He forgets what he was saying when I begin to kiss his jaw. His hands lie palms-up on either side of my calves. He’s letting me control this and I like it. I feel him smile when I nibble against his bottom lip.
The couch gives softly underneath my knees, and as our clothes begin to make a warm friction, I feel his arousal, hard and blunt, pressing into the back of my thigh.
“I need it,” I tell him and watch his eyes go viciously black. I take huge handfuls of his clothes and we kiss again.
I roll my hips slowly in his wide lap and his hands slide down my body in a series of slow, squeezing pauses. Shoulders, underarms, the sides of my breasts. I shiver, and he slides his hands lower. Ribs, the curve of my waist. Hips. Butt.
His hands slide down my thighs, his long fingers dragging down the outer and inner seam of my jeans.
He traces his fingers along my calves. When I drop my face to his neck, his hands tighten on my ankles, a little reminder he could take control if he wanted to.
“I like how little you are.” He sure sounds like he likes my body as he takes another slow, stroking tour.
As I slide my tongue into his mouth, I begin thinking about a board meeting we’d been in, a few weeks back. He’d been sitting by the window and I remember watching the sun slowly slide along the windowsill, across the floor, across the board table as the afternoon dragged on.
He’d been wearing a navy suit I don’t see him wear often and the pale blue shirt. I’d sat there opposite him, watching the way the sun slowly crept up his body like a rising tide. I’d breathed in the scent of the fabric warming on his body.
I remember how he’d cut his dark blue eyes to me during the meeting, and it had flustered me, made my stomach twist in half. He’d smirked and resumed his patient staring at the PowerPoint presentation, not taking a single note whereas my scribbling hand was cramping.
Those eyes, flashing to my face, made me jump out of my skin. I hadn’t known why. Now I do.
“I was remembering the board meeting a few weeks back.” My head rolls to one side as he kisses under the hinge of my jaw. I have a full-body shiver. His hand spreads across my ribs, thumb nudging the underside of my breast. My total focus narrows down to this half inch of contact.
“Yes, what about it? I’m not doing so well if you’re thinking about it now.”
He returns his mouth to mine and dials it up a little. It’s minutes before I can speak again. Possibly hours. My breath is in little gasping pants, and he bites down gently onto my bottom lip.
His thumb slides up, nudges my nipple softly and continues up to my jaw. I jolt and quiver.
I have to explain myself properly. “You looked at me and . . . And I think I wanted to kiss you. I only just realized.”
“Oh, really.”
I am rewarded by his other hand sliding up the back of my top. Skin against skin. Fingers playing languidly with my bra strap.
“I was remembering how you gave me this look.”
“Like I was thinking about something dirty? I was. You were wearing your white silk shirt with the pearl buttons. And this soft-looking cardigan for the first half of the meeting. Hair up, red lips.”
He leans back and trails his fingertips down my throat to the top of my cleavage. His fingertips dip in, I shudder out the only thing I can think of.
“It’s a cashmere cardigan.”
“You like Doctor Josh . . . I like prissy retro librarian Lucy. Silk-cashmere Lucy. That’s my kink. A pencil in your hair, grilling a department head on absentee stats for last quarter.”
He continues his slide down my torso, fingers pressing into my ribs.
“What a specific kink. I can’t believe you can remember what I was wearing. But hey, I can roll with this. I could get some nerd glasses and scold you.” I frown sternly and hold my finger to my lips. “Be quiet.”
He groans theatrically. “I couldn’t take it.”
“Can you even imagine how it would be between you and me? All day, every night?”
He knows exactly what I mean. “Oh, yeah.”
“Like you said just before: The trick is to find someone who’s strong enough to take it. That one person who can give it back as good as they get.”