I stroked his jaw. His stubble was rough against my hand. My thumb brushed over his full bottom lip as his hands roamed the back of my thighs. Leaning into his mouth, I whispered, "I love you, Kova. I want you to always remember that." Then I pressed my lips to his and savored the feel of his lips on mine, and I kissed him longer.
Kova deepened the kiss. I moaned when his hand came up and the tips of his fingers gripped the sides of my neck. He hauled me closer to him in pure desperation. His devious mouth overpowered mine. He took control of the kiss and set the pace. I panted, my lips parting. Kova wasted no time delving his tongue into my mouth with a flair that weakened my knees. He was a skilled kisser and I was needy for him.
Lowering my hips, I scooted closer, needing to feel his bare skin against mine. My nipples pressed into his chest. I sighed into his mouth from the warmth exuding from his body and wrapped my arms around his shoulders only for Kova to break the kiss.
He quietly repeated what I'd just said to him. "I love you, Adrianna. I want you to always remember that."
I reached for the elastic of his shorts. My eyes caught his Olympic ring tattoo. I could get a matching one now. He watched me, then grabbed my wrist for a moment like he was nervous. I glanced up and swallowed thickly, meeting his gaze.
Kova let go and I shifted off his body to pull his gym shorts down. His erection sprang free and laid above his hips. My eyes widened. Thick with my favorite vein, his length hung a little to the side when he laid on his back. I dragged my teeth over my bottom lip feeling the desire awaken inside of me after it was dormant for so long.
"Come here," he demanded.
Kova grabbed the sides of my face when I climbed back up his body. He kissed me as he rolled us so I was underneath him. He crushed me with his weight, and I rejoiced quietly knowing he was reaching his breaking point. My hands found his back, suddenly greedy to touch him the way I wanted to after so long. I loved feeling how his muscles contracted under my touch. He was so strong. Little sounds from me melted into his mouth. My nails scored his skin. Kova flexed against my fingers then reached between us to unbutton my shorts.
Moving to his knees, he pulled off my shorts and panties in one swift move and then halted in his tracks.
His brows lowered into a harsh frown. I followed his gaze to my stomach and my heart sank.
"Kova," I said softly. He looked at me with blank eyes. "I'm okay."
He was hesitant, then dropped my shorts on the bed. He regarded my body with contemplative eyes then looked at me again. I smiled at him with affection. We were both bare to each other now.
Kova surprised me by kissing my stomach again. I pressed my lips between my teeth and bit down. I glanced at the ceiling, fighting the emotion from his tenderness. I wish he hadn't done that. My knees pulled up and my nails dug deeper into the sheets. I expelled an audible breath trying to find the strength for this—for us. I was shaking on the inside, unprepared for the emotional aspect to hit me the way it was. Kova placed his hand over mine and loosened my fingers that were twisting the sheet. I sucked in a breath. He climbed up my body, my knees spreading wide for him.
"Ria," he said.
I shook my head. I wasn't ready to face him now.
"Adrianna, look at me," he begged.
I couldn't. I was afraid to see that he regretted me, us, this. It was too much for my heart to handle.
"My love." His voice softened, and I broke down.
Tears streamed down my temples and I sniffled, still refusing to look at him.
"I can't," I said. "I can't look at you. I don’t want to see the regret in your eyes again. I already saw it once tonight when you first looked at my stomach." I flattened my lips for a second. "I don't want to see that you'll never want me like you used to."
Kova positioned his body over mine and laid on me, forcing me to look at him. "Even when I am dead, long buried, and forgotten about, I will still love you, I will still want you. That will never change. You are a part of me now, just like I am of you. We are connected for the rest of our lives." He leaned down and swept a sensual kiss across my lips. "And I am going to show you just how connected we are, Malysh."
Taking my arms, he bent them above my head and held both my hands securely in one of his. He captured my lips with his own and drove his tongue into my mouth determined to make me stop overthinking. He grabbed my thigh and hiked it over his waist to seat himself more comfortably between my legs. A moan purred in the back of my throat. His straining cock pressed against my hip as his kiss did wicked things to me. He moved his hand to my breast and my back arched in response. I let out a small sigh. He gave it a gentle squeeze then teased my nipple between his fingers. My body pressed into his, already begging for more.
Kova devoured my mouth, not giving me more than a second to take a breath before he was consuming me again. He tugged my nipple harder, so hard that I felt a zing hit my clit. I gasped in response and tried to wiggle my hands free so I could touch him. I needed to, but he held them down with more weight and deepened the kiss. His silky tongue twirled around mine and tugged before he let go and ran it along the roof of my mouth. Each and every time he kissed me like this, I was weak.
He slowed the kiss, then pulled back, allowing me to inhale needed gulps of air. I looked at him and my breath caught in my throat at the look of love in his eyes.
I’d been stupid to worry about how he felt about me and us. This man clearly loved me like he claimed.
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I whimpered, already missing his touch when his hand found my throat.
My eyes widened as his fingers encased my slender neck. I may trust him and get turned on when he does this, but it was still a little intimidating when I was helpless.
My body writhed against his. Kova shifted to the side and his cock pressed against my pussy. He leaned down and closed the distance, kissing me painfully slow. His tongue stroked mine too sensually and I shuddered. His thumb smoothed over my pulse and carried me to another level. Kova's hips rolled into mine. For a split second my heart skipped a beat and my body tensed, but then Kova slipped his tongue around mine and I exhaled into him.
I didn't hold back the pleasure filled moan and let it roll off my lips. God, I loved this. There was something thrilling about being at his mercy and the way he manipulated my body. Silver stars danced in my vision. Little black dots floated in the distance the tighter he squeezed around my neck. It was getting harder to breathe. Still, I didn't tell him to stop. There was a dark part of me that took gratification in being choked. I liked the way he made my body go in and out of tunnels of pleasure. I liked the way he set what my body could do and couldn't do. I let him and craved it.
My mind went blank as he thrust his hips, his thick erection teasing my entrance. I attacked his mouth with mine and he growled his approval, nipping my lips and kissing me like the untamed animal he was. My heels dug into the back of his thighs. I needed more of him.
"Kova," I whispered. "I need you."
His eyes dilated. He released my wrists and reached between us to grab his cock. Kova looked down as he used the head to stroke my lips until they spread open. I was swollen and so pink. Kova's nostrils flared as he teased my wet entrance. My hips rolled back and I angled my body to get more of him. He pressed his fist against my pussy and pushed the tip through his hand to enter me.