“I haven’t been living either, Ty.”
He nodded and pulled me against him.
The booze. The buzz. The orgasms. The comfort.
It had all caught up with me, and I drifted away in the arms of the only boy I’d ever truly loved.
And there was nowhere else I’d rather be.
Chapter Ten
Ty
“When signing a contract, always seal it with a kiss.” Coco, one hour after meeting Big Sexy
I hadn’t slept that deep in as long as I could remember. Her room was completely dark, aside from the light from the moon shining through her curtains. The smell of lilies and jasmine surrounding me. Comforting me in a way I didn’t realize I’d been craving.
It had been so long since I’d felt connected to someone, about five years if I’m being honest. What I felt for this girl was not something I could put into words. Sure, I’d tried, pouring my feelings into my music, and even that no longer worked. Maybe Lucy was right, because being here—being with her—I could write a million songs about the way this girl made me feel right now. Seeing her come undone earlier—I’d never forget it.
It was better than sold-out arenas and thousands of fans screaming my name. Hitting the top of the charts. Making more money than I knew what to do with.
Ivy Baron was the best thing that had ever happened to me.
I knew it back then and I knew it today.
We’d been asleep for hours. I carefully reached for my phone to see that it was almost three o’clock in the morning. I set it back on the nightstand as she started to stir.
Her eyes opened, and she blinked a few times, taking me in.
“Hey,” I whispered. “How do you feel?”
“I feel good. What time is it?”
“It’s three in the morning.” I laughed.
“I’m sober, Ty. And I still want you. All of you.”
That was all she needed to say. I leaned forward and kissed her hard. Grinding up against her because my dick was an eager bastard. “Are you sure about this?”
She nodded. “I know you’re leaving. But I’d rather have right now than never.”
I kissed her again, and her fingers tangled in my hair. I’d never wanted anyone the way I wanted Ivy. More now than ever. I pulled away and pushed back on my knees to reach for my wallet in my back pocket. I pulled out a condom and tossed my wallet on her nightstand and the condom on the bed, before pushing to stand and yanking my tee over my head and shoving my jeans to the floor. Her eyes doubled in size as she took me in. My dick was impressive on a bad day, and today was his lucky day. He was standing tall and proud. Even I was impressed.
Ivy started to unzip her skirt and I put my hand up.
“Don’t you dare. I want to undress you, Ive.” I crawled back on the bed and gripped her hips before flipping her over in one swoop as laughter erupted from her beautiful mouth. She was lying on her stomach, and I unzipped her skirt while I kissed down her neck and back before tugging it down her body. I slowly rolled her back over and unbuttoned her blouse, and she pushed up to sit just enough for me to pull it down her arms and drop it to the floor. Her panties were already off, as I’d left them somewhere near the front door. I reached behind her back and unsnapped her bra on the first try.
“I don’t want to know how you’re so good at that,” she said, her gaze searching mine.
“I can promise you that I haven’t ever had any interest in undressing another woman aside from you. God’s honest truth. It’s always been you.” I slipped her lavender lace bra down her shoulders and tossed it on the floor as I leaned her back down to lie on the bed. I hovered above her, taking in her gorgeous body. Her long auburn hair was a wild mess as it fell all around her.
“You sure about this?” I asked.
She nodded. “Very sure.”
Her heated gaze told me that she wanted me as much as I wanted her. I leaned down to kiss her, my lips making their way down her neck before covering each of her perfect tits with my mouth. She arched into my touch.
“No more teasing me, Ty. I need you right now.”
I leaned back and found the foil packet on the bed. I tore it open with my teeth and covered my erection with the latex. She sat forward and watched me, her gaze wild with need. I’d never seen anything more beautiful.
I tipped her back. Claiming that sweet mouth as I settled between her legs. “I’ve missed you so much.”
“Me too,” she whispered.
I knew we were playing with fire. I didn’t want things to end badly again. I’d told her everything. I’d laid it all on the line. I wanted her forgiveness.
Needed her forgiveness.
I couldn’t move forward without it.
This definitely wasn’t part of the plan, and it would certainly complicate things.
But I couldn’t stop this if I wanted to. And I most definitely didn’t want to.
I pushed forward slowly, as Ivy hadn’t been with anyone in a long time.
Five years.
Five fucking years, this girl had been waiting for the right guy. And the wrong guy had come back to claim her.
I wanted to be that guy for her, but I knew I couldn’t be. We didn’t want the same things. It would never work. Ivy wasn’t leaving Willow Springs. Hell, her mother probably still didn’t think I was good enough for her.
I knew I wasn’t.
I hadn’t gone to college. I’d taken a different path. One that took me far away from here.
Far away from Ivy.
She groaned as I moved slowly. “Are you all right?”
“I am. Please don’t stop. I need this, Ty. I need you.”
That was all I needed to hear. Inch by glorious inch, and nothing had ever felt better. My gaze never left hers and I realized her breaths were shallow.
“Relax, baby. I’ve got you.”
A tear streamed down her beautiful face, and she nodded. “I’m just happy to be with you again.”
Jesus. What was this girl doing to me? I came here to make peace. I couldn’t stay forever. And now leaving this time was going to be even worse than the first time.
But I was a selfish prick, and I wanted this taste of happiness.
This little slice of heaven that I’d missed so much.
I paused once I was all the way in and let her adjust to the intrusion. She let out a long breath and I leaned down to kiss her. We started to move. Just like we had years ago, but this time it was different.