I began trembling not knowing what next to do.
Father said “They will be here any minute.”
I realized I probably had only 30 minutes to pack my things. Tears welled up in my eyes as I turned and walked away into my room.
I realized, I no one outside of this world so there's no way to hide.
I'm fearful I could feel the nerves in my stomach.
The tears stream down my face slowly as I step into my room. I wipe the tears off my cheeks.
I pull out the suitcase, that is the moment my mother’s picture fell to the floor.
I then realized, I had no choice.
It was either go with Sergei’s men or face the possibility of facing a wrath worse than what happened to my mother.
I made a decision to go with Sergei’s men when they finally arrive.
Oh well, I'm trapped because there's nothing for me to do now. There's no way out of this. There's no escaping my destiny.
I slumped down in the chair for a moment thinking to myself what can I do to get out of this world forever?
If I end up with Dimitri, would I even enough for him?
I started rocking on the my chair listening wooden old furniture hit the creaky floor.
I thought about how this house was once a place of fun.
I closed my eyes and imagined myself on a beach somewhere.
I've never even had sex before.
I wondered if it would hurt?
I began thinking about Sergei’s shriveled old body touching mine. I cringed at the thought.
If there is a way out of this, I would do it right now.
My father then knocked on my door, “hurry up they will be here in 10 minutes.”
He kept questioning what was taking so long!
I didn't know what to say. I simply replied : “I am almost done dad.”
I hurried tossing items into a bag still hoping this was a bad dream.
I mean he didn't even give me a chance to prepare.
I hear him in the kitchen drinking and singing as he always does. I figured he was probably celebrating giving his daughter away to an man older than him.
What kind of father would celebrate such a thing?
Definitely not a man that loves his only child?
I look up at my room’s window as lights seeps through.
I just wished in this moment that I could actually climb and escape.
But I'm not stupid.
Where will I go?
I know that I am trapped whether or not I like it.
I sigh and think might as well make the best of the situation. I have to be calm. Then I heard father yell out again:
“five minutes!”
The more father called out, the more I panicked.
I started throwing items into the box.
I picked up my mother's picture off the floor and tossed it into my bag. I decided to keep it as a memory.
I figured in a crazy way she will be there with me.
“Hurry up!” Father yells again. I want to scream!
I thought about doing something crazy to myself but then what good would that do? Nothing whatsoever. It would only serve to hurt me while Sergei and father get away with this. So I accepted my reality. Be a good girl and do as you are told!
I am trapped. My heart beats faster. I know what is coming. I cannot stop it.
Any minute now they're going to knock on my door.
Lars
I had somewhat hoped that Sergei would not ask I do his bidding this time around.
I wanted to stay out of it. Suddenly, I find myself attracted to his future bride. Normally I could care less about the women he chose. They mean nothing to me.
I am usually cold and without feeling for whomever he brings over. My task is simply to break them in. But this time, it is different.
She was innocent and pure. I could not guarantee I would stay away from taking his bride’s virginity. Even though he had no qualms with my taking her in the ass.
But If I were to take her I would definitely want to be the first man driving into her untouched walls.
So I took in a deep breath and hoped he would not ask me to do his bidding this time around.
But I knew he would. This woman was about to become his most precious asset. Even though, it was not forever.
But then what lasts forever? Not a fucking thing.
I tried to put her out of my mind.
She is just like any other woman out there, dispensable.
I saw no reason to think about her more than I should. Besides it fucking messed with my mind. I have other things to worry about right about now. Irina cannot, and shouldn’t be the woman that consumes my mind day and night!
“Blake will go with you Lars,” Sergei said in a firm voice.
I gasped. It was one thing to get the girl. But why have Blake, a thorn in my flesh fucking tagging along?
I saw no reason for it.
I protested bitterly. I said, “I can bring her to you alone, Boss”
Sergei’s eyes widened. He rubbed his jaw and stared at me. He could believe I just questioned his orders.
It was the first time I boldly protested his request.
He laughed and said, ‘I am happy to hear you retrieve her all alone. But this situation requires two. She might be innocent and quiet looking but if she is anything like her mother, she would have the fighting spirit in her. I need her here by my side. Not that I doubt your abilities, Lars. But just in case things go crazy. Blake will be by your side.”
I gritted my teeth and turned to Blake who smirked mischievously. That is the moment Blake commented, “Seems like Lars wants to have first dibs on her ass boss!”
Blake had always been a thorn in my flesh. He was the only one I wished was not part of the family.
He had no qualms in sending jabs my way.
I fucking hated him.
But having him here was not something I could avoid.
It was not for me to say who joined the family and who got sent. out. That decision rested squarely on Sergei.
He placed his hands in front of his body and then stared back at me.
Sergei was not pleased to hear Blake’s assertion.
Sergei pointed a finger my way and said, “You can play with her touch or do whatever you want but you must not take her virginity. Her untouched pussy's mine and no one else's. Do I make myself clear?”
I nodded.
That is the moment Blake stepped forward and unclasped his jacket. I thought don’t be a fool. Don’t ask any questions man.
Blake asked, “And her ass boss?" I shook my head and thought how dare he talk to Sergei that way what is he thinking? Of course, he wasn't thinking, more like his Thick Lenght was controlling his brain. Dimitri gave him a dark stare. He got the message and looked away.
“That will be all," Sergei said and with that, we stepped away from his presence.
We drove in silence towards Irina's home.
I know Blake wanted to say something to me but honestly, I didn't really want to talk to him.
I didn't want to say a word to him.
The moment we got there late, he grabbed my elbow and said “listen, don't get too carried away. She's cute and all. But she for the boss never forget that.”
I pulled my arm away from his grip.
Then I said “Whatever you might be thinking is not going to fucking happen, Blake. Listen Let's just get the girl.”
He nodded and with that, we stepped out the car and walked up to the gate.
The moment, we stepped into her house to pick her up. Irina sat there with bloodshot eyes, she sat in the living room there all alone, a clothes bag by her leg.