“But you know there’s this line we can never cross.”
And with those words, my smile disappeared.
We weren’t born to grow up and spend the rest of our lives with each other. We weren’t supposed to grow old together, but that’s what I’ve always hoped for.
“What would happen if we did cross it?” I asked, thinking that we’d already crossed it a million times in my dreams and imagination anyway.
“Bad things. Things I don’t even wanna talk to you about because I don’t wanna upset you.”
I frowned, stepping closer to him and placing my left hand on his chest while I kept holding on to him with my other.
“We’re out here with no people around us. Besides…didn’t Papa come out here so society’s rules wouldn’t apply to us?”
He chuckled. “It’s still immoral, Vespyr. We’re bounded by blood. It wouldn’t be right.”
That was odd coming from him. “But you kissed me before.”
“It was just a peck, Ves. To show you how harmless a kiss can be. What you dream about in your sleep is different stuff. Twisted shit.”
“You said it’s okay to dream things like that.”
“I said it was okay to have such dreams, but to not let your mind think that it’s okay to do the things that happen in them. There’s a difference between dreaming and hoping.”
“But…” I sighed, letting my gaze drop to his chest where I was picking at his coat. “No one would know,” I whispered.
I was pushing this, but I shouldn’t have been.
He was right.
We couldn’t cross the line, no matter how much I wanted to.
And deep down, I knew he wanted it too.
Fennec grabbed both my hands and held them tightly in his, a small grin spreading across his lips.
“I can’t get over how persistent you can be. I didn’t think you could be this way.”
“How?”
“Like a go-getter. You obviously want something from me, and although I know exactly what it is, I never heard you say it. So, tell me. What do you want from me, sweet girl?”
My eyes met his again, but no words came out of my mouth.
“We’ve always been honest toward each other. Tell me, Ves.”
“You. I want to get closer to you,” I told him, suddenly feeling as if I was a changed woman.
How was I this open all of a sudden?
And the worst thing about it all? I was wide awake.
17
“How close?” I asked her, keeping her hands in mine as her eyes were filled with emotions.
I hadn’t expected her to go this far, and although she hadn’t said too much, I knew enough already.
She didn’t speak. Instead, her eyes moved from mine to my lips as she licked hers.
“All those dreams you had about us…maybe you secretly want them to become reality,” I whispered, lifting one hand and brushing back a strand of hair, then cupping her cheek.
She tilted her head and met my gaze again. “Maybe,” she whispered.
My thumb brushed along her soft, cold skin. “Maybe I want that too.”
Her eyes widened.
“You do?”
“Not sure what all those dreams contained exactly, but the one you told me about me kissing you…I’d like to repeat that.”
Her breathing hitched and her body tensed. Just the reaction I wanted from her.
I moved closer, making her take a few steps back and lean against the tree behind her.
Stepping in front of her, I pushed my right knee between her legs, moving closer and tilting her head back with my hand cupping her jaw now.
“Fennec—”
“Don’t you dare stop me now, Vespyr. You want this,” I uttered, making her shut her mouth again.
A nod from her was enough for me to place my lips on hers, and I quickly deepened the kiss, brushing along her bottom lip with my tongue.
She granted access, letting me dip my tongue deep into her mouth and making her open hers wider.
It was a familiar taste, and the more I tasted, the more I wanted of her.
Her hands grasped my coat tightly, pulling me closer to her and making sure I wouldn’t leave.
I kept holding on to her with my fingers digging into her jaw and cheeks while I pressed my body against hers, gripping her waist with my other hand.
A small moan escaped her as her lips moved against mine slowly but passionately, and I was surprised at how good of a kisser she was when I was the first guy who’d ever kissed her.
But then, kissing wasn’t hard when you had someone do it with you who adored you.
It came easily, and the longer my lips touched hers, the more I wanted.
We were in the middle of nowhere, miles away from camp.
Exactly where we’ve always wanted to be.
Just us, alone in the wild.
I moved my hand from her jaw down to her ass, gripping it tightly while pressing my body against hers.
My dick was jolting with every stroke of her tongue against mine, and her hands moved up into my hair, tugging gently.
Her body tensed as she felt my hardness press against her stomach.
No matter how fucking sick we were, or how wrong it was to kiss her, I needed more.
So much more than just a damn kiss.
I reached up to grip her wrist and pull her hand down to cup the bulge in my pants, pressing her hand against it with mine over hers.
“Fen,” she moaned, her voice unsure.
“Don’t,” I warned, making her massage my dick through my pants.
She moved her hand on her own after a while, and I placed mine back on her throat, gently choking her to show her that I was still in control.
I moved my tongue around hers before breaking the kiss and looking into her eyes.
“We can’t continue this when Papa’s around. He wouldn’t allow it, or accept it, and I don’t wanna start more shit than there already is between him and me. This is our secret, Vespyr.”
She nodded, her hand still massaging my dick carefully, trying not to hurt me.
“Open my pants,” I ordered, watching her closely as her eyes widened and then dropped to her hand.
Her being silent meant she was thinking about it, but I couldn’t wait any longer.
“Unbutton my damn pants and take my dick out, Vespyr. Papa’s gonna be waiting on us. We have to hurry.”
Her breathing was uneven.
“Don’t tell me you’re nervous, Ves. You want this. Isn’t this what you’ve been dreaming about?” I asked with a raised brow.
“Yes, it is,” she replied, a small smile appearing on her face. “But I didn’t think you’d want it too.”
I chuckled and cupped her face in my hands now. “I’m as twisted as you are, sweet girl. Might as well admit it, huh?”
She started to unbutton my pants and I pulled her in to kiss her again.
This time, she showed me just how much she wanted me by taking over and deepening the kiss until our tongues were buried in each other’s mouths.
The moment Vespyr’s glove-covered hands wrapped around my length, I broke the kiss again to look down, thinking this wasn’t enough for me.
“Take off that glove. I need to feel your skin on mine.”
She did, and when her cold fingers touched me, my hips bucked, making me shiver.