“It’s nice to meet you too, Dr. Kota.”
“So, I see here you need a prescription for birth control pills.”
“Yes.”
“I did obtain your medical records from your doctor back in Seattle. It’s time for another yearly check. So, let’s get a urine sample first and then I’ll come back in, and we can get started.”
The nurse handed me a cup and directed me to the bathroom. When I was finished, I went back into the room and waited for Dr. Kota. About fifteen minutes later, he stepped in, rolled the stool over to me, and sat down.
“I’m afraid I can’t give you a refill on those pills,” he said.
“Why not?” I asked in confusion.
“Because you’re pregnant, Alex.”
“What?” I could feel the color drain from my face as a warmth shot through me. “How?”
His brow arched as he stared at me.
“Did you skip a pill here and there?”
My mind went back to the night Stefan rear-ended me. With everything that went on, I’d forgotten to take my pill and when I went to double up the next day, one of them fell down the drain. But I didn’t plan on having sex anytime soon and completely forgot about it the first time Stefan and I had sex.
“I missed one because it fell down the drain.”
“I’m afraid one is all it takes. I’m going to order some bloodwork. I suspect you’re probably about four to five weeks along. It’s too early for an ultrasound, so I want you to come back and see me in two weeks. In the meantime, I’m going to write you a prescription for prenatal vitamins. That’s if you’re planning on keeping the baby.”
“Yes. Of course.”
“Good.” He smiled as he patted my knee. “I’ll send the nurse in to draw some blood and I’ll be in touch when the results come back.”
After getting dressed, I scheduled a two-week appointment and walked out of his office dazed and confused. I’d been on my own since I was eighteen years old, and nothing ever scared me too much. But this, this scared the living shit out of me. How was I going to tell Stefan that I was pregnant with his baby? The man didn’t want any more children, let alone a relationship. I started to shake, and when I reached the lobby, I took a seat in one of the oversized chairs.
I sat there for over an hour and made up a hundred different scenarios in my head about how he was going to react. The one thing that concerned me the most was Lily. Stefan protected her from everything the best way he could. How would she react when she found out her father got her nanny pregnant?
“Oh my God,” I placed my face in my hands.
I had no choice. I’d talk to Stefan tonight since Lily was staying the night at her friend’s house.
Chapter 30
Stefan
It had been a shit day. Everything that could go wrong did, and I wasn’t in the mood to deal with anything else. When I pulled into the driveway, I noticed Alex’s car wasn’t there. Then I remembered she said she had a lot of errands to run since she didn’t have to pick Lily up from school.
Stepping into the house, I walked over to the bar and poured myself a scotch. When I took it into my office, I noticed a pair of Alex’s panties were lying on the floor from when we had sex in there last night. Picking them up off the floor, I took them to her bedroom and set them on her bed. That’s when I noticed a book sitting there. It had a pink cover with a white daisy etched into it. I picked it up to see what she was reading, and when I opened it to the first page, I saw a handwritten list with the title at the top that said, “My Perfect Guy.”
“What the hell?” I said as I took a seat on the edge of the bed and studied it.
Makes me laugh – check
Protective – check
Handsome – check
Dresses with style - check
Tells me I’m beautiful – check
Compliments me on other things besides looks - check
Excellent kisser – triple check
Kind – check
Sweet – check
Respectful – check
Emotionally available -
Good with kids – triple check
Apologizes after a fight – check
Text me good morning/good night – N/A since I live in his home.
Comes from a good family – check
Close with his parents and siblings – check
Likes to cuddle – check
Will notice when I’m upset – check
Takes cute pics with me – check
Good listener – check
Plays with my hair – check
Amazing in bed – quadruple check
Makes me think about him non-stop – check
Will dance with me – check
Loves me for who I am -
I honestly didn’t know what to make of it and this was the last thing I needed today.
“Stefan?”
I looked up and saw Alex staring at me from the doorway with the journal in my hand.
“What are you doing in here?”
“You left a pair of your underwear on the floor in my office. I brought them in here and saw this lying on your bed.”
“And you just took it upon yourself to read it?” She walked in and took it from my hands.
“I think we should talk, Alex.”
“Yeah. I think we should too.” She turned and walked out of the bedroom.
I got up from the bed and followed her into the kitchen where she opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of water.
“You had no right to read that.”
“I know and I’m sorry. I thought it was a book. Listen, we need to discuss what’s really going on here.”
“What is really going on, Stefan?”
“I thought we were having fun, Alex. I’m sorry if you thought it could or would turn into something more, but it won’t. I can’t be your perfect man, your prince charming, or your knight in shining armor. And that list—”
“Stop!” She put her hand up. “Answer one question. Do you feel the same way about me that I feel about you?”
He ran his hand through his hair and looked away from me for a moment.
“I like you. You’re an amazing woman, a good friend, and a—”
“Sex partner?”
“Well, yes. I just thought we were friends with benefits. I never once led you on and suggested we could be something more, and if I did, I’m sorry. You’ve dreamt your whole life about finding your prince charming. You’re going to want to start a family one day, and you deserve that, Alex. But I’m not that person. I don’t want any more kids or a long-term relationship. I have Lily and she’s all I need.”
“And as long as you’re sexually satisfied, that’s good enough for you, right? You can just hop from woman to woman without even giving a thought of the emotional damage you leave behind.”
“I have never once slept with another woman since you. Never.”
“Why would you? You can have it anytime you want it. You’ve got your own little prostitute right under your roof. You pay me, and I have sex with you.”
“That’s enough!” I spoke in a stern voice. “I would never consider you like that and how dare you insinuate it. I can’t help who I am and how I am.”