Instead of focusing on how her pussy vice grips my cock, I pay attention to the hoarse cry echoing throughout the room that comes from her. Her back arches off the bed and feeds my need to pull out and drive back into her. Her fingernails dig into my forearms until I hiss from the crescent indents left behind.
Her mouth parts and face flushes as I hold her knees and thrust into her again and again until the headboard starts banging against the wall.
She’s so goddamn tight my dick can barely stand it, but she’s so wet and inviting that I can’t force myself to slow down.
Not until a noise comes from her that doesn’t quite sound right. It’s a garbled version of my name. I glance at the tears streaming down her pale cheeks and slow my thrusts with furrowed brows. She looks pained, not something I’m used to from women I’m fucking.
I look down to where my cock is planted halfway inside her to see the red smeared on it.
Heart stopping momentarily when I see the streaks, I halt my movement altogether and trail my eyes back up to the woman whose hair is spread out across the comforter. “Adelaide…”
I don’t recognize my raspy voice as I study the agony carved into her expression as her jaw quivers.
My nostrils flare. “Addy, please tell me you just got your fucking period.”
Her shaky hands loosen from where they gripped my arms, revealing the marks left from her nails that drew blood.
Appropriate considering the situation.
“Talk to me, dammit,” I growl, afraid to move, to pull out and cause her more pain.
She sniffles, brushing the backs of her hands against her cheeks. “Noah and I never… We did stuff, but not that.” Her voice is barely a notch above a whisper. “He doesn’t deserve this. I never wanted him to have it.”
This.
Jesus Christ.
“You were a virgin?”
All she does is nod.
Fuck me all to hell. “Why didn’t you fucking say anything, Adelaide? I wasn’t gentle at all.” The only thing I can think to do is slowly pull out until she winces, making me grind my teeth down. There’s blood all over my dick and on the inside of her thighs reminding me of what I just did.
Took my brother’s girlfriend’s virginity. How the hell did she keep silent about that knowing what I planned to do to her?
Her legs close as she sits up, pain radiating on her face as she grabs a pillow from the top of the bed and covers her body with it. “I didn’t know how to tell you, okay? All I could think about was how mad I was. How stupid I was for thinking that Noah…” More tears leak from her eyes making my dick deflate. “It’s obvious how much I like you. How much I always have. You were my first kiss, is this really that bad?”
My fingers go to my hair. There’s nothing I can say to make this better. Considering I wanted to get back at my little brother, this should feel like a victory. I just took something from him he can never claim. But the small ember of pride burning in my chest is overpowered by an ugly feeling of guilt.
I sit on the edge of the mattress, naked as can be, staring at her blood. “I hurt you,” I tell her, clenching my eyes closed.
The mattress dips. “It wasn’t that bad.”
I laugh dryly. “What a raving review.”
“Daire—”
My eyes turn to her, cold and accusing. “I don’t care if you were embarrassed about it. That was something you should have told me.”
Her lips part as if to argue with me, but she clearly sees reason and shuts them.
Smart.
I look away again as a pair of soft hands touches my shoulder and arm. “I’m sorry,” she tells me, getting onto her knees and kissing my shoulder blade. “I know you’ve done this before and I didn’t want to seem…” Her voice fades as she lets out a tiny breath. “I don’t want to stop. It hurt, but I know it’ll get better. You’ll make sure it will.”
How can she know that for sure? “Be honest with me, Adelaide,” I tell her. “Why do you want this? Is it to get back at Noah? To make sure he knows where you stand?”
Her fingers clench my bicep. “I…” Her tongue darts out to wet her lips. “It’s because I want you, Dairen. I want you to do all those things you said you would. I want it to be my choice on my terms. With the person I want.” Our eyes lock, mine with a newfound intensity and hers full of vulnerability. “I think the reason I never gave it to Noah is because I didn’t want him to have it. You know who my father is. You know how I…came to be. My mom and grandma always told me to be careful of who to trust because not everybody is going to be patient or kind. I knew Noah would never hurt me, but that didn’t mean I wanted him to the person I experienced these things with.”
There’s a pause between us, my heart breaking a little for her as her eyes dull. “I don’t want to be like my mom. I want to make my own decisions. Choose who I’m with. I choose you, Daire. I want this.”
How the fuck can I turn her away after that? I know how much her mother’s pain gets to her. I know, secretly, she worries her mother resents her existence and that’s why she’s not around all that much. All Addy wants is to be loved by somebody she chooses to be loved by.
And fuck me if that isn’t a role I’d be more than happy to play.
“You want this?” I ask, cupping her cheek and thumbing her lip.
“Yes.”
“You want my cock back inside you?”
I feel her choppy exhale against my finger. “Yes. I want that so bad.”
Then that’s what you’ll get.
“Lay back,” I coax, guiding her backward until my body looms over hers. Her breath catches as I push hair out of her face and use my palms to dry her damp cheeks. “I’ll go gentler, but it’s still going to—”
“Just make me feel good,” Addy whimpers, parting her legs for me to fit between.
I settle my body between her thighs and stroke myself, ignoring the evidence covering my erect cock as I watch her watch me with interest in her eyes.
Guiding myself back to her entrance, I hesitate only long enough to see her nod before pushing back in. She takes every inch of me with flushed cheeks and her bottom lip between her teeth. I pluck it away with my lips, stealing a kiss as I thrust all the way in. The startled noise coming from her is captured by the kiss as I taste her lips and flick my tongue to the roof of her mouth while rolling my hips in a circle to fill her deeper.
Her knees move to either side of my waist as I pull out, push back in, and circle my hips again until she starts adjusting to the size of me. “Do you like that?”
Shakily, she nods her head and steals a glance down to where I pull out halfway and thrust back inside her. I can tell that she’s enamored by the way my cock slides in, my movements becoming faster until the sound of my hips slapping against hers makes her moan and tighten her pussy around me again.
“You’re going to milk the cum right out of me,” I groan, lowering myself onto my forearms planted on either side of her head. I kiss her as I go faster, deeper, the mattress springs squeaking with my rushed movements and the headboard banging against the wall again. “Do you know how wet you are, Addy? You’re drowning my cock as you take me and I fucking love it. Imagine if you were on top riding me. You’d be such a good little girl bouncing on my dick. I’d be so deep.”