She couldn’t imagine doing this with anyone else, but she trusted Josh implicitly. Being laid bare in this way with her eyes covered only ramped up her arousal. Although she was at his mercy, she felt empowered because she’d spoken up. She’d said what she wanted. As much as she’d loved seeing everything that was going on, there was something so erotic about not being able to see.
His fingertips grazed her inner thighs and he let out a gruff moan. She might not be able to see him, but she could sense the intensity of his arousal radiating off of him. She loved that she affected him.
Her body quivered as his touch reached the apex of her legs, but then his fingers detoured up and over her hip bone. She felt him shift so that he was above her and she reached up and touched his shoulders. She loved the sensation of his body on top of her. The weight, the solidness, the pressure all worked together to make her feel like in that moment, she was his.
He shifted and she felt his arm move between their bodies. The next thing she knew she felt his mushroom tip pressing against her opening. She arched her back, wanting him to be inside of her. As much as she loved how he felt above her, the best feeling in the world was him inside of her.
Instead of entering her like she wanted, he teased her entrance with the head of his dick, running it up and down. She could feel her walls contracting with each pass, trying to pull him into her body.
“Are you ready for me?” he asked against her ear.
She nodded as she breathed, “Yes.”
When he’d told her that he wasn’t even sure he’d be able to perform the first time they were together, she’d felt honored that he’d shared it with her and had honestly tempered her expectations knowing that it might not happen.
Then once it had happened, she just assumed that if she was lucky enough to share intimate time with him again, there was a chance that things wouldn’t go as smoothly. But that didn’t seem to be a problem so far.
He sank into her slowly and her body stretched to accommodate him. Her mouth opened as she let out a tiny whimper at the sting of the intrusion.
Above her, Josh froze. “Are you okay? Do you want me to stop?”
“No. Don’t stop.”
Yes, it was a little painful, but it was also very pleasurable. She’d found out that there was actually a pretty thin line between the two. What might hurt one second felt like bliss the next. And that’s exactly what happened when he continued pushing inside of her. Her body stretched and the pressure, the sting melted into a tingling intensity that spread through her entire body.
As much as she’d enjoyed being blindfolded, now that he was inside of her she wanted to see him. Since her arms were pinned under his, she moved her head trying to peek beneath it. Josh must have noticed.
“You feel so fucking good,” He whispered against her ear as he slid the blindfold off of her head.
She blinked, her eyes adjusting to the dim lighting as she grasped his hips. He lifted his head and their eyes locked as he sank deeper into her body. Her lips parted on a silent gasp as he filled her completely.
He stilled for a moment, giving her body time to acclimate to him. She could feel her muscles pulsating around his hard, thick shaft. Every time her body contracted, Josh swelled inside of her causing a swirling pressure to build low in her belly.
Their eyes remained locked as he began to move. He pulled back gently and entered her again, and again each time with more force causing the pressure of her release to build.
His pace began to increase, and she arched her back as she tilted her hips up to meet his body. She was so close; she could feel herself about to come apart, but it was just out of reach. Each time he drove into her she would get right to the edge of bliss but then when he retracted it would pull her away from it.
As if sensing her frustration, Josh lowered his head and sucked her nipple into his mouth. She felt his teeth surround her pebbled nub and as he surged into her one final time he bit down. The sharp sensation shot straight between her legs and pushed her over the edge of oblivion. She gasped as her orgasm crashed over her in a glorious, wild eruption of pleasure. She rode the intensity until her body shuddered with completion.
Just as she was drifting back to reality, Josh shifted so that he was lying on his back and pulled her with him so that she was draped over his body. Her head rested on his chest as his hand rubbed up and down her back.
“Is it always like this?” She didn’t have anything to compare her experiences to, but he did. Josh had been with plenty of other women, and Audrey wanted to know if this was what it was like with them. If it was this incredible, this intense, this intimate.
“What do you mean?” he asked as his hand raked through her hair.
“Does it just keep getting better each time?” She lifted her head and looked up at him. “Is that normal?”
“No. This isn’t normal. It’s never been like this with anyone before.” He leaned down and kissed her on her forehead and a warmth spread through her like hot cocoa on a winter day.
It wasn’t what he said that made her feel so special, so cherished, so safe, it was the way he’d said it and the look in his eyes. She knew that wasn’t a declaration of love, but she’d take it.
24
Audrey tried to put on a brave face as she took a deep breath while she sat in her car outside Tessa Maguire’s house. The past week had been its own special form of torture. The only silver lining was that it had been singles week so Brewed had been slammed with the influx of tourists so she hadn’t had time for the emotional breakdown she deserved.
After Josh had shown up at her house for a movie night and they’d ended up having sex, he’d stayed the night. Maybe she was naïve. Or maybe he really had been sending mixed signals, but when he’d told her he couldn’t lose her, when he’d spent the night with his arms wrapped around her, when the next morning he’d woken her up by kissing her neck and telling her how beautiful she was, the very last thing that she expected for him to do was to say that he thought she needed to go to all the singles events and date other people.
As Viv would say, what in the actual fuck?
It had completely blindsided her. She’d just stood there, totally speechless as he got dressed. She hadn’t argued. Hadn’t stood up for herself. She’d just said a faint, “Okay.”
Because what was she supposed to do? Tell him that she was madly in love with him? Tell him that there never had been and never would be anyone else for her? Tell him that he was the only man she’d ever loved and would ever love?
They hadn’t even used the L word.
Since none of those had been viable options, she’d spent the past few days going through the motions of life. She hadn’t taken him up on his suggestion to date other people or do any of the events of the week. But she’d gone to work. She’d watched people flirt, and fingers crossed, fall in love.
The town was brimming with hopeful singles ready to find love. And she was heartbroken.
Her phone buzzed and she looked down to see that it was a text from Viv.
Viv: Why are you sitting in your car?
Audrey sniffed and replied.
Audrey: Just finishing up a podcast. I’ll be right in.
The last thing she wanted was for her sister to come outside and grill her. This week Viv had been very distracted with all of the activities she was overseeing, so thankfully she hadn’t seen her sister. She knew that if she had, she would have known something was wrong.