“Oh, fuck!” Casper’s head lolled and he was disoriented and more aroused than he’d ever been in his life as Hawk slid lower.
“But I like creepy. And I’m not going to lie and say that this is beautiful,” Hawk whispered as he kissed his way down Casper’s mangled shoulder. “But this is...” He held Casper’s gaze as his tongue swept across his left pec. It swirled around Casper’s nipple and he was insensate as desire and heat burst in his groin.
“Hawk!” He choked as he writhed beneath him.
“And this... And this. This is...tempting,” Hawk noted as his fingers dragged down Casper’s abs then teased the dark trail of hair that disappeared beneath the waist of his borrowed boxers. Hawk reached around so he could grab a handful of Casper’s asscheek and squeezed. “And...this. Somebody might have told you about this if you weren’t hiding it under all those layers. But you have the tightest, roundest ass I’ve ever seen. Probably because you have to overcompensate for the muscles you can’t use...” Hawk gave Casper’s ass another squeeze then sighed heavily as he got his elbows beneath him. Hawk hovered over Casper and his eyes shimmered as they traveled down his body before returning to his face. “This, though.” Hawk lowered his head so he could drop delicate kisses over Casper’s damaged cheek. “This is violence and pain. It’s rejection and loneliness. Those are ugly things but they’re not you. And I don’t want to look away because that would be ugly. I want to understand you and I want to help you but I want more than that.” He startled Casper all over again with a hard, hungry kiss. “I want to see you and touch you. I want to taste you and God help me, Casper, I want to fuck you. I want you so bad, you creepy asshole,” he huffed as his hand reached between them and he tore at the fly of his jeans.
“Please don’t stop!” Casper pleaded and another laugh bubbled from him as Hawk shifted and kicked until he was free of his jeans and boxers. They were naked and Casper hissed and arched as Hawk lowered and ground against him. It was astounding and bliss to feel so much skin pressed against skin, as the hard warmth of Hawk’s body pinned Casper to the bed. “Oh, God!” Casper’s eye rolled and he swallowed a strangled sob as Hawk’s erection dug into his thigh. He was so gloriously hot and hard and large. And real. For so long, sex was done in isolation and felt like cold lubricant and a long, latex arm or an iridescent dildo—styled to invoke dragons and demons, not unattainable flesh-and-bone men. Hawk’s tongue swirled around Casper’s nipple and wild heat streaked through his body and it flared in his ass.
“And, fuck, if you don’t taste perfect,” Hawk rumbled before his lips captured Casper’s. He was so demanding and hungry as his tongue washed around Casper’s while Hawk’s hands clawed and gripped, kneading and claiming everything he touched. “You taste like sunshine and honey,” he said then slid down Casper’s body so he could lap at his navel.
“Hawk!” Casper twisted away as goosebumps spread across his stomach. Hawk chuckled as his hand locked around Casper’s hip so he couldn’t escape.
“Can I taste you, Casper?” He whispered and it was a steamy huff against Casper’s skin as Hawk’s lips skimmed along the elastic waist of his boxers. Casper’s jaw remained open as he blinked at the ceiling. He couldn’t have fathomed a more impossible collection of words.
“If you want...” He said weakly and almost swallowed his tongue as Hawk grabbed the opening in the front of his boxers and ripped them apart.
“More than I’ve wanted anything in a long time,” Hawk groaned as he pushed his face into Casper’s groin and breathed him in. “So fucking perfect.” He lapped at Casper’s sac and it pulled tight as heat and pressure furled in his groin. There was more ripping and Casper gasped as his legs were parted. Hawk used his broad shoulders to spread Casper’s thighs wider then held him open as his face pressed between the cheeks of his ass.
“Oh... Fuck!” Casper clapped his hand over his eye to keep it from popping out as Hawk’s tongue bathed his hole in lush, scorching heat.
“Mmmmm...” Hawk hummed greedily as his fingers spread Casper wider. His skin burned as it was stretched but it was devastating—the pleasure and joy swirling in Casper’s groin making his body hotter and tighter. There was none of this when it was just him and Casper couldn’t stop the tears that puddled in his eye and spilled down his temple. This time, his body didn’t seek out pain to tell him this was sex. It was an entirely different range of sensations, more carnal and compelling, in ways Casper never imagined. Hawk’s tongue drilled and probed, making Casper’s eye cross as the pressure became excruciating.
“Please!”
“You said I could do whatever I want and I don’t have a condom, so I’m going to fuck you with my hands and my face,” Hawk growled and Casper whimpered as his heel dug into the bed and he fought against the overwhelming pleasure and pressure. He wanted Hawk to fuck him with his face but Casper needed to be fucked. If Hawk came to his senses and this turned out to be Casper’s one chance, he had to get fucked. He’d never get over it if he got that close to Heaven but never made it through the gate.
“No! No condoms, please!” Casper urged as he got his elbow beneath him and grabbed Hawk by his hair. “You’ve seen my bloodwork and I don’t give a fuck,” he insisted. Hawk’s eyelids fluttered and his jaw flapped as he stared up at Casper.
“I... I’m... I... I’ve never...barebacked...but...” He squinted awkwardly and Casper’s head cocked and his lips pulled into a wide grin..
“Are you too squeamish to talk about that, doctor?” He teased and Hawk’s face fell.
“I’m not supposed to encourage that!” He complained and Casper hummed as he nodded.
“I won’t tell anyone that you had sketchy sex,” he promised and Hawk scowled.
“I got tested a few weeks ago, after my last partner. But I always use protection and take PrEP,” he added and Casper nodded.
“Great!” He said then gestured impatiently. “I don’t want you to hold back anything, just take whatever you want and please, for the love of GOD, don’t be gentle!”
“Trust me, this isn’t going to be very gentle but I don’t want to rush and hurt you,” Hawk said and a snorting laugh burst from Casper.
“I’ve never been gentle with myself. You won’t hurt me,” he stated clearly and firmly but Hawk’s brows jumped dubiously.
“Casper. I’m kind of...” His nose wrinkled sheepishly. Casper smirked as he wiggled his shoulders and got comfortable.
“I had a plastic fist until they blew up my van,” he boasted then used his foot to nudge Hawk.
“Is that so?” He murmured as he lowered his shoulders and licked up the length of Casper’s cock, making him jump and gasp.
“Yes!” Casper nodded quickly then bit into his lip to hold back a whimper as Hawk sucked on the head. A thread of heat rushed up Casper’s shaft and Hawk moaned happily at the taste of his pre-cum.
“Who knew you’d be so sweet?” He said then sucked on two fingers. They traced the pucker around Casper’s hole before his fingers pressed past the tight ring. “Are you sure you’re ready?” He asked silkily as his hand twisted and he reached deep, stretching Casper.