“Home.” I can’t stay here with her touching me, I don’t want…. “I have to go.” I turn to the rest of the group as they all chatter between themselves. “Catch you all later.”
“Where you going?” they all call.
“I’ve got to go.” I turn and walk off into the darkness.
“What’s wrong with him?” I hear Mary ask.
“He’s got a new girl,” I hear Alex say.
“Don’t worry, he’ll snap out of it,” a male voice says. “You know what he’s like.” The group all laugh and as I disappear into the darkness I feel like shit. They’re right, I don’t have a great track record with girls, I lose interest before we even begin.
She’s different.
I take out my phone and scroll through to my favorite name.
Francesca
I hit call, she answers first ring. “Hello.”
“Hi,” I sigh sadly.
“Are you okay?” she says softly.
“Can I come over?”
“What?”
“I need to see you.”
“Jules, you know you can’t.”
Deflation fills me.
This is fucked.
“I love you,” she whispers.
I stay silent. What good is it if I can’t even fucking see you?
“Where are you?” she asks.
“Walking home from a party?”
“Alone?”
“Yep.”
“That’s dangerous, I don’t want you walking home alone.”
“Well, the alternative was stay and get hit on by girls all night, so this was the only option.”
“Oh….”
She falls silent and I feel like shit.
“I shouldn’t have said that, I’m sorry.”
“Five months.”
“Until what?” I ask.
“Until they can’t stop us, after I’m eighteen they have no say.”
“What will happen then?” I ask.
“Whatever you want.”
Hope fills me as I walk in the darkness.
“I miss you,” she whispers.
“Me too.”
“Anna’s parents are away on Tuesday, can you come over and stay?”
I get to see her.
A broad smile crosses my face. “Try and stop me.”
“I can’t wait.”
“Me too. I should let you go back to sleep,” I say. “I’m being selfish calling this late.”
“No. I’m staying on the phone until you get home safely.”
I smile, it makes me happy that she worries about me. “How was your night?” I ask.
“Crap without you.”
“Climb out your window and come and stay at my house,” I reply.
“Where would I stay if I did come to your house? Where would I stay?”
“In my bed with me.”
“What would your mother say?”
“Hello, it’s nice to meet you, I expect.”
“Will you be serious?” she scoffs.
“I am, she wouldn’t mind if you stayed over. I know for a fact that she would love you, she wants me happy.”
“She sounds nice.”
“The most selfless person on earth.”
“She’s lucky to have a son like you.”
“I’m the lucky one. What’s your mother like?” I ask as I turn the corner and continue in the darkness.
“Hmm.” She thinks for a moment. “Glamorous.”
“That’s a weird word choice to describe your mother.”
“Well, that’s what she is.”
“Is she sweet, loving?”
“Hmm.”
I frown. “You’re not close to her?”
“I am, but I’m not…if that makes sense.”
“How so?”
“Well.” She pauses as if choosing her words correctly. “I live with her, and we talk about random things, she cares for me, but in reality, she doesn’t really know anything about me. I would never tell her about you or anything personal like that.”
“But she’s your mother.”
“I don’t know.” She exhales heavily. “It’s hard to explain, she’s not easy to talk to. She’s so wrapped up in keeping up appearances that she wouldn’t have a clue what is going on in my brothers’ lives and mine, as long as we toe the line to family tradition is all that matters to her.”
“Oh,” I mutter, unsure what to say. I can’t even imagine what it must be like, my mother is the polar opposite.
We stay silent as I continue to walk, both lost in our own thoughts.
“I can’t stop thinking about the way you sucked me the other morning,” I whisper to change the subject.
“Oh really,” she says and I can tell she’s smiling. “What about it?”
“Seriously, Francesca. So, fucking good, it’s all I can think about.”
“I’ll do it again on Tuesday if you be nice to me.”
“Ha,” I scoff. “When am I ever not nice to you, I’m like your fucking puppy.”
“A very naughty puppy,” she whispers darkly.
I feel the blood begin to pump through my body. “What’s your favorite thing that we did?”
“Everything.”
“One thing.”
“The way you kiss me.”
I stop walking and stand still. “Kiss you?”
“Yeah.” She sighs dreamily. “I love kissing you, I get to hold you in my arms and be close.”
My heart swells as I turn into my street. “I love kissing you too.”
“Three days.”
“That’s a long time.”
“I’d wait forever to kiss you.”
I smile. “Luckily you don’t have to.”
She giggles and I press in my code and walk through the security gates. “I’m home.”
“I love you,” she whispers.
“I love you too, good night, angel.”
“Good night, baby.”
Tuesday afternoon
I sit in the back seat of Alex’s car. His eyes flick up to meet mine in the rearview mirror, “You know, you’re going to get yourself killed.”
Val turns to face me in the back seat. “What do you think that big brother would say if he knew you were sneaking in and giving his baby sister the dick?”
I roll my eyes.
“Did you bring more condoms this time?” he asks.
“Yep.”
“Did you bring lube? I feel sorry for the poor bitch dealing with your monster cock.”
“Will you shut up?” I cut him off. “She seems to like it.”
“Seems to being the operative word.” The boys smirk as they exchange looks.
“I’m not here for sex,” I spit.
“Oh…but you will fuck her all night, won’t you?” Val mutters.
“Because I like her, you fucking idiots,” I snap. “Stop pissing me off.”
And anyway…I more than like her.
I’m going to marry her.