New Zealand.
And then I remember, with a sudden gasp, the faces of the man and woman who carried me out of the symposium.
I’m the supreme commander of Oceania, she’d said. Your father and I have come to take you home.
I close my eyes and stars explode in the blackness behind my eyelids, leaving me faint. Breathless. I blink my eyes open. My fingers feel loose, clumsy as I open the letter at the top of the stack.
The note is brief. It’s dated twelve years ago.
M & E—
All is well. We’ve found her a suitable family. No sign of powers yet, but we’ll keep a close eye on her. Still, I must advise you to put her out of your mind. She and Emmaline have had their memories expunged. They no longer ask about you. This will be my last update.
P. Anderson.
P. Anderson.
Paris Anderson. Warner’s father.
I look around the bedroom with new eyes, feeling a terrible chill creep up my spine as the impossible pieces of this new insanity come together in my mind.
Vomit threatens. I swallow it back.
I’m staring now at the stack of Polaroids, untouched, inside the open desk drawer. I think I’ve lost feeling in parts of my face. Still, I force myself to pick up the stack.
The first is a picture of two little girls in matching yellow dresses. They’re both brown-haired and a little skinny, holding hands in a garden path. One of them looks at the camera, the other one looks at her feet.
I flip the photo over.
Ella’s first day of school
The stack of photos falls out of my trembling hands, scattering as they go. My every instinct is shrieking at me, sounding alarm bells, begging me to run.
Get out, I try to scream at myself. Get out of here.
But my curiosity won’t let me go.
A few of the photos have landed face-up on the desk, and I can’t stop staring at them, my heart pounding in my ears. Carefully, I pick them up.
Three little brown-haired girls stand next to bikes that are slightly too big for them. They’re all looking at each other, laughing at something.
I flip the photo over.
Ella, Emmaline, and Nazeera. No more training wheels.
I gasp, the sound choking me as it leaves my chest. I feel my lungs squeeze and I reach out, catch the desk with one hand to steady myself. I feel like I’m floating, unhinged.
Caught in a nightmare.
I flip through the photos with a desperation now, my mind working faster than my hands as I fumble, trying and failing to make sense of what I’m seeing.
The next photo is of a little girl holding the hand of an older man.
Emmaline and Papa, it says on the back.
Another photo, this one of both girls climbing a tree.
The day Ella twisted her ankle
Another one, blurred faces, cupcakes and candles—
Emmaline’s 5th birthday
Another, this time a picture of a handsome couple—
Paris and Leila, visiting for Christmas
And I freeze
stunned
feel the air leave my body.
I’m holding only one photo now, and I have to force myself, beg myself to look at it, the square Polaroid shaking in my trembling hand.
It’s a picture of a little boy standing next to a little girl. She’s sitting in a stairwell. He looks at her as she eats a piece of cake.
I flip it over.
Aaron and Ella
is all it says.
I trip backward, stumbling, and collapse onto the floor. My whole body is seizing, shaking with terror, with confusion, with impossibility.
Suddenly, as if on cue, there’s a knock at my door. A woman—the woman from before; an older version of the woman in the pictures—pops her head inside, smiles at me and says, “Ella, honey, don’t you want to come outside? Your dinner is getting cold.”
And I’m certain I’m going to be sick.
The room tilts around me.
I see spots
feel myself sway
and then—
all at once
The world goes black.