And then Gavin saw it coming, like the windup to a gut punch, when his arms were bound and there was no defending himself.
The man went on. “Father didn’t even learn who’d pushed that rule through for years. No one thought it would apply to anyone but Ulbear Rathcore ever again. He resigned to let Orea join the Spectrum, thereby cementing the precedent, binding it into law and tradition both.
“But for father’s plans, Gavin had to be made Prism, and father could only protect him if he himself were on the Spectrum, too. Father believed that the prophecies indicated he could only become the Lightbringer if he were the promachos first. So the price for father’s ambition—and, he thought, the price to save the whole world—was that he sacrifice his sons. One to die after his term as Prism, and one . . .”
And then Gavin remembered it again, vividly. That wound on his little brother’s chest. A single thrust, at an angle that had always seemed wrong. It wasn’t the perpendicular angle of an intruder stabbing a child lying flat in his bed. It was an angle downward, through the ribs to the heart. As if the child had knelt before an adult, submissive to the blade.
“Father could only fully save one of his sons,” Sevastian said, gently, as the dying sun finally touched the horizon. “He chose you.”
Chapter 114
Karris watched the pagan armada approaching her beloved isles from her balcony. Her young luxiats, many of them now trained in rudimentary battlefield medicine, were awaiting her orders for where to deploy. She would be joining them as soon as the battle began in earnest with a large contingent of Blackguards. They would be medics and helpers to any civilians caught up in the fighting, doing the unseen work of making war slightly less hellish.
Then, if they saw a place where they were needed, she and the Blackguards could at least give one hammer blow of reinforcement.
She had a slim hope that that wouldn’t be necessary today.
“High Lady,” one of Karris’s room slaves said, a young woman, round and shy. “The new Prism has taken the roof and installed himself on the balancing array. He’s, he’s using the mirrors to kill people.”
That answered the question of where the hell Zymun was, though it wasn’t the answer she wanted. “Well, that’s a relief.”
The girl looked ill. “Yes? . . . But . . . he seems not very careful in who he’s burning? He’s laughing, Mistress. He cut through our lines, must have killed a dozen men. Just said oops, and laughed and laughed. He’s talking to someone who isn’t there. He’s bragging that even the immortals serve him now.”
“Have the Blackguards seen this?” Karris asked. Though no current Blackguard had ever done it, they were sworn to kill Prisms if they became a danger. Not that any Blackguard would expect to have to do it on a Prism’s first day.
“No, Mistress. They’re all stationed farther out, as if he doesn’t trust them. Only the Lightguards are near him.”
So they might not know.
Karris cursed under her breath, but it was loud enough to further scare the young girl, who had some idea of the gravity of the situation she’d found herself in.
As she tucked pistols into her waistband behind her back, Karris said, “Why don’t you go to your quarters for a while? Go see your friends or family. It may not be safe for you here.”
The Blackguards were sworn to the Prism first of all. Technically, they had an equal duty to the White, but if Karris initiated violence and they didn’t believe Zymun was mad . . . they would put down the threat. Many of the old hands hated Zymun and would want to side with Karris, but what would they think their duty was? And what would the new kids do?
Karris rolled her neck and checked her ataghan and the old scorpion held tight against her forearm. She was resplendent in her white-and-gold silk directly over her mirror-armor breastplate. It was the only practical part of her armor. She had no helm at all; instead her hair had been dyed in many colors and woven together in braids to show the unity of the Chromeria, and the white-enameled mail was so light that it probably wouldn’t survive more than a single blow—nor would she.
She was meant to be seen as ready to fight today, not to actually fight.
One last glance toward the shores. Despite the constant cannon fire, the bane were getting close.
Karris had intended to go to the roof and take the White’s escape lines down to get to the battle lines wherever she was most needed, as quickly as possible.
She wasn’t going to be getting that far.
Zymun was murdering friendly soldiers, for fun. If that was the case, who would definitely be foremost in his sights?
Kip. And Karris. And Andross. And anyone who vexed him in the least, but these first of all, because only they had the power to stop him.
So. There it was. She had been so certain that she would die in this fight. Perhaps she’d been right. Perhaps she’d only been wrong about the day.
She was a warrior. That was why Orholam had selected her. Because she was ready to die.
Maybe, in order to do what she must, she’d even had to be ready to die in dishonor—because what was worse than a mother who killed her own child?
Zymun, son of my shame.
Maybe all that was preparation for this.
She had no more feeling than that. She’d grieved already. She had no wish to die, but she wished even less that others would die because she did nothing.
Five paces at most, she thought. Three would be better. Two pistols, just in case.
And with that, it was simply a thing she needed to do, and it jumped to the front of her list:
How many of the Blackguards remembered how fast she was? Definitely Commander Fisk. He wouldn’t have forgotten. She’d have to hope he wasn’t up there with Zymun.
She double-checked her powder and shot, checked that the flints and the frizzen were clean and dry, then practiced her draw of the two pistols from her belt. She pulled a crease out of her tunic at the back, cocked the pistols, and tucked them back into her belt.
Gavin, you would’ve done this smiling. You would’ve come out of it successful and with everyone cheering you. What is this last bit of fear in me?
Maybe it’s that you won’t understand. But if I hesitate, Zymun may move against me first.
My love, I only hope that when you hear of this, you’re proud of me. I hope you understand. I hope it matters.
She took one last deep breath, and put on a neutrally pleasant face. She was going to need it to get close to Zymun.
She opened the door.
Commander Fisk stood there, his hand raised to knock. His expression was pained. “High Lady,” he said.
There were twenty Blackguards with him. At least. Oh, no.
He cleared his throat. “High Lady, we’ve come to arrest you. For treason.”
There were Lightguards beyond the Blackguards, too.
“Treason?” she asked.
“Please don’t make this any worse than it has to be,” he said.
Chapter 115
“There was a storm that night,” Dazen said, his own voice sounding far away. “Mother was away. Father and Gavin were off on one of their trainings, leaving me behind. Again. You know I loved you, but I . . . I felt so left out. Like I got put at the kids’ table at dinner. But I was supposed to take care of you.”