“I’m home.” I think I hear him utter against my neck. He’s correct this feels right and like coming home after so long. I wrap my legs around his waist locking my feet on the small of his back as I bring my hands to his butt urging him closer to me, not that he can possibly get any closer.
“Move, please move, take me.” I beg.
His body pulls back before pushing back in, over and over sending signals of pleasure across every zone of my body. With my fingers digging into his behind encouraging him I feel those muscles tense and release while he thrusts. I whimper as he continues to claim me with his body, making me his again.
One of his hands is holding onto the nape of my neck bringing my lips to his where he takes a soul stealing kiss, the other on my ass lifting me a little higher in order to allow him to hit that secret spot inside of me.
The heat is radiating off us, making little droplets of sweat run down my back and the valley between my breasts as well as his face.
My eyes are shut to absorb all of the overwhelming sensations happening to my body.
“Look at me.” He demands. I open my eyes and lock my caramel ones with his stormy grey, seeing love and adoration in them.
He picks up speed, his movements becoming frantic and I meet him thrust for thrust as we race to reach paradise. After months of anticipation, waiting and nervousness of coming together again we reach that pinnacle of heavenly release, the wave hitting us at the same time, it has my entire body shuddering.
“Nick,” I whisper. The orgasm ripping through me from head to toes is so strong and intense I have no ability to let out anything more than a whisper of his name.
“Lana.” He grunts as he spills his seed collapsing on me, pushing me into the mattress.
We’re both breathing heavily coming back to earth, with Nick’s body still intimately joined with mine, I place my hand on his cheek, rubbing his scruffy growth looking deeply into his eyes. I can’t tear my gaze away from him, this beautiful man who for months didn’t give up on me or us.
“I love you.” I decide to tell him. It seems like the perfect time to let him know I’ve opened my heart back up to him.
“Say it again.”
“I love you.”
We both have tears in our eyes. This is the moment where we have truly come back together and become one again. I can’t describe the happiness and completeness I am experiencing.
“I love you, too, so much.”
We capture each other’s mouths letting out years of pain and loneliness and regret as our tongues caress each other. It’s time to let go of the past and look towards our future. My heart is full, I no longer feel like I’m missing a piece of me. My hands tightly hold onto his hair, my fingers caressing him with our legs entwined. There is not a single inch of space between us.
“This is the last time I’m going to ever say this but now that we are finally here again I’m so fucking sorry, Alannah.”
“I know, honey.”
“Honey?”
“Yeah, it’s new.”
“I like it.” After another kiss he goes into the bathroom to remove the condom. I sit up in the bed pulling the sheet with me admiring has naked back side as he moves.
“What are you thinking about?” He asks settling back in beside me pulling me to his chest.
“How this is going to work. We live separate lives across the country from each other. Tell me, are you expecting me to pack up and move back immediately now? Charlie starts school next year, where is that going to be? She can’t be flying back and forth constantly.”
“What if I move there with you for as long as it takes, not permanently but perhaps for a week out of every month, I can work remotely via teleconference and only fly back when absolutely necessary.” I start shaking my head at him. “This is more important, I want to be with the two of you. I don’t care where that is, unless you don’t want me there.”
“I can’t ask you to do that, and it’s not a matter of whether I want you around or not, Nick.”
“You’re not, it’s my decision. This is what I want.”
“What happens if you resent me for it because that’s a real possibility?”
“That’s not going to happen. I’m willing to do all I can to have this work, so are you, haven’t we proven that to each other already.”
“Yes.” I have to agree with him. He takes hold of me face within his hands pulling me closer.
“We’ll just keep doing what we’re doing. The truth is I hate the thought of being alone.”
“You’re not alone, you have Charlotte and I and your family.”
“But I am, you’re going to go home and I’ll be alone here.”
“Don’t guilt trip me, Nicholas that’s not fair. Now you sound like your daughter.” I play with the edge of the sheet as I consider what I’m going to say next. “I was thinking that, say if in six months’ time at the most I think…if I feel it’s right, I’ll move back with Charlie. I never stopped loving you, Nick, not deep down. All I ever dreamed about is what it would be like if we were a family. Can you give me a few more months?”
“A few more months. I can do that and we already are a family.”
“Yes, we’re a family.” I agree with a smile.
Chapter 28
Nicholas
Waking up with Alannah in my arms feels as if I’m in a dream, a recurring dream I have had for many years now but this time it’s real. She’s really here in my bed, deliciously warm and naked. Her scent is surrounding me, the heaviness of her arm over my chest a comfort. A comfort I didn’t realise I had been missing so much, or more like I wouldn’t allow myself to miss.
We made love several times last night making up for lost time. I couldn’t get enough of seeing her sexy body bouncing on top of mine or spread out beneath me, needing to feel and touch her everywhere, to memorise our reunion. Looking at her sleeping form her lips are still swollen from my kisses. I ghost my finger along her lower lip careful to not wake her.
My mind drifts back to our night and dinner. It all went smoothly thank goodness, I was nervous taking her on this date, so much was riding on it going well however I had nothing to worry about and I’m happy we got the chance to talk about things. It hurt to hear some of it but it needed to be said and we are finally on the same page, where I have wanted us to be for so long, gaining her trust and love back. I’m on cloud fucking nine.
Afterwards I loved that she took charge when we got back to the apartment, if it was left up to me I would still be suffering blue balls and jacking off in the shower. I was afraid to make the next move as much as I wanted to, the fear of us taking one step forward two steps back forefront in my brain but once again she surprised me.
She loves me. I feel lighter than I have in a long time. I’m so happy this morning I feel I could take on anything but have no desire to even leave this bed and the woman next to me. Taking this next step was a big deal to Alannah. I know that, as it was to me. From now on we only look forward together. I will never make the same mistakes again. She is my soul mate, a wonderful mother and truly amazing woman.