"I'm not giving up on you, Raine."
"I wish I could do this, Miles, but I can't."
"Tell me why."
She sighs. "Because of what happened before. I'm not ready to do this again."
"What happened?"
"I can't tell you."
"Why?"
"I'm not ready to."
"Is whatever happened what landed you on the streets?"
She nods. "Yeah. But I don't want to talk about it."
What the hell happened and why won't she tell me? Is she embarrassed? Ashamed? Afraid?
"Just drop it, okay?" She pulls away but I keep hold of her. "Miles, let me go."
"I need to do something first." I tug her closer and wrap my arms around her waist.
"What?" she asks, looking up at me.
I lower my face to hers and wait. Her breath quickens and her hands grip the sides of my shorts. Her eyes fall shut and her lips part. I lower my mouth to hers and kiss her, softly at first to make sure she's not going to pull away. She leans in closer, pressing her body into mine. I kiss her again, deeper this time. She reaches behind my neck and pulls me down to her, her chest rising and falling as she breathes. I'm breathing hard too, my heart pounding against my chest, my body wanting more of her. God, I want her so bad.
My hands lower to the back of her thighs and slowly move under her shirt to her naked ass. I cup it with my hands and pull her against me.
"Miles," she moans, breaking from my lips, her head tipping back.
I leave kisses along her neck, then return to her mouth, loving the soft moans coming from her throat. She's got me so turned on, my cock's throbbing even more than when we were in bed. My hand slips between her legs and I run my fingers over her slick opening. She's so freaking wet. I sink a finger inside her and she gasps, then smiles.
"More," she whispers, gripping my shorts like she's never going to let go. I plunge another finger into her and she breaks from the kiss. "Oh God, yes!"
"Let's go upstairs," I tell her.
"I can't," she says, but her actions say differently as her hips grind into me, rubbing against my cock. Her eyes shoot open, meeting up with mine. "I want you, Miles. I do. I just...I can't do this again. I'm not ready."
"You sure?" I ask, my hand still pleasuring her.
She closes her eyes and smiles. "Maybe just once." She backs away from me, then runs off. "Hurry up!"
I race after her, bounding up the stairs to my room. I scoop her up in my arms and kiss her before setting her on the bed. She's smiling and laughing and looks so damn beautiful. I think I might love this girl.
"What are you waiting for?" she asks, leaning back on her elbows, looking both cute and hot wearing nothing but my t-shirt and that beautiful smile of hers.
Leaning down, I tug at her t-shirt. "I need this back."
She huffs. "You said I could wear it."
"Changed my mind." I wait for her to sit up, then slip it off her and toss it aside. The room is mostly dark but the street lights coming through the windows offer me enough light to see her gorgeous body. Her soft curves. The gentle smile that remains on her face.
I drop my shorts and reach over to my nightstand to grab a condom. I quickly roll it on, then lie next to her, sliding my hand over the smooth skin just under her breast. I extend my fingers up to her nipple, lightly brushing over it. She sucks in a breath.
"More," she whispers.
As I continue to touch her, her eyes lift to mine. I look back at her and instantly feel the connection between us. I know she feels it too. She just refuses to admit it.
"Last chance," I say, making sure she wants this, but she's already told me she does so I don't know why I'm asking.
"Just one time," she whispers.
"What if it's so good we want to do it again?"
"If that happens, we'll figure it out."
"You mean when it happens," I say, kissing her neck as my hand slides between her legs. I need to finish what I started downstairs. Show her what I can do so she'll have no choice but to do this again.
"Holy shit," she calls out, gripping the sheets as she comes. I've only been at it a few minutes. Her body responded to my touch faster than I anticipated.
I move up, positioning myself over her. As I lean down to kiss her, her hips lift, searching for me.
Shifting slightly to align myself, I slide inside her, taking my time, until I'm all the way in. Her knees fall to the side and she wraps her legs around me, letting me go even deeper. I slowly pull out, then thrust back in. I continue to take it slow, following the movement of her hips, letting her set the pace. She goes faster than I'd like. My cock's begging me to finish but I don't want this to end. I just want to stay here, in this moment, for as long as I can.
When I know she's close, I take over, thrusting into her, hard and fast, until I feel her release and hear her making the breathy moans she made when she came before. It's freaking hot and makes my own release follow soon after. It's so strong I yank the sheet loose as I grab it.
I collapse back on the bed, my heart pounding. I lay my arm out, hoping Raine will take the hint I want her to cuddle up next to me and not run off. She takes the hint and slides up beside me, her hand resting on my chest, her head on my shoulder.
"So?" I say, wrapping my arm around her. "You sticking with the one time rule?"
She smiles. "I could maybe do two."
"Thought so." I rub my hand up and down her arm, loving the feel of her skin.
Her stomach growls.
"Shit, I forgot about dinner," I say. "Where do you want to go?"
"Miles, just because we did this doesn't mean we're dating."
"So you just used me for sex?" I ask, pretending to be hurt.
She laughs. "Yes. I used you for sex. Sorry about that."
"You could make it up to me by going with me to dinner. I'm starving. How about that Italian place down by my office?"
"The nice one? That's where you'd take a date."
"Anyone can go there. It doesn't have to be a date." I pause, gazing down at her and noticing how at peace she looks in my arms, and happy. "Why don't you want that, Raine? Why can't we date? You like me, right?"
She sighs. "I more than like you. I just can't do this. Not yet. I need to figure myself out first. Get my life in order."
I take her hand and look in her eyes. “What did he do to you?"
She looks away. "I don't want to talk about it."
"Why? Why won't you tell me?"
"Because I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed for not knowing. For not being smarter. For not seeing what I should've seen."
"What didn't you see? What happened?"
She chews on her lip, not answering.
"Raine, just tell me."
"I fell for the wrong person." She pauses. "I trusted him. I let him take me in. Take care of me. I believed what he told me. And I ended up on the streets." Her eyes return to mine. "I can't do that again. I can't fall for some guy and trust that it'll turn out okay."
"Raine, I would never hurt you. I'd never do anything that would put you in the situation you're in now. I'm trying to help you. The whole time I've known you I've been trying to help you."