They kept it up for a while—kissing, touching, rubbing, getting hard against each other—while Shane grew uncomfortably warm in his outdoor clothes.
“Wait,” he panted. “Let me...” He fumbled for the zipper on his jacket, not wanting to interrupt things but needing to remove some layers.
Ilya released Shane’s thigh and stepped back. His eyes were shining and his lips were swollen, and Shane regretted trying to take the jacket off.
“We should stop,” Ilya said.
“What? Why?”
“Because.” He smiled. “We need to make dinner.”
When Shane had his jacket and shoes off, Ilya took his hand and led him to the kitchen. The counter was full of fresh vegetables, a box of organic farro, and a bowl of cooked salmon.
“What’s all this?” Shane asked.
“We are cooking together. Like we used to. I found a recipe that is okay for you.”
He picked up his iPad off the counter and showed Shane the recipe. Shane read it carefully, touched that Ilya had gone to this much trouble. “Looks good,” Shane said.
Ilya beamed.
Shane went to the sink to wash his hands, suddenly realizing how hungry he was. “This is very romantic, Ilya.”
“Is just food.”
“How long did it take you to find that recipe?”
Ilya didn’t answer him.
They worked together, and it was nice. Shane missed cooking with Ilya, and regretted that his nutrition plan made it more difficult. They cooked the farro, and chopped, seasoned, and roasted the vegetables, then assembled it all into bowls, topping the grains and vegetables with chunks of salmon and fresh herbs.
“This is not bad,” Ilya conceded when they were eating at the kitchen table later. Ilya had lit a candle in the middle of the table, which Shane found adorable.
“Clean eating doesn’t have to suck,” Shane said. “I eat lots of delicious stuff.”
Ilya shot him a skeptical look, then took another bite of salmon and spiced cauliflower. “Not as good as chicken parmesan,” he said, after he swallowed.
Shane couldn’t argue that. Secretly, he’d fucking kill for some crispy chicken, smothered in cheese. Maybe with some pasta and alfredo sauce on the side. Maybe a beer to wash it down with. Some garlic bread...
But garlic bread wasn’t important. Winning was important. Playing in the NHL for as long as possible was important.
“For dessert,” Ilya said with a slight quirk of his lips, “we can look at a picture of cake.”
Shane rolled his eyes.
“Or...” Ilya leaned in suggestively. “Maybe there is something else you are craving?”
“Like your dick, you mean?” Shane asked dryly.
Ilya grinned. “Is that part of your diet?”
“Gross.”
They both laughed, and Shane’s heart flipped happily in his chest. He loved quiet, domestic moments like this with Ilya. He loved joking about sex and laughing together. He loved that Ilya had looked up a recipe and bought fussy ingredients for it. That he’d given them this moment.
“I love you,” Shane said, the words out before he’d known he was going to say them.
Ilya’s smile turned bashful and sweet. “I still like to hear that.”
“I still like saying it.” They smiled at each other for a long moment, sappy as shit, then Shane said, “So. Are we watching the documentary tonight?”
“If you want.”
“You didn’t watch it already, did you?”
Ilya glared at him. “No.”
“But you remembered to record it?”
“Fuck, Shane. Yes.”
“Okay. Sorry.”
Ilya took a sip of water, then said, “We don’t have to watch it.”
“I want to.” Shane’s lips twitched. “I want to see what you said about me.”
“You mean the thing about how much you like having your balls sucked?”
Shane heaved an enormous sigh, then stood up to bring his empty plate to the sink.
“Because I definitely told them about that,” Ilya said.
“Okay.”
“And that you squeak when you are trying not to come.”
“I don’t squeak.”
Ilya shrugged. “This is why we need a sex tape. So you can see.”
“No way. You would leak it immediately.”
Ilya grinned. “Can you blame me?”
* * *
“Have you heard of this FanMail website?” Shane asked as they were getting settled on the couch later.
“Yes. Is like, people pay to have famous people pretend to care about them.”
“That’s a bleak way of putting it, but sort of. I’d never heard of it until Hayden told me he’d been doing them and—”
Ilya slammed the remote onto the sofa cushion beside him. “Hayden is on FanMail?”
“Yeah.”
Ilya launched off the sofa and darted away.
“What the hell are you doing?” Shane asked.
“Getting my phone.” He returned a moment later with his phone in his hand, grinning at the screen. “A hundred dollars!” Ilya said. “Who would pay this for a video from Hayden?”
“Lots of people,” Shane said defensively. “He films them all the time.”
“I am going to buy one.”
“Ilya, no. Don’t be a dick.”
“Dear Hayden,” Ilya said aloud as he typed. “My boyfriend is sad because he has a very annoying coworker and needs to be cheered up. Could you send him a video and sing him his favorite song, ‘O Canada’?”
“That is not my favorite song.”
“What is?”
Shane didn’t have an answer ready for that, so he crossed his arms instead. “Please don’t send that.”
“Too late.”
“He’s going to know it’s you. What email address did you use?”
“Don’t worry about it.” Ilya sat beside Shane and picked up the remote again. “Let’s watch this stupid thing.”
There was nothing particularly surprising or even interesting about the documentary. It was mostly a collection of their career highlights, with a few talking head interviews mixed in to create a bit of a story.