“Jesus Christ,” Jamie said, and crossed himself.
“Exactly,” Roger said, nodding. “Anything in the Bible’s safe,” he said to Bree, “but we maybe don’t want to dwell on things that might suggest more modern things.”
I had glanced involuntarily at my hands when Roger had quoted the Bible verse, but looked up at this. Jamie looked blank.
Bree took a deep breath, looking once more at the children.
“It’s not that we want them to forget,” she said quietly. “There were—are, will be—people and things they loved from … our time. And we don’t know whether they might sometime … eventually … go back. But we have to be careful which memories from that time we keep among us, talk about. Remember.” I saw her long throat bob slightly as she swallowed. “It probably wouldn’t cause any trouble if Mandy told people about toilets, for instance—especially not if I build one,” she added, breaking into a brief smile. “But there are other things.”
“Aye,” said Jamie, softly. “I suppose there are.” He laid a hand on my thigh, and I covered it. He could see what I saw: the look on their faces, Roger and Brianna both. I’d seen it in the days near the end of World War II; he’d seen it in the months and years after Culloden. The look of exiles, necessity covering mourning, bravery turning away from memories that would never be left behind, no matter how deeply they were buried.
There was a long moment of silence. Jamie cleared his throat.
“I ken why ye came back,” he said. “But how?”
The sheer practicality of the question broke the brief spell of regret. Bree and Roger looked at each other, then at us.
“Is there more wine?” Roger asked.
“WE DIDN’T KNOW whether you can move through both time and space,” Bree explained, over a fresh glass. “We don’t know anyone who’s done that, and this didn’t seem like a good time to experiment.”
“I expect not,” I said, rather faintly. Most of the time, I managed not to remember what stepping into … that … was like, but the memory was there, all right. Like seeing something big and dark cruising just under the water, and you in a small, small boat on an endless sea.
“So, that decision was easy enough,” Roger said, with a grimace indicating that “easy” was a relative term. “We’d have to make the voyage from Scotland to America, regardless. It was partly a matter of whether the passage through the stones might be better from the stone circle near Inverness, or the one on Ocracoke.”
“People died on Ocracoke, coming through,” Bree said quietly, putting her hand on Roger’s. “Wendigo Donner told you so, didn’t he, Mama?”
“He did.” My own throat felt tight, as much from the memories Donner’s name conjured up as from other associations with the word “Ocracoke,” none of them good. Bree was very pale, and I thought she had her own memories of the place; she had been held prisoner there by Stephen Bonnet.
“And even those that didn’t die had—er—anomalies,” Roger said, and looked at me. “Otter-Tooth—Robert Springer. He meant for his entire group to go back to … when? The middle of the sixteenth century, earlier? A long way, anyway. He made it farther back than any of the rest, but still not as far as he meant to go. The point, though, is that the travel wasn’t the same for the members of the group.”
“We thought that might be because they went through one at a time, walking a pattern and chanting,” Bree put in. “We”—she gestured briefly at the sleeping children—“all came together, holding on to one another. That might have made a difference.”
“And we did come through Ocracoke together before,” Roger added. “If we did it once, we could maybe do it again.”
“So it came down to a question of ships, no?” Jamie had been sitting, intent, fingers tapping lightly against his thigh, but now straightened up. “Would there be a great difference, did ye think? Between a ship built in 1739 and one built in 1775 or so?”
“Yes,” Brianna said, with some emphasis. “Ships got bigger and faster—but weather is weather, and if you run into an iceberg or a hurricane”—she nodded at me—“it doesn’t matter that much whether you’re in a rowboat or the Titanic.”
“No, it doesn’t,” Jamie agreed, and I laughed. I’d told him—briefly—about the Titanic.
“From your point of view, a floating plank on the trout pond would be just as bad as the Queen Mary—that’s a really big ship.”
“Aye, well, I expect the food would be better on the latter,” he said, unperturbed by my teasing. “And as long as I had your wee stabbers in my face, I could choose on that basis. So, did ye ken the weather changed a great deal in forty years?” he asked, returning the conversation to Bree, who shook her head.
“Not the storms and wind-type weather—I mean, it might have, but we’d have no way of knowing that. What we did know, though, was the political weather.”
“The war,” Roger said, correctly interpreting my blank look. “The British were—I mean, they are—blockading and interrupting trade and seizing American ships right and left these days. What if we chose the wrong ship and ended up being sunk or captured, or me being pressed into the British navy, leaving Bree and the kids to decide whether to go through the stones by themselves, or stay in Jamaica or wherever and try to find me?”
“That’s sensible,” Jamie said. “So ye took ship in 1739, then. How was it?”
“Horrible,” Bree said promptly, just as Roger said, “Terrible!” They looked at each other and laughed, though with an undertone that belied their mirth; it was the slightly nervous laughter of survivors who weren’t yet entirely sure they’d made it.
They’d traveled on a brig called the Kermanagh, out of Inverness, to Edinburgh, where they’d found passage on the Constance, a small merchant ship, headed for Charles Town.
“No staterooms,” Roger said. “Just a wee nook in the hold, between the water barrels and stacks of chests full of cloth: linen, muslin, woolens, and silks. The smell was pretty strong—fuller’s earth and sizing and dyes and urine, ken?—but it could have been worse. The people at the other end of the hold were squashed between crates of salt fish and barrels of gin. With the fumes, they were mostly comatose, so far as we could tell in the dark.”
“They were lucky, if so,” Brianna said ruefully. “We hit four—not one, not two, not three, but four—storms along the way. Between being sure we were going to the bottom any minute and caroming off the cargo every other minute—except for Mandy, we were all bruised everywhere. I kept her in my lap pretty much the whole trip, with my cloak wrapped around us both, for warmth.”
Jamie looked slightly green, merely listening to this, and I had to admit to feeling a sympathetic lurch of the insides myself.
“What did you eat?” I asked, in hopes of stabilizing myself and the conversation.
“Cold parritch,” Roger said with a shrug. “Mostly. Some cold bacon, too. And neeps. Lots of neeps.”