed out, having to remind her about the truth of who I was. “I changed for you, sweetness. I became the man you needed me to be. After I met you, I gave up who I was. For you. How can you think I could just fuck someone else after all that? I don’t even know that man anymore. I don’t know who I am without you, Kinley Troy.”
She shut her eyes, feeling the sincerity of my words burning into her skin. “I never asked you to do that.”
“You didn’t have to. You want to know why?”
“Why are you doing this to me?”
I didn’t hesitate in telling her another fact, “Because this … is all I have left of you.”
“Fine, Christian. You win, okay? I’m the bad guy. I’m the fuck up! This is all my fault! Is that what you need to hear?”
“You haven’t listened to one thing I’ve said, so I’ll make it easy for you. I fucking love you! Do you hear me, Kinley?” I didn’t hesitate in adding…
“There is no me without you.”
—Kinley—
I did the only thing I could in a moment when I needed him to let me go. Even though I didn’t mean it, I spewed, “You want to know what, Christian?”
“What, baby?”
“You being with your sorority girl tonight just made me realize I don’t love you anymore, okay? There! You got what you came for. Now leave!”
He growled as my heart pounded in my ears. I couldn’t believe I’d just said that. The lie tasted like vinegar on my tongue, like acid on my heart, like a knife to my soul.