As the three of us shucked off our clothes in record time, Rose turned back to me, placing a palm gently on my cheek, causing me to pause mid-movement. She waited for my gaze to meet hers, but stayed silent when it did.
“What?” The tetchiness in my voice was part unease, part impatience. I had never needed to be with someone or someones more than I needed to be with them at that moment. Both of them. And I didn’t want to waste a second before we got there.
“You’re not doing anything wrong. You have nothing to feel guilty for. Everything you’re thinking and feeling, everything you want right now is okay. No, it’s better than okay, it’s right. For you, for me, and for us. You’re allowed to be happy, regardless of the past. You owe it to yourself, and you owe it to him.”
I didn’t want to think or talk any more. I just wanted to be, and do, and feel. “Shut up and fuck us.” I pushed away from the kitchen counter where I’d been leaning, and reached down to hoist her into my arms as she instinctively curled her legs around me.
Kane moved silently, quickly returning moments later holding a bottle. I nodded to him, and knowing exactly what I meant, he poured some of the contents into his hand, and put the bottle on the counter top next to us. He came closer, so that Rose was sandwiched between our bodies. “Just like last time, relax, and we’ll all have fun,” he urged.
She nodded, but said nothing.
Kane took the hand he’d lubricated and placed it between his body and hers, reaching down to her ass. “That’s it. Just relax.”
She shifted slightly, and at the same time, her eyelids slid closed, and her head fell backward onto Kane’s shoulder. A low moan escaped from her lips as she slowly rotated her hips again. I met Kane’s gaze, and he leaned forward again. “Bring your arms up and lock them around my neck.” He spoke into Rose’s ear. She silently did as she was told, keeping her eyes tightly shut.
I watched over Rose’s shoulder as Kane pushed his thumb slowly into her ass, shifting my focus between his hand and her face, noting the flicker of discomfort, and the slight clench of her jaw. When he was all the way in, she seemed to relax, letting out a long-held breath.
Kane slipped his free arm around Rose’s waist, then nodded to me, so I reached down for my dick, and began rubbing the tip lightly back and forth over her clit, earning us another deep, throaty moan. She began slowly circling her hips, and I took that as my cue to ramp up the intensity, pushing inside her with one deep thrust.
“Oh God.” Still her eyes remained shut, but she started to quiver. I reached out and twisted her nipples, hard, relishing the way her body bucked in shock and her pussy tightened and pulsed around me. She was something else; she really was.
We carried on that way for a little while, with Rose bowed between us, until we felt she was relaxed enough to handle more. Kane slowly withdrew his thumb from her ass, and grabbed the lube again, this time covering his dick and rubbing it around a few times. He was so jacked-up already that even that small amount of friction sent shudders through his body. I hoped Rose was ready, because as aroused as we both were, she was in for a wild ride.
“Move your hands to Fox’s neck now, and breathe deep.” Again, she did as she was told, but this time, she opened her eyes, looking down at my dick as it moved between us. Kane stilled us with his hands on Rose’s hips as he spoke softly into her ear. “Slow and gentle. Relax and breathe.” He leaned forward, and Rose brought her head up again, but this time, she had her eyes screwed tightly shut as she concentrated on Kane’s movements.
With my dick inside her up front, I felt the exact moment he eased into her ass, oh so slowly. Though it was different from the first time when we’d both been inside her pussy, one of the things I loved about any kind of double penetration was the friction it created with two dicks rubbing so closely together, and the way Rose squeezed us tight. The push/pull between us was like nothing else.
Chapter 10
Rose
“Open your eyes and look at me. I want to see what you feel as you feel it.”
I obeyed Fox’s command—the strength in his voice told me it wasn’t something that was open for debate—but as soon as I met his gaze, I wished I hadn’t. The depth of raw emotion on display as he continued to pump in and out of me shook me to my core. I shouldn’t have looked him in the eye that way. I knew the deal with the two of us—the history, and baggage.
“Don’t.” His voice was sharp as I tried to look away. I wanted, no, I needed to sever that connection if I wasn’t going to end up broken. Fox grabbed my jaw, squeezing tight, forcing me to look at him. “Don’t turn away from this. This is where we are. This is who we are. This is what we are. If we do this, then we do it for real, and we can’t just close our eyes and magically sweep everything under the rug like it never happened. It happened, and it shaped and colored what we are and will always be. It’s not pretty. It’s not glamorous. It’s pain. And heartache. And hurt. But it’s us. If you want us, this is what you signed up for.”
Fuck. His words hit home, and something inside me twisted like a knife to the heart. “This isn’t hugs and kisses and walks in the park. It’s blood, and panic, and terror, and pain. It’s love, but not in the way they feed it to us in movies and books. This is the real deal, ‘we may not survive this whole’ shit. But it’s honest, and raw. It’s real. You in?”
A sane and sensible person would have backed out there and then. He was telling me honestly that I was about to run barefoot through a field of flaming barbed wire. He was giving me the option to protect myself, and run in the opposite direction to safety.
The fact was, I’d already pricked myself on that barbed wire and gotten a taste for the acrid and sweet blood I’d sucked from my fingertips. I’d gone so far I couldn’t turn back. There was no warning me off. There was no option. There was no way out. There was only blood, and pain, and flesh torn to shreds.
“Yeah, I’m in.”
“Good. But don’t say I didn’t warn you.”
He slid his hands under my ass cheeks to give him leverage to lift and lower me up and down the length of his dick.
When he’d done that a few times, behind me, Kane gripped my hips to lift and lower me in the same way, but with his dick in my ass, the sensation was totally different, and completely overwhelming. So much so, that I could hardly breathe. My natural inclination was to try to close my eyes. I needed to shut something out to contain the whirlwind of emotions that was threatening to engulf me and pull me under, but when I did, Fox pulled me back from the brink yet again.
“Rose.” I looked at him again. “One hundred percent, or nothing, remember?”
I remembered; I just suddenly wasn’t sure that I could give what he was asking. Separately they were a lot. Together, they bordered on too much.
“Don’t overthink it. It’s everything he said before, but it’s also just three people who form the perfect triangle.” Kane’s voice was low, and his mouth was so close to my body that as his warm breath skimmed the shell of my ear, I was fairly sure that Fox couldn’t have heard what he’d said. “Just three people connecting. Nothing else. Okay?” I nodded, still drowning in Fox’s stare. “Okay.”