“Her, you fucking dipshit.”
They leaned against each other and laughed, and it felt like things might be okay between them.
“I don’t want to be mad at you, Hollander.”
“I know. But you can be.” Shane smiled. “Until tomorrow. Then we’ve gotta play hockey.”
J.J. smiled back. “Deal.”
Chapter Thirty-Six
April
“The king is back!” Bood yelled as soon as Ilya entered the Centaurs locker room.
Everyone in the room clapped and whooped in excitement. Ilya felt himself blushing a bit.
“Thank you,” he said, meaning it. Shane had told him a bit about his own team’s reception of him earlier that morning, and it had been a lot more wary and awkward than this, which made the warm welcome back even more touching.
It felt so fucking good to be on the ice again. Sometimes he thought he was getting tired of this game, but being kept away from it for a week had made him realize how much he still loved it. Needed it.
“All right,” Coach yelled after he’d given everyone time to warm up. “Gather ’round.”
Everyone grouped around him at center ice, most taking a knee. Ilya stood at the back with Wyatt and Bood.
“What’s happening next week, Dykstra?” Coach asked.
Evan smiled. “Playoffs, Coach!”
“That’s right. Who here has been to the Stanley Cup playoffs before?”
An alarmingly small number of the guys raised their hands, including Ilya and Wyatt.
“To be honest,” Wyatt said, “I was mostly watching the playoffs, in Toronto.”
Coach waved a hand. “It doesn’t matter that we don’t have the playoff experience that most teams have. Some people will say that experience is the most important thing, but I think it’s heart. I think it has more to do with working together than it does with following a few leaders. I believe in this group. These past few months we’ve shown everyone how well this team works together.”
There were stick taps and murmurs of agreement.
“Bood,” Coach said, “what was the attendance at our last home game?”
Bood grinned. “Full house, Coach.”
“Who was the player of the week last week?”
“Wyatt fucking Hayes,” said Dykstra.
“Because we’ve got the best goalie in the league,” Coach confirmed.
“Aw, thanks,” said Wyatt.
“We’re going to be playing Montreal in the first round, and that’s going to be tough, no question. They’re the defending champions, and the number one ranked team in the league at the moment.”
And, Ilya added in his head, everyone is going to be gossiping about the two captains, which is going to be a huge distraction.
“We’ve beaten them before, and we can do it again,” Coach said. “Roz, you’re back on the line with Bood and Barrett. Let’s get to work.”
The coaches worked them hard all practice, and the whole team was exhausted by the time they were allowed to return to the locker room.
As he was getting undressed, Ilya decided to clear the air. There’d be enough going on over the next few weeks without having an elephant in the room to deal with.
“I want to say something,” he announced.
The room was dead silent.
“You read the post, probably, about me and Shane.” He glanced around the room, and saw a few nods. “So. Yes. We are together.”
There was a long, weird silence, and the Bood broke it by saying, “Figures.”
Ilya raised his eyebrows at him and waited.
Bood smiled. “You stealing the fucking spotlight. Barrett comes out, announces his relationship with Harris, and then Roz says ‘hold my beer.’”
“Yeah, Ilya,” Troy said with a grin. “What the fuck?”
The room erupted with laughter, and Ilya’s heart swelled. He loved this team.
After more playful ribbing, everyone got back to the business of getting changed and showered. As Ilya was pulling on his sweatshirt, Wyatt approached him.
“Is that what the ring’s about, then?” He pointed at Ilya’s chest.
“You noticed?”
“I’m a goalie.” Wyatt pointed to his own eyes. “I notice everything.”
“You are perceptive,” Ilya said, trying out a word he’d recently learned.
“It’s my superpower. I didn’t want to ask, but now it seems kind of obvious that it’s from Hollander.”
“It is. We are engaged.” Ilya was still getting used to saying those words aloud. To believing them.
“Then Shane Hollander is a lucky man.”
Ilya was in danger of crying, so he wrapped Wyatt in a hug to hide his face. “Thank you,” he said.
“No problem.” Wyatt patted him on the back. “Just try not to make your wedding day the same as Harris and Troy’s, okay? I don’t want to have to do a lot of running around that day.”
Ilya laughed, and then sniffed. “Okay, Hazy.”
* * *
Shane couldn’t ever remember being so nervous at the start of the playoffs before. Not even as a rookie. He shuffled his skates anxiously as the national anthem was sung, trying not to stare directly at the back of Ilya’s jersey, fifty feet in front of him.
Holy shit. This was happening.
The Montreal crowd was deafening but couldn’t drown out the blood pounding in Shane’s ears. He needed to pull himself together because, yes, it felt weird standing on the ice with Ilya when everyone knew. And, yes, most of his teammates had been less than friendly since Shane had returned from his suspension, but the team had silently made a pact not to talk about it, which should have been a relief but actually made Shane feel awful.
Ilya’s team had accepted him back with open arms. They’d talked about his relationship with Shane—joked about it, even. Shane felt like he was playing an unending version of that board game, Operation, and the slightest mistake—anything less than perfection—would get him zapped. It was exhausting, and it was pressure he didn’t need on top of the usual playoffs expectations of the Montreal fans.
Finally, it was time for the puck to drop. Shane was clinging to the hope that he’d start to feel normal once the actual game started. Except, of course, the opening face-off was between him and Ilya.