The gentleness and teasing was gone, replaced by beautiful brutality that revealed his hunger and need for me. And I was right there with him, opening my mouth eagerly for our tongues to mesh and play in a dance that drew ripples of pleasure all the way from my core. I was disintegrating from the inside out, melting into a mindless puddle of bliss. I strained against the hand holding me down. Strained against Sax's powerful body pinning me to the bed. I arched wantonly into the hard, throbbing ridge of his cock, begging for something that I couldn't put into words.
Take me! I wanted to cry out. Fuck me! I needed him so badly, needed to feel him inside me again. My body needed a release that it hadn't felt in over a year, and it occurred to me that this was the first time he'd touched me since the attack. I was so ready for him. My pussy was pulsating and wet. As Sax ground his mouth against mine in a kiss that gave pain as well as pleasure, I knew that this was as much a form of a punishment as it was satisfaction.
I bit down on his bottom lip as he pulled away, panting. We were both breathing hard. Our eyes clashed, glittering with emotion in the darkness, our hearts pounding as one. His jaw was taut, nostrils flaring, as I was sure mine were. Would he fuck me now? God, I wanted him to! He knew about Ava now, and the sky hadn't fallen. Maybe, just maybe, we could get through this somehow. Could begin anew.
Even as the unlikely thought flashed through my mind, I remained cautiously optimistic.
"You want me to fuck you now?" he grunted in a cold, hard voice. His softness from before had completely disappeared.
I blinked, startled at his gruff question. This didn't sound like the man I knew and loved. I was seeing a side of Sax that I wasn't familiar with, a rougher version. Had I done this to him? I wanted him, wanted his hands and mouth on me so badly that I knew I was going to make the wrong decision. Knew it because my heart was involved, and part of me was taking responsibility for the way he had changed, acting as if he didn't care one way or another what my answer was. He was hard as steel against my pussy, but I sensed that if he’d wanted to, he could walk away without any problem.
As tears leaked out of the corners of my eyes, I uttered the two words that I knew would devastate me completely. "Fuck me," I whispered. My need for him far outweighed my common sense or survival instinct.
Sax released a low animalistic sound that vibrated through my body. Before I could brace myself, he flipped me over and pulled me to my knees. I gasped at his roughness, and again when his hands ripped my boy shorts from me. He took a minute to put his hands on my ass, clenching his fingers into the fleshy mounds, and then spread my cheeks. My eyes grew big when I felt him move in, and then his mouth was on me, biting and licking me before spearing his tongue inside my anus.
I jerked forward with surprise, but Sax's hands held me tight against him while he thrust a finger inside me and fucked me with it. I whimpered a little at the pain of being stretched. We'd experimented with anal play before, but it wasn't my favorite, although I couldn't deny the unexpected thrill that shot through my body in response to his roughness and take-control-attitude. In the past he had always asked before doing anything with my ass, but now it appeared that he wasn't giving me a choice.
He was taking.
A second finger entered me causing me, to gasp sharply. Was he being rough on purpose? When he began to scissor his fingers I realized what his intentions were. I stiffened. "Sax…" There was no way he could miss the apprehension in my tone.
He leaned over my body, placing his mouth against my ear. "Shut up. I don't have a condom, and I plan on coming inside your body." His tone was so cold, as if he resented what he was doing.
"Damn you!" I whispered.
"We're both damned, Baby."
I felt his hand between us as he undid his pants and pulled his cock out. I felt the scorching heat of it at my entrance, and then the wide head of it as Sax ran it up and down the crack of my ass. I moaned loudly when I felt him tease my clit before running his shaft up and down my slit, gathering up the wetness there. I quivered beneath his administrations, panting hard. His harsh breath was against the nape of my neck. I could feel his muscles trembling as if he were fighting against something.
"Fuck it!" he swore, thrusting forward and sinking his cock inside me as if he couldn't help himself. Sounds of our mutual pleasure echoed throughout the room, the pleasure so intense I had a mini-orgasm around his hot flesh.
"Sax! Oh, God!" I whisper-yelled as he thrust hard and fast a half a dozen times.
His only response was his groans as he pumped in and out, his hands gripping my hips hard enough to leave bruises. Another orgasm bloomed inside me, growing fast and with intensity. Sax's cock hit me everywhere, my body swelled around him like a sponge. I instinctively clenched my muscles, satisfied by his grunt, and then he pulled out. I barely had time to take a breath before he penetrated my anus.
I cried out as the pain of his entry caught me unprepared. Sax didn’t go slow, didn't wait for my body to stretch for him, he didn't seem to care that he was causing me discomfort. Thankfully it didn't last long. He replaced his cock in my pussy with his talented fingers. He worked my clit just the way he knew I liked it until I was a quivering, gasping mess again. My G-spot wasn't ignored either, and between that and the pleasure I was now feeling as he fucked my ass, I detonated with a scream.
I wasn't alone. Sax found his own release at the same time, groaning and grunting as he filled me with cum.
"So fucking tight."
It was the only thing he said when he withdrew from me. I collapsed onto the bed, closing my eyes as I gave in to the pleasant fog that enveloped me. My pussy was soaked. I could feel it between my legs, and still buzzing slightly. I was wet between my ass, too, and knew Sax's cum was leaking out of me. I was too tired to move, and too afraid of what was going to happen now between us. I didn’t fool myself into thinking that sex with him had solved anything.
I waited for the bomb to drop.
"Don't worry, I know this didn't mean anything," Sax began in a gruff voice. "You scratched an itch, that was all."
"You're a liar," I responded calmly, hiding the hurt his words had caused me. "You could have satisfied your itch with Mitzi if that's all this was."
"I said your itch," he snorted. "And what makes you think I didn't fuck her before I came here?"
I stiffened at his cutting words, the vision of them at the bar flashing in my mind.
"You fucking walked away from us. Left me a fucking note when you ran the fuck away to have your kid."
"Her name is Ava," I growled.
"Doesn't matter. What matters is I came back with the intention of moving on without you. You gave me that right, and that's what I intend to do." He laughed and jumped off the bed. "Not going to turn down easy pussy."
What was he saying? That I was easy? As he stood glaring down at me I reached for the covers and brought them up to cover my nakedness.
"You've changed," I murmured with disappointment in my voice.
"Yeah, having the woman you love betray you will do that to a man. And you should know better, Holly. You were my old lady for a long time, long enough to know what we do to fucking traitors. But don't worry, Baby, I'm not going to kill you. Just stay out of my fucking way or suffer the consequences."