We ask for the check, because it’s getting late, and neither one of us wants to overspend. Kieran tries to pay, but I insist on splitting it. “I didn’t ask you out to dinner to make you pay.”
“I know that,” he says. “But I really needed a night out, and I didn’t even know it. And you just had that car-repair bill.”
He’s right about the car-repair bill. It was ghastly. And the shop warned me that other issues are lurking on the horizon. But I still won’t let him pay. I plunk down my half and close the bill wallet.
“Suit yourself,” he says. “We’ll just come here again next week, then.”
Outside, the storefronts of Montpelier have been decorated with white lights and fake snow, because we don’t have the real stuff yet. “I love Christmas,” I gush.
“Why?”
“What do you mean, why? Lights. Carols. Wrapping paper. Christmas cookies.”
“Okay—I understand the cookies.” He bleeps the locks on his truck. “The rest of it never turns out like it does on TV, though.”
Of course he’s a hundred percent right. I’ve never had a Christmas that even came close to fulfilling my Hallmark fantasies. But I can’t quit hoping. “Do you think we’ll get more snow soon? I haven’t had a snowy Christmas in a few years.”
Kieran’s lips quirk up in a smile. “You’ll get your snow, probably. And nobody makes better cookies than you.”
As usual, the praise makes me light up inside. “Play your cards right, and you can have all my cookies.” Somehow this comes out sounding flirtatious. I have a gift. Kieran’s smile only widens. Then he leans in and gives me a long, slow kiss, right here on the street where anyone might see.
I’m stunned, truly. But not too stunned to kiss him back. When it’s over, all I can do is gaze up at him in wonder. Did that just happen?
“Roderick,” he says gently.
“Huh?”
“You know you drove your own car, right?”
“Um, yup,” I stammer. “I’m parked in the municipal lot.”
“You want me to walk you over there?” His eyes twinkle.
I shake myself. “Nope, I’m good. See you at home.”
“You sure will.” The low, hungry tone he uses sends me hurrying off to my car.
Forty minutes later we’re in our favorite place—Kieran’s bed. He’s half on top of me. Kissing me. Grinding his hot body against mine. Everything is wow.
Maybe he’s not a talker, but Kieran has other ways of showing me how he feels.
One of his rough hands coasts up my chest, then pins my hand against the mattress. His other hand strokes down, over my abs, onto my groin. He gives my dick a slow stroke that makes me moan. Then his fingers dip down to play with my balls.
I’m loving every minute of it. But we could do even more. “Kieran,” I breathe, thrusting into his hand. “Would you ever want to fuck me?” I don’t always bottom, but lately I’ve been dreaming about it.
“Maybe,” he grunts before kissing me deeply.
Maybe. What does that mean? Does it mean yes, but not now? Or no, and he’d rather not talk about it? Does he hate the idea of anal? Maybe it’s too gay for him.
Although that seems unlikely, because he’s presently licking his way down my body and—ungh—weighing my cockhead on his tongue. Kieran has been practicing this with the dedication of an athlete who’s angling for a spot on the blowjob Olympic team.
And why can’t I ever just be happy with what I have? A hot, kind man is giving me head. I don’t need to take it further. I don’t need him to love me.
But I want him to, damn it. And I’m scared that I’ll always want more than Kieran Shipley can give me.
He lifts his head suddenly. “Where’d you go?”
“Nowhere,” I promise. “My squirrel brain just took over for a second.”
He gives me a slow smile. “Squirrel brain?”
“Yeah! Don’t you have one? When your thoughts chase around in circles and distract you from what’s really important? Like a great blowjob?”
“Not so much. No.”
“Of course you don’t.” I flop back onto the pillow. “You probably spend all day thinking sturdy, mountain-man thoughts. All that time you’ve spent outdoors makes your beard thick and your biceps strong and your head clear. Got it.”
He chuckles. “I don’t know about that. But—” He leans down and licks the length of my cock. “—when you’re here in my bed, you’re all I can think about. And after we fall asleep? I dream about you.”
Well, that’s exciting. My squirrel brain doesn’t get a chance to react to that, though, because Kieran rubs his thumb across my taint and swallows my cock. Not even a hot mess like me could ruin the moment. I’m too busy fucking his mouth as he sucks and strokes until I’m gripping the sheets, muscles quivering.
I’m not ready for it to end. “Not yet, hunk,” I beg, tugging on his hair. “You’re too good at that now. I’m going to disgrace myself. Come up here.”
He releases me with a smug grin that looks exceptional on his rugged features. He puts a muscular forearm on the bed and scales my body like some kind of flannel-wearing, cider-pressing Vermont superhero. Those powerful shoulders alone are enough to make me pop a woody whenever he walks into the coffee shop kitchen.
He looks me right in the eye before giving me a deep, searing kiss that leaves no space for ambiguity. Kieran doesn’t say a lot in words. But each of his kisses tells me just what I needed to hear.
I fumble a hand off the bed and onto the floor where I’ve strategically placed a bottle of lube, just in case tonight was the night. I flip it open and spill some into my palm. Nudging him until he slides halfway off my body, I grasp his dick in my lubed-up hand and stroke.
“Mother of—” he gasps, startled. “Fuck.” For a split second I think he doesn’t like it. But then he looks down at my hand around his cock, his eyes flashing, his color deep, and he makes a hungry, broken sound of pleasure.
Oh, hell yes. I stroke faster, craning my neck up to give him my mouth, too.
With a groan, he cups my hand in his, gathering both of us up in his long fingers. Pressing himself up on one hand, he begins thrusting earnestly.
“Ohhhh,” I moan under his kiss. “So hot when you do that.” I almost can’t stand it—the heat and the friction between us, and Kieran’s deep, driving grunt every time he thrusts against me. “I’m going to…”
Yup. I’m done. I dig my heels into the mattress and give him all my struggles—every ounce of soul-deep yearning erupts onto his hot body.
And it’s beautiful the way he follows me with a happy groan and a long shudder. Then we’re just two sticky guys, chests heaving, mouths chafed from aggressive kisses.
His heart thumps messily against mine. And I know I’m falling for him, whether I’m ready or not.
Kieran
It’s Monday again—our day off and my favorite day of the week. We slept in and fooled around, as is our habit. But now we’re both up and showered and Rod is standing in the kitchen, proving himself to be a study in contrasts. He’s got some loud punk music playing, and he’s dancing around yelling along to some lyrics that seem to say “stick it to the man, stick it to the man” over and over again, as he pipes delicate icing onto a gingerbread cookie.