My forehead fell to her shoulder, breaths coming in rapid succession, my body dripping in sweat, and I said the only thing I could, “Well, darlin’, now that I have an idea of what I’m doing, let’s go for round two.”
“What?” she gasped.
I lifted my head, heart light for the first time in ages. Because of this woman. Because I was taking Brooke’s advice. No more squandering. I was all about living now.
“I love you,” I said. “I know we have so much ground to cover, a lot to talk about, but I need you to know that I love you, Iris Hannigan.”
Her face gentled, and her eyes filled with tears. “Honey.”
“I’m so sorry I freaked out and left,” I said, rolling us to the side and holding her close. “My head was so messed up, and I was scared that I already felt so much for you.”
“Brent,” she murmured, cupping my cheek. “I’m sorry, too. I should have—”
“No,” I said, capturing her hand and pressing a kiss to her palm. “I should have—”
She nipped my bottom lip. “I thought we weren’t doing should haves.”
I nipped her bottom lip. “You started it.”
“Did not.”
“Did too.”
I grinned.
She grinned, but then her blue-green eyes filled with tears. “How did I get so lucky to find you?” She sniffed. “I love you, Brent Collins.”
I kissed away a tear that escaped, lightened my tone because I wanted her happy in my bed, not crying, and even though I understood her tears weren’t from her being sad, I still liked those pretty blue-green eyes best when they were sparkling up at me. “Gave me the full name back, huh?”
Her brows drew together. “What?”
“I said, I love you, Iris Hannigan, and you had to give me the full Brent Collins back?”
She rolled her eyes. “You’re not even making sense.”
“You’re always trying to one-up me.”
“You’re impossible.”
“Well, you,” I said and pressed a kiss to her nose, “make me think that anything is possible.” A beat. “Plus, I got you to stop crying.”
Iris sighed, shook her head. “Brent.”
“What?”
“If you keep saying stuff like you’ve been saying, then the crying isn’t going to stop, no matter how much you tease me.”
I chuckled. “I love you, darlin’.”
She sniffed, waved a hand in the direction of her face, and I saw a few tears had escaped. “This is your fault.”
“Well,” I said and flipped us over, positioning her on top of me, “since you’re already crying, I may as well subject you to Round Two.”
Her mouth fell open, but then she gave as good she got because she rolled to her side, tapped me on the shoulder, and said, “Well, rookie, you’ve got to take care of that first.” She gestured to the condom. “Or maybe”—her lips came very close to my ear—“since I’m on birth control and I’m also clean—and I’m guessing you are, too—that maybe I might let you come inside me.”
And just like that, hard.
And just like that, on my toes.
And just like that, all of my fears slipped away.
Because I had this woman in my life.
And I wasn’t letting her go.
“Hey,” I murmured, much, much later. “Want to hear a funny story?”
“Besides the fact that I still haven’t regained feeling in my legs?” she asked drowsily. Round Two had been even more intense than Round One.
Which was saying something.
“That, I think, is far from funny,” I said, nuzzling her throat. “That, I think, is the best compliment I’ve ever had.”
“You mean the best compliment ever isn’t me telling you that you pour a mean glass of Merlot?”
I grinned, lightly bit the spot where her shoulder met her neck, loving that when I did, she moaned softly and lifted her hand to rest on the back of my head, fingers digging in slightly. “Aside from that,” I murmured against her skin.
“Then, is it too soon to say that I think you were messing with me when you said you were a virgin because that’s how good you are?”
I laughed. “No,” I said. “That’s me mentally chalking that up into the Best Compliments Ever column.”
“Then what’s the funny story?” she asked lazily.
“This.” I reached over her and pulled out the tiny package from my nightstand. Not a condom this time, I thought with a grin. But a tiny parcel I’d gone to three grocery stores at the butt crack of dawn to find.
Turned out, it was difficult to track down when it was after Christmas.
But I had, and I’d intended to bring it to Iris that very day.
Only she’d beat me to the punch by coming to me.
Why did I think that wouldn’t be the first time it happened, her beating me to the punch?
I handed her the palm-sized package that I’d wrapped in cheerful Christmas paper—penguins wearing hats and skis as they made their way down a silver mountain top.
“What is it?” she asked.
“Really?” I dropped a kiss on her lips. “Just open it.”
“Fine, fine,” she grumbled, tearing at the corner gently. “You know,” she said as she painstakingly pulled the tape free, “you gave me my only two Christmas presents this year.”
Fucking hell.
This woman destroyed me.
“I love you,” I murmured against her lips.
She smiled when I pulled back. “I love you, too.” Then went back to work, slowly removing another piece of tape.
“Are you going to open that sometime this century?” I grumbled.
“I’m savoring it,” she said, daintily working at one corner.
And then because I couldn’t stand how slowly she was opening the present and also because I vowed to buy her so many presents the next year that she wouldn’t even be able to count them all, I snatched the package from her hands, tore off the paper, and handed it back to her.
Her lips parted in surprise when she saw the sprig of mistletoe. “Oh.”
“I know it’s hardly anything,” I said, thinking now that maybe I should have spent my time buying her something that had cost more than two dollars in the clearance section.
She deserved diamonds and fancy trips and—
Iris launched herself into my arms, hooking her own around my neck and squeezing hard. “Thank you,” she said. “It’s perfect.”
Then the tears came.
And I discovered I didn’t mind her blue-green eyes filled with tears, after all.
Especially when I got to hold her tight when they came.
Then coax her into Round Three when they stopped.
We each had spent far too long not living our lives fully, and I vowed to make sure we would both grab on to every chance to make up for that lost time.
Later, after I’d had a huge slice of Iris’s incredible nine-layer cake, I also realized I’d need many more Rounds in order to work off all the extra sweetness that was sure to fill my life.
But that was something I was wholly on board with.