As Jai rubbed the oil onto our fingers, Noel lazily played with himself, eyes darkening to deep purple. I watched his hand slide over his erection, and my own length pulsed, so hard it nearly hurt. My shirt hid my straining need, and Noel scowled at my covered groin.
“Why are you not naked?” he whined.
Jai used one hand to bunch my shirt higher so Noel could ogle me while the other coaxed my hand between Noel’s open legs. For a moment, I wished Jai had left the lamp off. I felt exposed, even though I wasn’t the one currently laid and spread like a feast on the mattress. Though without the light, I wouldn’t have seen the desperate hunger in Noel’s eyes as Jai guided my slick fingers over his Other’s inner thigh.
“Oh God.” I leaned into Jai’s chest as my trembling fingertip teased the space behind Noel’s sack.
Anxiety morphed with my lust, and I faltered. It was a terribly confusing feeling. I worried over hurting Noel or making a mistake and not pleasing him. But I was curious too. I didn’t think I would ever be good at taking control when it came to sex, yet Noel melted beneath me, surrendering with beautiful abandon.
“I don’t know what to do,” I whispered to Jai as he pressed against my back, chest to groin. His erection teased the crease of my bottom, distracting me. He kissed my cheek.
“Go slow,” he said, his thumb pressing to mine, which in turn slid down to cover Noel’s puckered skin. A humiliating noise scraped my throat as the forbidden flesh beneath my thumb fluttered. “Never rush this. Prep can feel good too, if you take your time and pay attention to the signals his body sends.”
Noel continued to touch himself leisurely, eyes riveted on Jai and me as my thumb rubbed circles against his tight hole. The more pressure Jai encouraged me to exert, the heavier Noel’s breathing grew until his eyes drifted shut. He mewled in what I understood as impatience. I felt Jai’s smile against my cheek as he pushed against my thumb. The outer ring of Noel’s muscles relaxed, and the tip of my thumb popped inside.
On instinct, I jerked away, and Noel pouted. “You’re such a tease.”
“Uh—”
“Switch to your index finger, baby.” Jai nibbled on the nape of my neck as I obeyed.
I watched in fascination as my finger circled, then probed, then slipped inside to the first knuckle. I froze, eyes wide. Jai’s chest rumbled, and Noel grunted, impatient once more.
“Keep going. Slow but steady. Noel can take it.” Jai’s hand nudged the underside of Noel’s thigh, pushing his leg higher until Noel’s knee touched his chest.
“Ungh,” Noel grunted.
I felt him bear down, but instead of pushing me out, my finger slid farther in, to the second knuckle. A hysterical giggle poured from my lips. My finger was inside of Noel! This was… crazy.
He was hot and soft, and God, he was tight around my finger. Was this what it would feel like around me? If so, I didn’t stand a chance of lasting longer than two seconds.
“I’m not a damn virgin.” Noel arched his back, recapturing my attention. “Pick up the pace a little.”
“So demanding.” Jai tsked in reprimand before nipping at my ear. “Add another finger. Before he begs.”
Noel laughed, but it cut off in a moan as my middle finger joined my pointer. “Fuck you, Jairus.”
“Not tonight.”
This time, I chuckled with Jai as Noel squirmed. It was a heady thing, having Noel vulnerable before me, desperate for me. But it was a lot of pressure too. Because I didn’t want to let him down. I wanted to make him feel amazing, but I didn’t know how.
Jai caught on to my floundering, whispering instructions in my ear as he rolled his hips against my butt. He must have covered himself with lubrication because he slid between my cheeks with ease, his length grazing my sensitive entrance.
“Your fingers aren’t very big, so add a third and push deep.” Jai panted directions against my neck. “Reach for the spot behind the base of his cock. It’ll—”
My finger brushed a spongy patch, and Noel bowed off the bed with an eerie cry. “Fuck, right there!” Sweat glistened on his brow, his eyes shut as his hips started to move with the rhythm of my fingers.
“You found it,” Jai praised. “Keep hitting that spot, and he’ll fly.”
“O-Okay.” I tried to obey, but Jai’s erection between my legs and my own pulsing arousal were distracting.
“Riley, please.” Noel opened his eyes. They were glazed and desperate. He moaned as I brushed his prostate again. “I need… fields of Elysium! Just fuck me already. I need you inside me.”
Just like that, the first hint of orgasm trickled down my spine. I loved the way Jai filled me, how it felt to surrender to his strength, to receive the passion of his love. But I liked this too. Noel wanted me inside him, to claim him, and I wanted to be the man he needed. But not tonight.
I surged forward, keeping the rhythm of my fingers inside him as I crawled up his body and took his lips in a messy kiss. Noel whimpered into my mouth, his fingers tightening in my hair as Jai’s hand splayed over my tailbone.
“I got you,” I whispered between kisses.
“More,” he pleaded.
When I tried to sit back up for better leverage, Jai’s hand on my back stopped me. Hunched over Noel, one hand supporting my weight, the other working in and out of Noel’s body, I could do nothing but moan as Jai’s oil-slicked fingers teased my hole. He wasn’t rough, but he struggled for control, his fingers probing past my rings of muscles before I was ready. It burned.
But maybe I was a bit like Jai because I didn’t mind the pain so much.
“Oh my God!” I tucked my face into Noel’s neck, thrusting my fingers into him, searching for the special spot inside him as Jai did the same to me.
Jai murmured words of praise as he worked two long fingers inside me. Noel was past the point of words, moaning and mewling. I nearly sobbed when Jai pegged the bundle of nerves inside me with his middle finger.
“So fucking beautiful,” Jai purred. “Come on Riley’s fingers, No. Let him hear how good he makes you feel.”
“So good,” Noel gasped. “He feels so good.”
With a chuckle, Jai quickened his fingers inside me, and I lost myself. In the pleasure. In the burn. In the overwhelming love saturating the air with dokha and lilac, sweat and passion. My orgasm crested and hovered.
Jai leaned forward, nearly crushing me against Noel. “Come for Riley, Noel. Come with his fingers buried inside you as he soaks your pretty cock in his cum.”
“Fuck!” Noel threw his head back as his body spasmed, squeezing my fingers as he erupted between our bodies.
The feel of his orgasm and the sound of my name on his lips tipped me over the edge, and I buckled under the intensity of my own pleasure. Like Jai predicted, I spilled over Noel’s pulsing erection, our semen mixing on Noel’s belly. Floating in pleasure, I was dimly aware of Jai grunting, and the moist sound of him fisting his hard length. Then warm liquid painted my tailbone and butt, trickling between my cheeks.
Arms made of jelly, I collapsed onto Noel with zero finesse, my shirt soaking up our release. My fingers slipped from his body with a wet, squelching noise, and I cringed into his heaving chest. He sighed.