Chantilly nods. “That’ll work. She’s the tallest. Still, the finale will be minus one featured outfit. The finale is where the buyers take their last looks at their favorites. If you move Shelly to Jenese’s outfit, the long negligee that Shelly is wearing won’t make the finale.”
I know that the designers pay a premium fee for placement in the show. Excluding even one piece from the finale will have far-reaching repercussions, ones that won’t facilitate my promotion. I look down. “Chantilly, I’m too short to wear Shelly’s long negligee.”
She looks down at her iPad. “We have a petite in the back. It’s white instead of the black Shelly is wearing, but in reality, that’s a plus to show any style in two different colors. The designer is only paying for one.”
My heart is thundering in my chest. This is a mistake. “Think,” I say, clasping my hands together. “Give me anyone else. Please. Another option.”
“We have other models.” Chantilly lays her hand on my shoulder. “Even if one of them could be here in time for the show, she won’t know the routine. I can get someone here for the individual runway, but not the finale.”
“So no matter what, we need me to do the finale.” The words come out flat as my mouth grows drier by the second, and my stomach does its own gymnastic routine.
“We do. Shelly can do both outfits during the runway. It saves us from calling in someone new. Then the only time you need to go out is the finale.”
I process the show in my head. During the finale, each piece is reintroduced; the model makes one trip down the runway and back to a spot until the entire stable is onstage. And then it happens, the finale extravaganza, an intricate weave of models passing around one another, turning, repositioning as a team until one by one they exit. It gives each piece of fashion the same exact amount of time onstage to be seen.
Why didn’t I go with the simpler choreography?
I changed the show to demonstrate that I could. I changed it to make the show special. To make it mine.
Last night, our final run-through was perfect. We stayed an hour later than scheduled, the models were exhausted, but the result was as stunning as a Broadway number. As my eyes closed on my pillow last night, I experienced a rare sense of accomplishment, and now that feeling is replaced with butterflies the size of dragons. Judging by the burning in my chest, the dragons are spitting fire.
“Let me think for a minute,” I say, shaking my head as I lift the mouthpiece on my shoulder to my lips. “Stephen, I need you.”
His reassuring voice materializes into my earpiece. “I don’t think you want me backstage.”
“I do, in a white lace-trimmed silk negligee.”
“Talk to me.”
Tears burn the back of my eyes. “Meet me in the sound booth.”
“You can do it,” Stephen says. “Let them shorten the hem so you’re not wearing stilts. When they’re all positioned, the outfit you’ll wear is off to the side. Everyone will be looking at Shelly at center. You know this routine. You taught it to them.”
My best friend blurs as the tears threaten to spill over my lids. “Stephen...”
His arm comes around my shoulders. “Stop it. You’re our leader. Chantilly’s idea is a good one. There isn’t time to reteach.”
“Maybe you’re right and that negligee is off to the side in the routine, but I’ll still need to make one trip all the way down the runway, and then manage not to knock out any other models during the last part.”
“Boss lady,” he says, his voice lowering to his reassuring timbre, “I never told you this before because, well, it’s not my style, but you’re beautiful. The first time I met you, I thought HR had sent me to the wrong person. I assumed you were a model. Tell me you never considered modeling.”
“I’ve never considered modeling.”
Stephen’s head shakes.
“Okay, maybe as a young girl, but I loved the fashions too much to simply wear them.” I lower my eyes. “And the idea of everyone looking at me scares me.”
Stephen lifts my chin. “Think about our junior models for a moment.”
I do. Even though they model teenage clothes, most are adults in petite bodies.
“What about Becky?” he asks.
“What about her?”
“What does she do when she isn’t modeling?”
The tips of my lips move upward. “She mostly studies. I think at last count she’s only a few credits away from finishing her master’s degree in finance.”
“You went straight to the creative duties in fashion because you’re smart. You’ve moved up in this company because you’re quick on your feet and a problem solver. Those women back there are modeling because they are beautiful, and yet they also have other dreams and goals. You’re doing yours in reverse.”
“If I do this—”
He cuts me off before I can finish as he emphasizes his first word. “When you do this, you will overcome any fear you ever had about modeling. Not only that, but you’ll be in a better place to do what you do because you will know what it’s like to be out there. You will have experience. You will have conquered!”
“If I fall on my face, we’re headed back to London. You know that, right?”
Stephen loosens his embrace, moving both hands to my shoulders. “Something came up last night, and I put a deposit on an apartment.”
My mind isn’t functioning fast enough. “You did what?”
“When you kill this show, they’re going to see how amazing you are. We’ll be moving back here, and I need a place to live. Would I have done that if I had doubts?”
My entire body begins to shake. “I don’t know why you would do that. This...” I flail my arms about. “...isn’t set.”
“It is. Chantilly and I have your back. You said last night that you couldn’t see anyone from the stage. Just imagine the only person out there is the one person you want to see you in a silk negligee.”
My lungs try to fill with air. “The one person?”
“It’s me, isn’t it?” Stephen asks with a sheepish grin.
“It’s so not you.”
“There. You’re smiling. When you walk out imagine that one person is the only one in the audience. It’s just the two of you and you’re walking to him—only him.”
My nerves begin to calm as I imagine the green eyes I’ve been thinking about since our airplane landed on US soil. I look up to Stephen. “I really hate you.”
He kisses the top of my head. “You love me. You, Shana Price, can do this. A leader, a problem solver, delegates when possible, and takes control when needed. We need you. You can do it.”
“Thirty-five minutes,” comes from Mike at the sound panel.
“Go,” Stephen says. “I’ve got this out here. You need to talk to Chantilly, and Shelly needs to know what’s happening.”
I narrow my gaze. “You really put down a deposit on an apartment in Manhattan?”
“Would I lie to my best friend?”
“In a heartbeat.”
“East Village. It was too good of a deal to miss.”