“I have no idea,” I said through an exhale, and we both shared a laugh.
Diane and I spent the entire day together, shopping for new clothes, having lunch, and getting to know each other. It was a fresh new beginning for the both of us, but it would take time for us to mend all the broken parts we both shattered over ten years. The night before needed to happen, opening a gateway to hoarded grief and blame. And after the day came to an end, I’d accepted things between us would most likely never be perfect. I still hated her stiff hair, the way she dressed in Ralph Lauren, and the way she treated the waitress as if they had a disease because of her nose ring, but we were just two completely different people brought together by devastation and love.
Diane did love my father, and she was learning to love me too.
Days passed in a whirlwind. I’d spent the majority of my time with Dad and Diane, and Ollie kept his distance. I hated it, but he encouraged the time with them. By the morning of the court date, I stood in front of the mirror, wearing a simple, sleeveless black dress Diane picked out. The hem hit mid-thigh, and the neckline was almost to my neck. The last time I wore a dress was the court date before Dolor, and I hoped this time around, things would go in my favor. My hair fell a little past my shoulders, and the only make-up I’d attempted was blush and mascara.
“Mia, you ready?” my dad called from the bottom of the stairs.
I didn’t answer.
“Mia Rose Jett!”
I smiled. “Two minutes!” I glanced up from my black heels and smoothed down the dress across my thighs, worrying the judge may take my disappearance as a sign that I wasn’t a changed woman. What if he decides he’s had enough and throws me in the mental institution? Or jail? My smile faded, and nerves set in, creeping from my numbed toes up to my neck. Suddenly, the neckline was too tight, constricting, and I wanted out of the dress. Balling my fists, I tried to breathe, and the room swayed.
Then I felt his hands around mine.
I lifted my head, and Ollie stood behind me, wearing black slacks, an ironed white button-down shirt, and a knockout grin. His green eyes took me in, and he ran his palms up the sides of my arms. “Breathe, my love. It’s going to be all right,” he whispered.
“How do you know?”
“Because, look,” he nudged his head in the mirror, “you’ve not only stayed with me, you’ve stayed with yourself. Not once have you given up. And if I’m not mistaken, you don’t need me anymore.” He cocked a brow and flashed a lopsided grin. “I think my job here is done.” I slapped him on the arm, and Ollie dropped his forehead over the back of my head, laughing.
“In all seriousness,” he continued and wrapped his arms around me. “You’re absolutely breathtaking,” his lips hit the rim of my ear, and the vibrations went through me as he rocked me back and forth in place, “I need six minutes with you alone.”
“Six?”
“One minute to admire you. Two to taste you. And three to lose myself inside you.”
“Only three?”
“If I’m being honest, I doubt I’ll last that long.”
The judge called my name, and Ollie gripped my hand before I stood and stepped up to the podium with my lawyer by my side. The lawyer was young, no older than thirty-five, and slender with side-swept chocolate-brown hair. He’d advised me before we entered the court room to be quiet and let him speak for me unless the judge questioned me directly. Roger was his name, I think.
It all happened fast. The judge and Roger spoke back and forth in legal jargon as I froze beside him, trying to focus on the judge’s hand movements and facial expressions. By the time I thought I had it figured it out, the judge had dropped the gavel and dismissed us.
I turned to leave, still unsure of what just occurred. Ollie, Diane, and my dad stood from the bench, and all their faces were blank. “What just happened? What did he say? Am I done?” I nervously drilled Roger out the door. I whipped my head around to see Ollie walking behind me, whispering to my dad. “It’s bad, isn’t it?”
Roger continued to ignore me until all five of us entered the hallway, and the courtroom door closed behind us. “Well,” he nodded, “that went well.”
“How well? Like free well?” I asked, looking between all four of them.
Ollie took a step toward me and cupped my face in his hands. “You’re free, love. It’s over.”
“Don’t do that to me,” I stomped my heel into the tile, “I saw your face, you looked like the judge sent me away again.”
“I told you it would be fine. I wasn’t surprised one bit with the outcome.” Ollie kissed my forehead and turned to Roger to shake his hand. “Mia’s dual citizenship still intact?”
“Yes, she can travel back and forth. No problem.”
“Thank you, Roger, but I never want to see you again,” Ollie said through a chuckle, and the rest followed suit, shaking Roger’s hand before he left. I felt lighter, and Ollie turned to face me again, releasing a drawn-out exhale and his eyes glossy. He felt lighter too. “Let’s get out of here, yeah?”
“Yeah,” I agreed, nodding.
Diane and my dad joined us for lunch, and unasked questions lingered in the space between the four of us. What now? When am I leaving? Will I be leaving at all?
Ollie’s hand slid to my bare thigh under the table as he reached for his tea, listening to my dad talk about the remodel he wanted to do in the kitchen. All I could focus on was the way his fingers dragged along the inside of my thigh, rising higher and higher …
“What do you think, Mia?” Dad asked.
My head snapped up, and I tried to lift my heavy lids. “mhm?”
“I prefer white cabinets,” Diane interjected.
I moved my sweater over my lap. “Yeah, white sounds good.”
Ollie tilted his head to face me just as his fingertips reached my panties. I let out a whimper when his thumb scraped across my sex over the thin material. “Mia, are you okay?” he asked with a smirk.
“Mhmm.”
His finger pressed against my clit. “What about your kitchen?”
“My what?”
“Your kitchen back in Surrey. It’s small, but we could do white if that’s what you like,” his finger dipped beneath the hem and trudged through my slit, and my thighs clenched as I grabbed my Dr. Pepper off the table and sucked from the straw, “or would you prefer open shelving?”
The soda sprayed from my lips as my hips jerked forward.
“Mia!” Diane exclaimed, but I was too focused on Ollie’s skilled and slender fingers, making love to me under the table as we all sat around for lunch.
“Excuse me. I think I left my phone in Ollie’s car,” I slid my eyes to Ollie who wore a smug grin, “Give me six minutes.”
I got up from the table and hurried in heels through the restaurant and toward the parking lot, hoping Ollie would follow. It was mid-day, and I shivered against the wind in the vacant parking lot, pacing beside Ollie’s hatchback. The sun shone high above as Ollie walked toward me with his hands in the pockets and a mischievous grin rising on his lips.
He walked past me toward the woods.
I spun around. “Where are you going?”