“Rafe, I—”
My mouth crashed down on hers as I rolled Eva beneath me, caging her body to the bed. Her hand slid up my chest, curling over my shoulders.
“You’re mine,” I rasped, running my lips down her jaw, sucking the slope of her neck. Eva arched into me, hitching her legs on either side of my hips.
“We should talk,” she whispered.
“I don’t want to talk, Starshine. I want to do anything but talk.”
Eva guided my face back to hers. “Rafe, don’t do this. Please.”
“You think I like feeling like this? Imagine if it was me. Imagine if I’d just been with another girl, with your sister or best friend, talking to them, drinking with them...” My brow rose.
“I had one drink. One.”
Fuck. I knew I could taste liquor on her lips.
My fucking brother was a bad influence on even the most innocent of souls.
I dipped my lips to her ear, nibbling the skin there. “I trust you, Eva, I do. But I don’t trust Levi. He’ll use you to hurt me. It’s what he does best.”
Her hands went to my chest, pushing slightly. “We hurt him, Rafe. We did that. The least we can do is try to fix it. And don’t you dare throw that in my face. Do you think it’s easy for me being around all your fangirls? The Die Hearts.”
“Jealous, love?” It was a dick move. But I was angry and frustrated and so fucking powerless. Eva was the best thing ever to happen to me. The thought of losing her... it gutted me.
My eyes shuttered as I inhaled a ragged breath.
“Rafe, look at me.” Eva slid her palm against my cheek. “I’m not goin’ to do this with you. I love you, and I’m here for you, but I won’t be your emotional punchin’ bag. You have nothin’ to worry about where me and Levi are concerned.”
“Don’t I?”
Disappointment washed over her. “You think I would ever...” She swallowed hard, pain glistening in her eyes. “I love you. You.”
A bolt of guilt shot through me, but I was drowning in doubt, struggling to keep afloat with the jealousy swimming in my veins. I dropped my head to her shoulder, but Eva slid her hand under my jaw, forcing me back to her. “Do you really think I would ever do that to you?”
“No, fuck, of course I don’t. I don’t know why I said it… everything’s such a mess. I’m a mess and I don’t know how to fix it.” My body began to tremble.
“Ssh.” Eva’s lips found mine. Soft and gentle. The faintest of caresses. It wasn’t enough though. I needed more.
I wanted to bury myself in her.
To lose myself completely.
“I need you, Starshine. I need you so fucking much.” My body vibrated with need as I stared down at her, brushing the hair from her face.
“I’m right here, Rafe. You just have to let yourself believe it.” Eva looked up at me through hooded eyes, one of her hands drifting down my body. Her touch was like fire, burning my soul.
Rocking back onto my haunches, I ran my eyes down Eva’s body. She looked so fucking perfect, spread out before me, a halo of blonde hair surrounding her.
“What?” She smiled coyly.
“You. Just you.” My hand gripped the hem of her t-shirt, pushing it up her body, revealing her black panties to me. I leaned in, swiping my tongue across her stomach. Eva sucked in a ragged breath, her fingers sliding into my hair as I continued a path up her body, pushing the t-shirt further and further until it was bunched around her shoulders.
I gently palmed one of her breasts, flicking my tongue across the peak. “Oh God,” Eva breathed, her body restless beneath me.
I wanted to take my time, to worship every inch of her. But I wasn’t sure I could wait.
“I need inside of you,” I said, kissing the corner of my mouth.
Eva nodded, love and lust glittering in her ocean eyes.
Guiding her up, I pulled the t-shirt over her head, before climbing off Eva to rid myself of my boxer briefs. I sat down on the edge of the bed, reaching for her. She came willingly, crawling over me until she was straddling my lap. I loved that about her. My shy, quiet Eva trusted me implicitly, unafraid to let me love her.
She slipped her hand between us, grasped my dick, and guided me into position. One hand on her hip, I braced Eva as she sank down on me. Lips parted, skin flushed, she stilled as I fought every instinct not to move.
“You feel...” Both my hands gripped her hips as I rocked gently. “Fuck.”
“Rafe,” she cried out, pressing her body against mine, slowly rolling her hips.
Gliding one hand up her spine, I cupped the back of Eva’s neck, pulling gently to reveal the creamy expanse of skin. “You’re so fucking beautiful.” I kissed her throat, running my tongue along her throat. Tasting. Teasing. Her body quivered, her movements growing faster.
But it wasn’t enough.
“Slide your legs around me.” I held Eva on top of me as she anchored herself around my waist, our bodies joined impossibly close.
“It’s deeper,” she breathed, rocking gently.
“It’s everything.” I kissed her, pushing my tongue into her mouth. I wanted to drown in her. To fall so deep I never resurfaced.
Being with Eva was like floating on air. She made me forget. She made me feel.
But most of all she made me feel worthy.
“Oh God,” she panted, her skin flushed, damp and glistening. I ran my hand down her spine, over the curve of her hip, pulling her closer, harder.
“I love you,” I whispered against her mouth. “I love you so much it freaks me the fuck out.” Eva gripped me tighter, riding me like she was born to do it. I was so blinded by pleasure, it was hard to tell where I ended and she began.
“More,” she cried. “More, Rafe.”
Our bodies were slick with sweat, our hearts a frantic cacophony of beats. I grasped her hips as I shifted to the edge of the bed, thrusting upward.
“Rafe, oh God, I can’t...” Eva’s nails raked over my shoulders, as she shattered around me. Pure ecstasy shot down my spine as I came hard.
I fell back against the mattress, pulling Eva with me.
“That was...” Her small sigh of contentment tickled my jaw.
“It was you and me, Starshine.”
“I like that.” Her fingers trailed letters of love over my skin.
We lay there, sated and silent, until Eva whispered, “I don’t want this to come between us, Rafe. Promise me.” She leaned up to look at me.
“Me and Levi have always managed to find our way back, but this time... it’s different,” I confessed.
“You’re family, that means something. You know it does.” Silence enveloped us, and then, she added, “He’s hurting too, Rafe.”
My chest tightened. I knew Eva cared for him. She wouldn’t have been the girl I’d fallen so hard for if she didn’t. But I couldn’t deny that a selfish part of me wished there was no Levi in the equation.
“It’s late,” I said gently edging her off my body. “We should sleep.”
Hurt flashed in her eyes but she didn’t argue, slipping between the sheets and giving me room to climb in beside her. “Tomorrow will be a better day,” she said, pressing a single kiss to my lips.