“Here.”
“Tra—”
“No, Charlotte. Please. Take a shower and we can talk in the morning. I’ll sleep on the couch.”
I’m using Travis’ razor and turn to set it on the shelf when the curtain flies open. I’m so worn out, both emotionally and physically, I don’t even have it in me to startle. He steps in, pulls the curtain closed, and looks at me. I feel naked, and not just my skin. He sees right through me. His eyes don’t leave mine until his face is so close; I have no choice but to lower my lashes.
His lips caress mine and the water runs down his back, blocking it from warming me. He pushes one hand into the back of my hair and gently tilts my head, granting him better access. My mouth opens, inviting him in. His other hand trails around my waist and pulls me flush with him. He releases me to turn and leans on the tile. Even though the warm water now flows down my body, I shiver from his touch.
“I was scared, Charlotte.”
I take the two steps to reach him. Grabbing his head, I pull him down so we’re eye level. “Never again, okay? I won’t scare you ever again like that,” I plead. I don’t want him to give up on me.
“You can’t run and hide anymore. You have to trust that I love you enough to stay. But know that if you do run, I’ll find you. I’ll always find you.”
I gasp and set a hand on my pounding heart. “You love me?”
Unblinking and with a delicious smirk he says, “I’ve loved you from the minute I saw you lying on my couch in your bright pink underwear.”
Aside from Meara’s occasional ‘Love you, bitch!’ I can’t remember the last time I heard someone say they love me.
Emotions take over as I grab his face and press my lips to his. I demand every ounce of passion he has to give, and suck in a breath when I feel him poking me in the stomach. In this moment, I need to show him how much he means to me. How much I love him. I have to replace my horrible experiences with new ones.
I drop to my knees and run my nails along each indentation of his six-pack. I don’t waste any time and suck him into my mouth without using my hands. His head smacks against the tile, and he fists my hair to pull me back.
“Char, stop. You don’t have to do this.”
Shaking my head, I grip him at the base and begin pumping in time with my mouth. He groans and grips my hair tighter.
“Seriously, Char.” He succeeds in pulling me off him, and with a loud pop he falls out of my mouth. I look up at him through wet lashes. His chest is heaving, and his eyes are hooded. “I didn't tell you that for any other reason than to just tell you.”
“I know,” I caress his heavy sack and slowly stroke his hard dick with my other hand, “but I’m doing this because I need you, Travis. I need to replace the bad memories. I need you to make me forget.”
Sympathy immediately replaces the heat in his eyes, but I don’t give him a chance to feel anything other than pleasure as I grip him tighter and tease the head of his hard cock with my tongue. Pre-cum spills out and I greedily lap it up, and then suck him as deep as I can.
“Fuck. I knew your smart little mouth would feel incredible wrapped around my dick.” His words cause a rush of moisture to leak out between my legs, and I squirm on my knees. “You like that? You like when I tell you how good your mouth feels? Is it making you wet?”
I nod my head and moan around him, continuing to suck and lick the length of him as he begins rocking his hips. I feel his balls tighten at the same time his hands in my hair do. “I wanna come on your tits.” His words are short and clipped. I know he’s close. I suck as hard as I can one final time, and then jack him off until I feel the warmth of his release on my chest. He squats in front of me and runs a finger through his cum around my nipple.
“That was fucking unbelievable.” He leans toward me, and when his lips almost touch mine, I turn my head. Todd always said it was disgusting to kiss me after I had his dick in my mouth. Out of sheer habit, I give Travis my cheek. He grips my jaw between his thumb and index finger, and then gently guides me to face him. “What’s that about?”
“I just gave you a blowjob.”
“Yeah, the best fucking blowjob ever, and I want to kiss you. Is that a problem?”
“Well, no. I thought since I had your…”—I point at his penis,—“in my mouth, you wouldn’t want to kiss me.”
“You thought wrong.”
I feel his tongue along the seam of my lips, and I greedily accept. He shifts positions and is now sitting on his heels. In this position, his mouth is level with my breasts, and he takes advantage of that by sucking on them.
His fingers trail down my back and run along the crease of my ass until they stop at my dripping wet entrance. I drop down when I feel his finger, penetrating me. My head falls onto his shoulder and my hands grip his biceps.
“Fuck, you’re wet. All this from sucking my dick?”
He slowly pushes the rest of his finger in, and I shake when he crooks it inside me. He repeats the gesture until I feel like I’m about to combust. This feeling is so foreign to me. Yeah, Todd could make me feel good, but there was no emotion involved. It was never this intense, this all-consuming. I’m connected to Travis, and the thought alone has tremors starting. The water is starting to cool, and my hips begin rocking frantically on his finger, but it’s not enough.
“More,” I whisper.
He complies and slams two fingers in as his thumb rubs circles on my clit. “Come on baby, ride my fingers, make yourself come.” His voice is low and seductive, and makes me explode.
My thighs shake, my toes curl, and I see stars. I slow my hips, and he pulls his fingers out then ever so slowly pushes one finger back in and out until the tremors stop.
“You okay?” His soft voice pulls me back to reality, and I look around. Both of us on our knees in the shower, neither one actually showered, and a smile forms on my lips.
“Yeah, I’m good.” And for the first time in a long time, I am… I’m good.
* * *
A continuous light tap wakes me from a very restful sleep, and Travis groans.
“Seriously?” he asks exasperated. Gently, he pulls his arm out from under my neck and gives me a kiss on the cheek. “I’ll be right back.”
Sitting up, I stretch, rested after the best night’s sleep I’ve had in years, and smile. His arms around me all night made me feel content and finally peaceful. I’m determined to put the past behind me. And after last night, I know I’m able to move on. I only have to figure out a way to never see his mom again— ever.
A scuffling sound draws my attention, and I hear the rumble of Travis’ voice but can’t make out any words. I quietly slip out of his bed and tiptoe down the hall. Travis is standing in his doorway, blocking whoever is on the other side. That’s when I see a hand reach up and smack his head. When he goes to rub it, she pushes her way in and almost walks past me. Dr. Reynolds literally skids to a stop and turns to look at me in the hallway. So much for my plan.
“Mom, I said no.” He slams the front door and comes to stand beside me. “When she’s ready, I’ll call you.”
“No, it’s fine, Travis. Really. I need to do this. Go shower and I’ll make breakfast,” I say.