she then looks at me and says, "you never told me about the women in your life."
I shrug and say "what's there to tell? You are the only I am with."
She blushes and says, "come on, was there someone special before I came along?"
I stare up into space and say, "there was someone but she left."
The memory of that someone hurt.
she was a girlfriend who fell for, none other than of Dimitri.
I couldn't believe it.
I thought I was in love with her but it turns out she preferred the man who she thought could give her the world. I was a lowly member of the staff to her. In her mind, She hit the jackpot with a married Dimitri.
Unfortunately for her, she was just one of many and he eventually got rid of her.
I look away, Irina leans up to it's me and says, "I can't believe she gave you up for Dimitri. what was she thinking? what was his wife thinking back then?"
The moment she said the word "wife", she trembled as the reality of the situation hit.
Yes, we can play house. But she was about to be married, yet she was here with me. I held her tighter.
There's no way I was going to let her go.
she wasn't going to be with Dimitri, no matter what happens.
She gazed up at me and smiled through her worries.
she still wanted to know what happened to Dimitri's wife at the time, when my girlfriend became Dimitri's mistress.
I tell her, " nothing she left."
The truth is she didn't leave, that particular wife was never heard from again because she dared to question Dimitri's actions with the girlfriend.
I take in a deep breath and sigh.
I know that I'm playing with fire.
I am playing with something that cannot be stopped.
it's scary.
It bothers me that I can just take her away from here forever I can’t tell him she's cannot be his because she is mine.
I've taken the most precious treasure from him that cannot be returned
Blake kept on calling he wouldn't stop.
I just wish he would.
But no he kept on hounding my phone.
Irina sighed and asked and you going to pick that he might be very important.
I turned towards her and say “it's okay I know who it is. Let’s just enjoy our time together. What about you? if you ever had someone special before now?”
She smiles and looks away.
I say I really want to know.
She tells me the only one she has had a crush on was me.
She said she had a crush the moment I stopped by her home with Dimitri, a year ago.
Surprised to hear her say these words.
I stared to eyes and said “You did?”
She bit her lower lip and nodded. Then she said ,”Yes my crush began years ago and it is still there. But then once I realized my father would choose the man I marry. I pushed my emotions to the side.
The more she spoke, the more I fell for her.
I kissed her lips and held her tight. We pressed our bodies next to each other.
We knew that this time would not last forever and it seems pointless to fight it.
I had to come up with a way to stop the possibility of handing over to Dimitri I just had to there was no way I could stop this from happening whatever it took I just have to there's no going back now I need her. Fuck I need her.
Blake wouldn’t stop.
He kept on sending messages.I knew he wanted an update. Still, I have a feeling, he wants more.That's probably his mission.He's not going to get it, never. He would never get anywhere near my darling.
I sigh and think, did I just think of her as my darling.
Oh fuck, I am falling for her? No Lars, you are damaged.
You have issues. You fall for no one, no one. You are in lust that is all. The voice keep talking to me. I start to wonder, what will I do now?
Irina
I sat there watching the movie with him.
I must say I have never felt so close to anyone like this before.
I thought life was perfect.
I sat there watching the movie with him.
I know I have heard they are all ruthless. But the way I feel cannot be stopped.
But I could not do it for some reason.Exposing my dreams and all to him seemed like the right thing to do. I can’t believe I admitted my crush to him.
What must he think about me now?
I swallow and lean on to his arm. He glances down at me and smiles. Then his gaze turns back to the screen.
I smile and lean closer wrapping my fingers around his huge biceps.
I trace his snake around a heart tattoo. I guess the snake stays protecting his heart? He laughs from time to time. He looks like a kid in a candy store. And honestly, it melts my heart. I think to myself how did I get this lucky to have him as my guard and now more.
I run my fingers on his tattoo and ask, “Tell me more about this?”
“What do you want to know?”
I could tell he was being a little guarded about the art.
"Can you tell me a little bit about a tattoo?. I swallow.
My goodness, I wonder how will he respond?
He tells me so much about himself. Then he adds:
" I protect my heart the snake protects my heart. I decided I would not let anyone into my heart."
"But how can you live that way?"
"It's just the way it is."
Besides, let's just not talk about this.
I nod and stare back at the screen. It is a beautiful tattoo but why is so protective of his heart.
I look into his eyes and say, "Honestly, the tattoo looks perfect."
He nods and says. "Thanks. But not as perfect as you.”
I blush and decide to stay in the present.
Damn what the future held.
Damn everything.
I lean on his shoulder. He smiles. I really like him and wish I could stop time. I take in a deep breath and exhale.
I understand why he is protective. After all, he has had a tough young life.
I feel safe with him as I push my body on his muscle filled body.
He turns and slid my hair away from my face.
Then he kisses my forehead. His kiss was endearing and tender.
I stare at him from time to time and wonder how different things might have been if we met under different circumstances.
I wonder if he had been a fireman and I was a teacher, how different our lives might have been?
I know it sounds crazy but then I wonder if life would not have been perfect. I sigh and stare at the screen momentarily. I was caught up in the moment. I loved staring into his hypnotic sexy eyes.
I murmur, “Your favorite movie is really good.”
He nods then he turns my way and says, ”You know what would be better?”
I shake my head. I bite my lower lip and ask, “No what?’
He says, “We could see the movie at the classic theater nearby. It is my favorite.”
I swallow and gasp.Then, I wonder is it safe? What if Dimitri’s boys see us?
Wasn’t he scared of Dimitri? It was one thing to play house in secret.It was another to do it out in the open. Besides he is supposed to be preparing me for my wedding not dating Dimitri's bride to be.
If Dimitri finds out I stepped out on a date, yes I consider this a date with Lars, it will not end well for either of us.
We would be gone in an instant.
Lars must know this. He must know that Dimitri is not someone to take lightly. He has made men disappear.