I hop up on the bed and pat the spot next to me for her to climb in. “So what movie did you pick?”
Allison smiles sweetly up at me. “The Notebook.”
I groan in protest, but in all honesty, we could watch the fucking Weather Channel for all I care. As long as she’s in my arms, I’m a happy man. Six months ago, if you would’ve told me I would be madly in love and passing up going out with the guys just to be around her, I would’ve said you were an idiot. Things change, and I’ve learned to expect the unexpected in all things love and Allison.
I can feel her laughing beside me at my mock annoyance. I put my arm around her and bring her close. God, I love this girl.
I think we’re about halfway through the movie, honestly, I can’t be sure. I’ve spent the entire time watching Allison. She truly is the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, and she loves me. I’ve been touching and kissing her since the movie started. I can tell I’m distracting her, but, honestly, I don’t care. Just being in her presence is distracting to me. I try to be good and keep my hands to myself, so she can watch the movie, but then I remind myself she’s seen it before. In that case, game on.
I snuggle closer and place soft kisses on her neck. She tilts her head to the side to give me better access. I smile. I continue kissing and licking while running my hands up and down her thighs. She turns around, pushes me on my back, and straddles my hips. I reach for the remote and turn the TV off. I don’t want to hear anything but her. I sit up with her in my lap, and she binds her legs around my waist. I take her face in my hands. “I love you, beautiful girl.” I kiss her slowly at first, nipping at her bottom lip, running my tongue across it. Then I slowly push my tongue between her lips, exploring her mouth, savoring her taste. I pull back and wait for her to open her eyes and look at me. “Allison, you mean everything to me. I can’t imagine life without you. I miss you when I'm not with you—all I do is think about you...” I pause to get my emotions in check. I was on the verge of losing my shit, and I need to get this off my chest first. She needs to know what she means to me. “Look in my eyes and you will find me, look in my heart and you will find you, my heart beats your name. You have taken up permanent residence inside me, eternally. I’m never going to let you go.”
Allison’s gazing into my eyes, with soft tears running down her cheeks. I kiss them away before finding her lips with mine. I flip us over on the bed, so I’m lying on top of her, my weight balanced on my forearms.
Allison runs her hands through my hair. “I don’t want you to ever let me go. I wish…” She pauses, collecting her thoughts as I stroke the tears from her cheeks. “I wish I could find the words to express to you how much you mean to me.” She brings my lips to hers and kisses me like her last breath depends on it. “Let me show you,” she whispers against my lips as her hands trail down my back, stopping at my boxer briefs. She begins tugging to pull them off. I sit up and discard them, and when I turn back to the bed, her arms are in the air. I lift my shirt over her head and throw it across the room.
I climb back on the bed and position myself on top of her. I can feel her heat against my erection. I need to calm the fuck down, before I push her into something she’s not ready for. I try to pull away, but Allison grabs my arms.
“Make love to me, Liam. I want to feel you inside me. I want to know what it’s like to be one with you. I love you,” she breathes against my lips.
I stare into her emerald eyes, and I can see love and passion. I don’t see any signs of hesitation; she wants this with me. This amazing girl is giving me something she’ll never be able to give another. I swallow hard over the lump in my throat. I’m losing my shit again, and this time, I don’t want to hide it. I want her to see how her gift is affecting me, how she affects me.
Allison smiles up at me. “Liam, you are my soul, I belong to you. I want to share this with you, and only you.”
“You’re mine,” I whisper against her lips. I slowly move my way down to her breast, taking my time with each one. I move my hand to her center and can feel she’s ready for me. It’s then it hits me. “Shit,” I say against her neck.
“What?” she croaks out.
“I don’t have a condom. I didn’t bring you here for this. I just wanted to be with you, alone,” I tell her.
Allison embraces my cheek and lifts up, so I’m looking at her. “Liam, I’m on the pill,” she tells me.
I look at her in question so she continues on. “The week after we became official, Hailey went with me to the clinic. We’re protected.”
“Babe, I would’ve gone with you,” I tell her. I want to be there for her in every way.
She blushes. “I wasn’t sure we would make it this far, but I wanted to be prepared if we did.”
I rest my forehead against hers. “I’m clean, I just had my annual before the semester started, and I haven’t been with anyone since months before then.”
“I trust you, Liam.” I can tell there’s a deeper meaning behind those words.
I nod my head and position myself between her legs. I stop to take in the moment. I’m overwhelmed with want, passion, and need for her. I’m also a little intimidated.
“What’s wrong?” she asks me, concern and what looks like insecurity lacing her face.
“It’s just that, well, I have never done this before, not without a condom. This is a first for me, for a couple different reasons,” I tell her honestly. She nods her head, so I continue. “I’ve also never made love before. It was always just sex, release, but you—you’re different. My heart and soul are engraved with you. I’m scared as hell to hurt you and scared if we do this and you regret it I’ll lose you and, well, that’s just not an option for me.”
Allison raises her hips to meet mine. “I want you with everything in me, I want you in me.” She smiles softly. “You’ve branded my heart. There’s nothing that can keep me away from you. You’re a part of me. I want this with you, to share this part of me with you. I love you.” She lifts up and kisses me soft and slow. “Please, make love to me.”
My resolve crumbles, and I nod, letting her know I’m in this with her. “Baby, this is going to hurt, and I’m so sorry. Once I’m all the way in, I’ll stop, so you can adjust to me. If you need me to stop or you change your mind, tell me, okay?”
“I won’t want you to stop, but yes, I promise.”
With those words, I gently begin pushing my way into her slick folds and have to grit my teeth as soon as I feel her heat. The feel of her with no barrier between us emotionally or physically is a feeling I’m not prepared for. I’m glad I saved this moment, this feeling for her. I watch her closely, gauging her reaction as I continue to slowly slip inside. Allison raises her hips to meet mine. “More, Liam, please,” she begs me.
“Easy, babe, I don’t want to hurt you.”
She’s shaking her head. I’m so focused on watching her face, caught in the moment, I don’t realize she has wrapped her legs tight around me, until she thrusts against me, pushing me the rest of the way inside.
She gasps in pain, and I hold completely still. “Are you okay?” She doesn’t answer, so I start to pull out.