Although, I don’t know. I’m still not sure that I would.
I guess what I’m saying is that I wasn’t mad at Graham. For not understanding me. And, ultimately, I don’t think he was all that mad at me, for what I wanted.
GRAHAM: We hurt each other very badly. And that is my biggest regret. That is my very biggest regret. Because I loved her with all of my fucking soul. To this day, there is a piece of me that still loves her. And there is a piece of me that will never forgive her.
KAREN: Even now, talking about him feels like poking a bruise.
GRAHAM: I knew when I went to bed that night, I couldn’t be in a band with her.
KAREN: There was no way we could be around each other, day to day, anymore. Maybe stronger people could have. We couldn’t.
BILLY: I sat down at the bar and I ordered a tequila neat. And it arrived. And I sat there and I picked it up and swirled it around and I sniffed it. And then two women came up to me, and asked me to sign autographs for them. Said they’d never seen anything like Daisy and me. I signed two cocktail napkins and pretty soon after, they left.
DAISY: It was the middle of the night when I got back to the hotel. I don’t remember what I’d been doing. I just remember that I was avoiding Billy. I think I probably walked around the city or something. I was still plastered when I got back to the lobby. And I turned right, to head for the bar. I remember thinking I didn’t even want to be conscious.
But I must not have realized where I was going or what I was doing because I ended up walking straight into the elevator. I thought, All right, guess I’ll take my reds and go to bed. But when I got to my room, I couldn’t get my key in the door. I kept trying but I couldn’t get it to fit. I think I was making a lot of noise.
And then I thought I heard a child’s voice.
BILLY: I grabbed the glass—the tequila, I mean—I grabbed it again and I stared at it. And I thought about what it would taste like. Clean smoke. I was lost in it when the guy next to me went, “Hey, you’re Billy Dunne, aren’t you?” And I put it down.
DAISY: I was stuck out there, in the hallway. Unable to get into my room. And I slumped down on the ground and I started crying.
BILLY: I said, “Yes, I am.”
And the man said, “My girl’s got a real thing for you.”
I said, “Sorry about that.”
And he said, “What are you doing down here in a bar by yourself? You seem like a guy who could be with any woman in the world.”
I said, “Sometimes you have to be alone.”
DAISY: I looked down the hall and I realized it was…well…out into the hallway comes Camila and she’s holding Julia…
AUTHOR: Wait a minute.
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