Only one person is assigned that ringtone.
“Excuse me,” I apologize, and slip out of the booth. I retreat to the outer corner of Artists’ Alley, near where the pretzel man set up shop. It’s a little quieter here, and it gives me space to shrug out of Imogen’s character without anyone noticing. I check my phone.
I have a missed call and a text from Ethan.
ETHAN TANAKA (12:02 PM)
—Jess, another tweet is up.
—[Link]
—I think you need to call Darien.
I click on the link, even though I already know I don’t want to read it. The dreamy haze that has danced in my head all morning crystalizes with a cold burst of dread.
CARMINDOR DIES, the tweet reads.
It feels like a rubber band that has been wound and wound and wound around me pops. I sink to the carpet, staring at the excerpt. There are no clues this time who this person is or where they are—just the barest edge of a leather sofa. But I’m not sure if I really care all that much who is leaking the script.
I don’t know what I thought I wanted to find in the sequel.
I don’t know how I expected to feel.
But it isn’t…this.
I pull up Dare’s number, but I hesitate to call. It’s noon, and the cast has a panel at noon.
The news broke during the panel, I realize, and my stomach twists into knots. I hope Imogen doesn’t do anything stupid.
Ethan won’t let her. Will he?
A PHONE DINGS IN THE AUDIENCE—Starfield’s communication tone—and then another ding in the front row. Then a hundred dings in succession.
My smartphone vibrates on the table.
Darien and I, the only two of us on the panel (Amon, our moderator, is late), look at each other. We’re supposed to be talking about what it’s like to play opposing forces. “Star-Crossed in Starfield” is the name of the panel, and, you know, I was feeling pretty good about bullshitting my way through it.
Another phone dings.
Now I shift in my chair, apprehensive.
A murmur sweeps across the crowd.
My phone vibrates for only two things right now: my mothers texting me or another leak of the script.
I don’t know what to do—should I read it like everyone in the audience is obviously doing? My eyes stray to the front row until I realize that Ethan isn’t there. I left the hotel without him this morning. I didn’t go to Jess’s room to see if he’d escort me to the convention, and I did well by myself. The paparazzi greeted me outside the con and I gave them Jess’s best smile as I breezed past.
I don’t need to apologize to Ethan—he was out of line last night, too. Way, way out of line. Although, I barely slept a wink in my hotel room, my traitorous brain writing and rewriting apology texts to him that I never sent.
Not that I would apologize.
Not until he apologized first.
Darien makes the executive decision to check his phone, and the warm look that he’d fixed on his face grows stony.
And then distant.
I check the notification, too. My breath catches in my throat.
Oh, starflame.
@starfieldscript337
CARMINDOR DIES. LOOKS LIKE WE’RE IN FOR A NEW HERO.
PRINCE CARMINDOR hears AMARA’s voice in his head, but it doesn’t matter. He can’t control his body anymore, and his mind is fading. He keys in the code to drop the shields to the Federation’s Commissary. The last stronghold.
He knows he must welcome GENERAL SOND. The Path of the Sun is the only way to find salvation. To find AMARA.
AMARA(V.O.)
You don’t want to come find me yet, ah’blen. You have work to do.
PRINCE CARMINDOR
(talking to himself)
I will always look for you.
AMARA (V.O.)
But you will not find me here.
He keys in the last number as the door to the control room opens behind him. He hears his name, but it’s too late. Everything is muted. He has lost too much blood from the wound in his side.
CARMINDOR collapses to the floor and does not get back up.
My hands begin to shake. Just as I thought: Carmindor will be conscripted, and the only person who can save him is dead, and they haven’t written in another character who can. From the corner of my eye, I watch as Darien gently sets down his phone. His Adam’s apple bobs as he swallows, and his gaze drifts up to mine.
And suddenly, I can see it in his eyes—how he wishes that I were Jess. The real Jess.
My hands close into fists.
The low murmur in the audience grows louder the longer we sit here, unsure of what to do. Do we acknowledge what just happened or press on with the panel? In all my nervousness, I realize I’m biting my thumbnail.
Jess doesn’t bite her thumbnail.
I force my hands onto the table and lean over to whisper to him, “What do we do?”
He shakes his head. “I don’t—”
“Sorry I’m late!” Amon jumps up the steps, rushing onto the stage. He pats me on the shoulder as he passes. “Did I miss anything?”
Everything, I want to scream. You missed every—
Amon sits down at the end of the table and scoots his chair up to his microphone. “Hello there. Thank you, everyone, for coming to our panel. We’re going to start with some easy questions—”
Someone in the audience jumps to their feet. Because of the stage lights, I can’t see who it is, just a dark shape in a sea of shadows. “Is it real?” they shout.
Amon smooths a smile over his face. “I’m sorry, is what real?” he asks, but Darien leans in close to his microphone, shaking his head.
“No, it’s not. It can’t be.”
“Isn’t it?” I whisper.
Another shadow asks, “Are you dying, Carmindor?”
“No! I’m not!” Darien’s voice is sharper than it should be, and then he adds, quieter, as if wondering the same thing, “Of course I’m not.”
“Don’t lie to us!” another person shouts. “Are they killing Starfield?”
My nails dig into my palms.
“Get a better Carmindor!” someone else shouts. “Reboot it again!”
“Kill it!”
“Bring back David and Natalia!” another person cries to more shouts of agreement.
Beside me, Darien’s face begins to pale. He sits back in his chair, but his shoulders are bunched together as though he’s getting ready to spring from the table and leave. Other people shout slogans I’ve read on Tumblr and Twitter, more obscene things that I’m sure Darien has read before but never experienced in person.
There are dark sides of every fandom. The pockets filled with a certain kind of nostalgia where everything is sacred and shouldn’t be tampered with. Where new things are always trash, or judged too harshly, or not up to some unknown holy standard. Where new people with new ideas can’t touch an old sinking ship even if it’ll repair it—make it better than before.
This is that toxic side, bubbling up, boiling over. It’s the side that I’ve had the pleasure of staying far away from because it’s so small and inconsequential. But now, sitting up here on the panel, that sludge of toxicity is pushing right to the edge of the stage.
Jess is always so much closer to it than I ever was. Is that why she hates Starfield?