“But…” My bottom lip quivers with emotion I’m trying to suppress. “I’m a guy.”
“I noticed.” He cups my face. “Briar, you’re not the only one who forgot to guard his heart.”
“Wha-what does that mean?”
“It means I’m in love with you too. I love you, Briar.”
A strange whimper leaves my chest as tears flood my eyes. “You love me. Oh my god, Jude. You love me?”
He smiles as his eyes turn glassy. “I do. Everything about you. You’re so funny and sweet and you have the biggest heart. You’re gorgeous and sexy and so good at what you do. You just fit me, Bri. In ways I never even imagined for myself. I want to be with you.”
“This is the best day of my life.”
Jude chuckles. “Mine too, baby.”
His lips crash into mine and the kiss is…well it’s real. I relax into him, pressing my body to his and exploring his mouth with renewed interest. I don’t have to hold back anymore. Jude is in love with me. He wants me.
His lips move to my neck, and then he nibbles on my earlobe before whispering, “Can we make love now?”
I step back, meeting his eyes. “We don’t have to yet. We can build up to it.”
“We have built up to it. For three months. You don’t want to?”
“I want to more than—” I cut myself off, laughing. “I’m just worried it’s gonna be a lot for you.”
“Probably, but I’m ready for it. I want to touch you, Bri.” His voice falls to a sexy whisper. “I want to explore your body.”
“Oh fuck.”
Jude smiles. “I want to do that too. It’s been so long.”
“For both of us.”
“Remember the night we came home after the club and danced in the kitchen?”
“Yeah.”
“Remember what we did in the morning?”
“I taught you frotting.”
Jude drags his tongue across his bottom lip. “Up against the kitchen island, rubbing our bodies together, our dicks touching and slick with lube, it was the most erotic moment of my life. You thought I would freak out because our dicks touched.”
“Yeah.”
“But what it did for me was open my eyes to experiences I hadn’t considered before. Since then, I’ve been curious.”
“In what way?”
“I’ve watched some porn. I’ve touched myself in places I hadn’t before.”
My eyes widen. “Like where, Jude?”
His face flushes, and his eyes reflect pure desire for me. “I’ve fingered myself more than once.”
I exhale sharply as a wave of lust burns through me. “Fuck.”
“And I like it. A lot. I closed my eyes and imagined it was you doing those things to me, and I wanted it to be true. I wanted more frotting and touching and kissing. I just didn’t know how to ask for it. I was holding back because I hadn’t figured out what to do with how I was feeling about you.”
“Wow.”
“But I’ve figured it out now. So yeah, this is new and foreign, but…” Jude pauses, taking my hand and pressing it to his erection. “I want it. I want you.” Jude leans in and kisses my neck. “And I know you want me, so please stop cockblocking me. I’m ready for this, and I have a feeling it’s gonna be amazing because it’s you and me and we’re…” He smiles with a soft chuckle. “Made for each other.”
My brain is racing with so many thoughts and feelings and nerves, but the one thought that rises to the top of all of them is how desperately I want this. Without additional words, I crash into him, taking his mouth as we fall back on the loveseat. I fiddle with his belt as we kiss, ready to worship this man the way I’ve imagined it a million times. Once I’ve got them open, I reach in and grab hold of his erection, hot and hard in my hand, and stroke him before sliding off him to my knees, leaving a trail of kisses.
“Don’t make me come with that gorgeous mouth,” Jude whispers. “I need to be inside of you tonight.”
I think my brain just short circuited. “We don’t have—”
Jude leans in and presses a kiss to my lips, stopping additional words. “Stop doing that. I’m here because I want to be. I know what I’m doing. I’m sober, and I love you. People who love each other make love.”
“Make love…”
“I know, baby. No one’s ever said that to you. Me either, but that’s because we’ve never been in love like this.”
I blink my eyes to clear the emotion. I have a job to do. I close my mouth over him, sucking him down my throat. If there’s one thing I know I’m good at, it’s sucking dick, but Jude is a challenge with his insane girth and slightly unreasonable length. I knew it was a beast even before I saw it from the constant bulge in the tight jeans he wears or the unrestrained swinging in his gym shorts when he just hangs around the house. But I have little practical experience with something so big, so I dig my nails into his thighs and go at it like the dick-sucking boss I am.
Jude’s sexy moaning encourages me as he tangles his fingers in my hair, twisting with just enough pressure to give a delicious sting. My eyes shift up to find him watching me with hooded eyes, his lips parted, his breath heavy in his chest. I creep down, gently licking his hole, and he spreads his legs for me, giving me more access. I suck there, marveling at how perfect he is as I drag my tongue over his most intimate parts.
“Put your finger in me,” Jude whispers. “Feel how soft I am.”
I nod, pressing into him. He tenses but then relaxes as he slowly exhales. “So nice.”
“Someday you’ll fuck me.” Jude pushes onto my finger. “I can’t wait.”
“I can’t think about that right now or I’ll lose it.”
I return my mouth to his dick while my finger searches for his prostate. When I find it, Jude’s eyes shoot open.
“Fuck!”
His stomach muscles ripple as he subtly fucks into my mouth until I suck him as far down my throat as I can and swallow. He tenses before pulling back.
“You can’t do that,” Jude says with a smile on his lips. “I don’t want to come yet.”
Rising, I climb onto his lap, straddling him and kissing him hard. His hands find their way into my trousers, gripping and kneading my ass while I unbutton my shirt.
“You have a gorgeous ass,” Jude murmurs on my lips. “I can’t wait to get in it.”
I release a moan into his mouth as I grind into him, but shortly feel his hand pushing against my chest. He guides me until I’m lying back on his legs, my head pointing towards the floor, my legs clinging to his hips. Jude unzips my trousers, opening them to reveal my boxers, my dick making a show of itself as it peeks over the waistband. Jude doesn’t hesitate and pulls my boxers down just enough to release my erection and balls. His hands glide over my stomach as he licks his lips.
“Just stop me if I do it wrong.”
I nod, saying nothing, wide-eyed, as I watch Jude lick the crown of my dick. He smiles, his eyes shifting down to me.
“You taste good.”
“Oh fuck.”