His calloused hands stroked my tears away. “It’s tough to put words to. I’ve never felt it before. But, you’re my girl. You’re sweetness and light, and you look at me with such richness that I feel fucking full. I felt that way the moment I laid eyes on you when you were sitting on that stoop in New York.”
“Those are some pretty good words.”
His hand reached out to stroke my hair back from my face. “We’re not as different as you may think. I know what it’s like to feel powerless – to want something more. It’s part of why I was so drawn to you. I understand that side of you – that ferocity to fight despite your outward fear. And, shit, you fit in with my crew better than most other women would. You don’t take any shit and yet your heart is so warm. They all adore you. You entered our world like you’d always been there – and I’m gonna make sure that’s where you stay,” he told me, his finger gliding down my cheek.
I was floored by this side of Axel. This tough, badass biker with words so eloquent they should be written and remembered.
“There’s no place else I’d rather be,” I assured him. We lay in silence for a few moments before I spoke again. “How’d you find me?”
He scrubbed a hand over his face and let out a low sound of frustration. I knew he didn’t want to talk about it, not yet, but I had to know what information there was to be had.
“I want to know,” I pressed.
Finally, he nodded. “Jeb’s been actin’ shady for a while now,” he began as I listened intently. “Ever since he got injured protecting Kat, he seemed to think he was immediately entitled to be patched in. When that wasn’t the case, he started to distance himself from the club. He seemed bitter. Put us on edge, especially your brother. He knew from all that shit with Allen Parker that prospects can get some sense of entitlement.” He snorted.
I didn’t know much about Allen Parker other than he’d had a vendetta against the Knights, which Kat had ended up being the center of.
“Fuckin’ assholes think they can put in a few months of hard work and be part of a club.” He shook his head. “Anyway, I didn’t know it until tonight but Sal had started tracking Jeb. When you disappeared…fuck!” He shook his head. “It took a while for us to realize what happened. Then we didn’t know how long you’d been gone.” I rolled closer to him, wanting the contact while he shared the rest. “I knew you wouldn’t just up and leave Maddox.” His deep voice rumbled under my cheek as I pressed close. “It was Mack who suggested Jeb. At first, we thought he was fucking crazy.” Axel made a scoffing sound low in his throat. “I mean, we knew he was off the rails a little but taking you would be signing his own death warrant. Then the pieces started coming together with the shit with the Black Riders. We figured Jeb was holdin’ a grudge for not getting patched in.”
“You were right,” I confirmed, burrowing closer still as his strong arm pulled me tightly against his warmth.
“Sal gunned it to his place to activate the tracking shit he’d put in Jeb’s cell. Bastard must’ve ditched it or left it somewhere. That’s why it took us so long. But we got close enough to figure it out. There isn’t much out that way,” he explained, referring to the motel.
I shuddered, thinking of what would have happened if they hadn’t have shown up.
“Hey, don’t think about it. I can’t,” he admitted, his voice thick with emotion.
I placed my hand on his abs, the muscles clenching underneath my touch and I kissed his chest, moving upward to his neck. His breathing immediately grew harsh and I was encouraged even more to continue. His face turned toward me and I touched his lips with mine.
Reaching over, his hand clasped the back of my neck as he pulled me in for a passionate kiss. He moved my body over his so I was straddling him. I sucked in a ragged breath, feeling his hardness against my skin.
“Baby, you’re all cut up,” he protested, his breathing ragged.
“I need this. Don’t stop,” I pleaded, adding a ragged, “Please.”
His hand reached up under the shirt I wore to trace the bare skin of my back before moving to the front and finding my breasts. He tweaked both nipples firmly, growling into my mouth with a sound of such pleasure that my core nearly liquefied.
He felt like steel where he was pressed to my center as he sat up, sweeping my shirt over my head and his lips replaced his fingers.
I sucked in a breath and moaned loudly, the noise escaping my lips still foreign in my ears.
“Christ, you are so fucking gorgeous.” His lips moved over my breast, taking a nipple and sucking voraciously.
He rolled us so he was on top, pressing between my legs as he took my mouth in a passionate onslaught. His hand stroked over my belly, sliding lower until he reached my panty line.
“So wet for me,” he breathed reverently as his fingers dipped underneath the fabric.
“Yes.”
He feasted on my body with his mouth, his teeth finding purchase in my pliant skin as he went. When he reached my core and feasted, I was moved quickly beyond sanity.
He brought me to the breaking point before rising above me and gliding inside.
The feeling of him inside me with nothing separating us was enough to make me momentarily lose my mind. “I’m not on anything,” I managed, despite the excitement that threatened to eclipse rational thought.
He paused, looking down at me. “I’ve never not used anything, baby. I’m clean. I’ll pull out but you feel so damn good,” he rasped.
I looked up at him, my fingers trailing the whiskers along his jaw. “There’s only ever been you.”
His eyes blazed with that knowledge. “I want you on top,” he growled, biting gently at my neck before shifting our bodies so that he lay beneath me.
Despite the desperation I felt to have him, I was out of sorts and unsure in this position. My inexperience and insecurity was front and center in a way I wasn’t ready for.
I shook my head. “No I…” I drifted off, trying to move away from him.
His hands griped my forearms like a vise as his eyes shone with intensity up into mine. “You look so fucking sexy like this, baby,” he growled, halting my escape.
“I don’t know what I’m doing,” I admitted with a whisper, though I was motivated to figure it out by his appreciative gaze.
He took my hips in his hands, guiding my movements. “Just do what feels good,” he coaxed with a rasp.
I shifted my hips forward my palms splayed across his chest.
“Fuck,” he bit out.
“You’re so deep like this,” I gasped as I leaned forward, finding the angle that worked best.
His hands lifted, his fingers tweaking my nipples as I took him. He let me experiment for a while until we were both at the breaking point. I felt him shift then, his heels firmly planted in the mattress as he took me from the bottom. He powered up, causing me to cry out.
He let out a groan, pulling me bodily beneath him in a fluid movement.
I shattered seconds later with him soon pulling out of me with a low groan as he let loose across my belly.
“That was fun,” I laughed into his neck as I fought to catch my breath.
“You have no idea how much fun we’re going to have,” he responded with a devilish grin.