She looked like she had been crying her eyes out. Her pupils bloodshot red. It hurt to see her like that, but I reminded myself that it shouldn’t fucking be my concern.
I was here to do a job. I was here to deliver her to Sergei that was my order, nothing more. No fucking emotions nothing.
But then again she looked so deflated it made my heart ache. I couldn't believe I was reacting this way towards her.
I never usually care about any of these women.
It was all business why do I suddenly have the urge to protect her?
She trembles and quivers. She stares up into my eyes. I wanted to take her in my arms and protect her. Why is she fucking having this effect on me? I take in a deep breath and exhale.
Then I say to her, "it's time to go."
She nods as though she understands what is expected. I helped her up to her feet, while Blake gets her bags.
We bundled her into the car, of course, I was gentle.
As I drove down the highway towards Sergei’s Place, I kept stealing glances at her through the rearview mirror.
She sat there silently crying.
I thought to myself now that's not a way to start a marriage to Sergei. If she shows up at his house looking this way he's going to be livid.
So I encouraged her to please smile. I told her she's going to the best place on earth which was a fucking lie.
But then isn't that what this business is all about, hmm lies? The moment, we pull up into the driveway, she suddenly burst out sobbing louder.
I thought fucking hell, this girl is going to get me in trouble. I then turned towards Blake and said, "listen to get her settled in the room we can't have Sergei see her this way." And for once Blake actually agreed with me.
He nodded and said you do that. I held her hand and led her into the dark bedroom, her home until the wedding day. She tried to snatch her hands out of mine.
I thought to myself boy she feisty or what this was going to be trouble. I lift her up and tossed on the bed.
Then I warned her that she cannot leave this room.
She replied in a trembling voice, "you don't tell me what to do. You are just the help."
I sighed and laughed. Then I said, “Is that what you think? I am the help?”
She stammered, "yes."
I stepped towards her.
Frightened, she slid back on the bed.
As she did so I noticed her pink nipple popped out. Obviously, she didn't notice but I did.
I mean I stared at her for a moment and I got fucking hard.
I quickly adjusted bulge.
I should be thinking about her that way. She was making it so freaking hard to.
“Looks like something popped out,” I said to her.
She gasped and stared down at her chest. Stunned to see her pink bud making an appearance, she said, "freaking hell."
She immediately popped her nipple back into her top. And then she palmed her face.
She said “why is this happening, oh why me?”
That's the moment I said, "just for your own good you really need to put on a happy face Sergei would not be pleased if you look this way when he finally gets to see you."
She sighed and turned her face away.
Lonely tears ran down her face.
She then looked up to me and quipped, “I will not marry him.”
I laughed and said “You have no choice. You must do everything Sergei requests. If you don't do it you're going to end up dead. You cannot escape this place it's a fortress. If you do make an attempt to escape, they will have no problem killing you.”
I hated being blunt but she needed to know this was no fairytale. Horrified her face became pale.
She gasped and said, “Who are you to tell me....?"
I folded my arms and cut her off by saying, “You never know it could be me. Now put on a happy face. I'll be back to check on you."
Before she could respond, I stepped out the door. I leaned against the door and listened to her muffled cries.
I swallowed and thought this was going to be harder than expected. I knew Dimitri was in the market for a new bride but I had no idea she was the one.
Her desperate sounds tugged deeply at my heart. I felt sorry for her, but I doubted there was any way I could help her. There was no way out of this place. Once Sergei decides you are his bride, there was no going back even if you wanted to leave. It was like hotel California.
I placed my hand on the lock ready to open the door. But then I stopped myself from doing so. Open the door Lars, a voice within me said. I fought the urge to do so. Should I open the door and pull her into my arms and soothe her? Sounds like a plan but what could would that do? She is not yours Lars. She is Dimitri’s. Her cries got louder, I placed my hand on the door knob.
But then I pulled back reminding myself this has nothing to do with you. Focus on the task ahead Lars that is all you need to do. And with that, I slid my hand off the door and walked away but not for long.
Irina
I didn't sleep all night long.
I stayed crouched on the bed crying my eyes out.
This was not the way I expected my engagement would be. This was not how the romance novels I read in secret, depicted what an engagement would entail. This was hell to some respects. I wanted out of this place. I wanted to be free. But then I don’t have any choice.
I cannot be free unless I accept Dimitri is going to be my husband. I had no idea what was the time of the day.
That is the moment, I heard a knock. The creaking door sounds jolted me back to reality...
Whoever was at the door could easily push the door open. I guess he did not do so because he wanted to allow a private moment so I could look presentable?
I quickly sat knees up on the bed.
Just then the door swung open and in walked Lars. Oh my goodness he was crazy sexy. His clothes fit him like a freaking glove.
I had to remind myself that he was not the man I would be with, even though I had this sudden desire to be with him. His sexy toned body did something to my brain. I felt an ache between my legs that could honestly not be denied even if I tried.
His eyes raked my body as I sat there looking dejected. I bit my lower lip. I noticed he stared at my breasts, hmm could he want me too?
I swallowed as he began to pace the room. I imagined he room spinning. I could not stop that feeling. He stands in front of me and all I could think about was how sexy he looked. What is wrong with you, Irina?
He captured you.
He does not deserve such praise. You should try to escape. But then did he? My father gave me away to the man he thinks should be my husband. The man he owes a massive debt. Is that all I am to my father? A pawn to pay his gambling debts?
He took steps around me for a moment and then he paused positioning his body directly in front of me.
I'll be lying if I said my eyes didn't notice more than just his toned frame. Hmm.
I noticed that thick length running down the side of his thigh. I swallowed and pictured his body between my legs, then I whispered underneath my breath “Stop it, Irina, why are you getting turned on by the bodyguard?
You are about to be married to Sergei for crying out loud. Once I get hitched to Sergei my life as I knew it would be history. I will be Dimitri’s new toy to do as he pleases and father would be happy because his debts would be cancelled.
I remind myself that I am doing this for the family. I am a good girl and that is what good girls do. They focus on the family and not on their wants and desires.