My flesh tingled with rapture. I closed my eyes and allowed myself to fall in a cave of depraved thoughts with him. It was decadent and tempting, and where I came alive. The intimacy wasn't a casual affair. Far from it. The intimacy between me and Kova was about truth and what would ultimately connect us forever. We could tell each other anything, and he told me his truth the way he made soul-searing love to me.
I could feel Kova's orgasm as he unloaded inside of me. My pussy was slippery from his thick fluid. Hearing him find release was orgasm inducing. Feeling his cum spill out of me as he mounted me from behind was an experience I’d never forget.
I was free-falling still when Kova finished and swiftly pulled out. He grabbed my hips and shoved me further up the bed and flipped me over. A breath escaped me and my body opened to him. Kova climbed over me and crushed me with his weight. His lips devoured mine and his tongue was needy. I kissed him back and cradled myself around him. The inside of my thighs were sticky, and his heavy cock lay pressed between us, wet and burning hot. There was something about the way we were tangled that made my heart rush with love.
His kisses would be the death of me.
Fingers in my hair.
Damp bodies.
Starving kisses.
Legs straining in ecstasy.
He. Did. Not. Stop.
Kova's passion was all-consuming. He was going to make sure I felt him for eternity.
Fifty-Four
Kova turned over and took me with him.
I laid on top and felt the cool breeze blow against my back. I shivered and Kova wrapped his strong arms around me. His warm embrace transported me back in time when we had experienced this a time or two when there was no outside noise and it was just us.
My eyes watered. I was beginning to understand what Kova was trying to explain to me that I was so bent against. Because right now, when there was not a single thing that could interrupt us, it was harmony in the soul. This was peace. This was true bliss in every aspect, and really, how it should feel.
It was how it needed to be.
I lifted my gaze to meet Kova's. Sparkling emerald green and gunmetal gray stared back at me. He released my legs from his and I dragged them up to straddle his waist. My tongue ran over my swollen lips and heat flamed my cheeks when I felt myself leak his pleasure onto his pelvis. It was so warm and thick.
A smirk tugged at Kova's lips that made my heart stumble. He lifted his hips slightly to glide over my clit. I gasped then clenched, feeling more of his cum ooze from me. He liked it and my cheeks deepened in color. I wondered if I had ever seen his filthiest side.
Palming the back of my head, he brought my lips to his and gently kissed me. My body was exhausted and I was beginning to feel tired. The tips of his fingers dragged lazily up and down my spine. I purred into his kiss. Kova used his other hand to reach behind me and drag two fingers coated with his release over my clit.
"Kova, I'm a little sore," I said against his mouth. "Give me a minute."
He ignored me and rubbed the sensitive ball in circles. I squirmed on top of him, feeling out of breath. My nipples brushed across his and my body was on fire when he traced my folds. My toes curled and I tried to hold back from feeling too much. His fingers dipped into my pussy and pressed along the walls of my sex. He withdrew and dragged them up to my ass. I clenched.
"Let me play with you," he asked gently, his voice rough. I nodded and rested my head on his chest. "I like touching your pussy. If you need to come while I am, go ahead. Rub your clit on me, Malysh. But let me have this."
My legs spread wider for him and I closed my eyes, exhaling. He pulled my hair off my neck, and I dragged lazy circles around his chest. The heel of his hand cupped my ass as his fingers delved into my tender sex. My hips widened and I exhaled a sigh. Kova breathed and his stomach stroked my clit. I let go and let myself just feel.
"I forgot how small you are on me. I miss it," he said, twirling the ends of my hair.
"I didn't expect you tonight."
"I will not apologize for coming here."
A sad smile tugged at my lips. I was glad he couldn't see it. "I would hope not."
Kova stroked me softly, twirling his fingers into my pussy the way he was twirling my hair. I felt the budding of an orgasm and was immediately humiliated. I didn't want to come like this on him. My thighs squeezed his stomach and he sensed I was close.
"I need you to know something," he said, his voice a touch urgent.
I swallowed, shamelessly rubbing myself on him. My body was pulsing with need. He played my pussy like a violin and made the sweetest sounds as I orgasmed. A long moan left my lips. I was so wet that I felt it trickle down his stomach and along my thigh. Kova noticed and growled in approval.
"I think I have loved you after the first week and I did not know it. I do not regret a single day with you. I only wish I had not been so determined to keep you away. I wish I would have just acted on what I felt for you first so we could have had more time together."
He continued touching me. My breathing was labored and my heart raced. Kova slipped his fingers from my pussy and pressed on the puckered hole, and I stilled.
"Inhale." When I did, he said, "Exhale." He pressed a little deeper. "Relax."
He coaxed me to loosen up. I was weak for him, and my entire body was charged with electricity. My clit tingled and I was suddenly awake with craving.
My mouth fell open and I dug my nails into his chest. "You don't resent me for what happened?"
Tears coated my eyes again. I didn't have to say it for him to know what I was talking about.
"Never," he said, appalled I'd ask such a thing. "If anything, it makes me love you more." He drew his knees up and I felt his cock touch the back of my thigh and drive over my ass cheek. My skin heated. "Your strength is what makes you so damn magnetic. Regardless of what happened that night, I do believe it was how it was supposed to be in the end, as much as it hurts to say it."
I nodded, unable to say the words. I knew what he meant, still it didn't hurt any less.
I started to cry. "I was so worried you'd hate me or find me ugly. I didn't think you wanted me anymore, and then I started to get paranoid—"
"Look at me."
"I didn't give you a choice!" I spoke over him, crying a little more. "I wasn't going to give you a choice."
"What?" he asked, confused.
I was so sorry it broke my heart.
I had to get it out.
I was a horrible human.
Kova sat up and took me with him. "Look at me, Adrianna." His eyes were glowing as he looked at me in awe. I sat in his lap, my body shaking as I cried softly. I tried to look away, but he wouldn't let me. Whatever he was going to say, or whatever he was going to do, he wanted me to trust in him.
"I had made up my mind that I was going to get rid of our baby and then I lost it." I hiccupped. "I didn't even ask you what you wanted. I'm so sorry. God, I'm so sorry."
Kova grabbed my chin and pulled it forward to press a peck to my lips. He pulled back and I drew in a shaky breath. He looked into my eyes, then kissed me the same way again.
"Sometimes you talk too much," he said quietly against my mouth. "You worry too much too."