“I prayed about you, you know.”
“Prayed for me?” I ask.
“Yep. The thing is, my whole life, it’s like I never connected with anyone. I just wasn’t able to. Friends, girlfriends, my dad. At night I’d pray I’d meet a best friend, someone I could spend all my time with, someone who would understand me, someone who would see me. I just didn’t know I was praying for a boyfriend instead of a friend. I was praying for you.”
I am silent for a long time.
“Hello?” he asks, and my answer is quiet.
“I didn’t pray for you,” I whisper, “because I never could’ve even imagined you. You were a gift I never even could’ve seen coming, and I’m so grateful, Chandler.”
“I am, too. That’s why I want to do this.”
“Do what?” I ask.
“I want you to fuck me tonight, and I want you to fuck me hard. …Hello? Are you there?”
“Sorry, pause,” I gulp as my face heats up. “That was the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard, and I just wanted to file it away. Okay, you can start again.”
“I want you to fuck me. I want my boyfriend to fuck me. Are you paying attention now?”
“Rapturously.”
“Okay. I’m sorry it took me so long. The thing was, I was scared of things changing between us. But today I realized that I love you, and you love me, and that’s all that matters, and nothing could ever change that – especially not something as dumb as sex. But River?”
“Yes?” I ask.
“Like I said. Fuck me hard.”
“Trust me,” I begin. “I would like nothing more. But…”
“But what?”
“I just don’t think you get it. It might not be that easy…your first time is always a little…difficult.”
“Teach me, then,” Chandler says.
I look down and see that my cock is already seeping through my pants.
“You’re at the gym, now?”
“Yep, about to get into the shower…”
“I figured. See you soon,” he says – and then the door opens.
And Chandler is standing there.
8
Chandler Mendes
I close the door behind me.
“Chandler – what are you doing? You wanna do this here?”
I take off my clothes and slide into the stall with him.
“Come on, you know this place is totally dead all the time.”
“I know, but it’s just – you want to lose your V-card in a locker room?”
“Oh, that can wait until later – but yeah, I do want you to play with my hole, baby.”
“What changed?”
Chandler gives me a dead-sexy look and then pushes in the toy a little.
“You know,” he murmurs, “you were really holding back on me.”
“How?”
“You never told me how fucking good this feels,” he says as he pushes it upward a bit.
“Get over here and fuck me with it, River.”
I stop in front of him.
“Wait, before we start…”
“Yes.”
“I’m sorry if it seemed like I pushed this thing on you.”
“What?”
“I was thinking, and – if you really don’t want this, it’s fine. Positions shouldn’t matter this much. I turned this into some huge thing, when it didn’t need to be, and I’m sorry.”
Chandler looks down at himself. “Do you not see that I have a prostate wand in my asshole right now?”
“Good point…”
“I mean, were you a little persistent? Yes. But I needed it. I had no idea how small-minded I still was, River. But I’m going to change it. Starting now. Can you fuck me with the toy now?”
I take the toy in my hand…then pause. “Oh, one more thing. Before you get fucked by this thing, well…you have to do…a thing.”
“Oh, I did,” he smirks.
“You douched?” I ask him, shocked.
“Did you think I was going to go into this thing unprepared? I did my homework, babe.”
“You did the whole thing? You can get fucked, too?”
“Yes, sir. We’re about to have a good Valentine’s, honey.”
9
River Browning
I push it into him, and he reacts in a way I’ve never seen him react to anything – he throws his head back, goes stiff, and whines. I have never heard him whine in my life, and it makes my whole body shiver.
“How does it feel?” I ask him.
“Fucking good,” he says, red-faced. “It makes me feel…invaded, somehow, but in a good way.”
“Wait until I start moving it in a circle.”
He reaches down and squeezes the head of his dick. “Baby, I’m gonna cum.”
“Do you wanna hold it?”
“Yeah. I was thinking – can you give me that lesson?”
I’m going to be weak. I’m going to be submissive. And I’m going to love it.
“River. I want your cock in my mouth.”
“Wait. You’re gonna suck dick, too?”
I nod.
“Fuck, you don’t gotta ask me twice…”
“I’ve gotta eat you out. The first time can be painful if you aren’t good and opened up.”
“Open me up, baby.”
“How does my hole look from this angle?” he asks me, smiling.
“It’s literally the most perfect one I’ve ever seen. Tight, pink, small. Fuck…”
“So you like it?”
“I think…you are going to have a very hard time keeping me away from this things now.”
“Fuck…”
His tongue on my hole is an ecstasy I’ve never even imagined. Sometimes I wondered if the girls in pornos were exaggerating with their moans and yells whenever they’d get eaten out, but now…
Well, let’s just say the sounds coming from me aren’t that different.
I slip the tip of his cock into my hole and moan as my body flexes. He watches with enrapt eyes as my abs tighten and my toes curl.
“Ahh, it feels so good.”
“I know, baby.”
I reach up and
10
Chandler Mendes
I think about what this means. A year ago I had never kissed a guy. A day ago I had never had a foreign object inside my hole. And tonight I am about to get fucked.
I explore his shaft. He’s smaller than me, but at the same time his shaft is perfectly smooth, and his balls are big and fat.
“Damn, this is a nice cock. Why do I focus on your hole so much? Well, scratch that, I do because it’s fucking tight and pink and perfect. But why have I been neglecting this?”
“Because you were a top, duh.”
“Oh…fuck…”
“You’re sure this whole thing will fit inside me?”